back from hibernation..

salamz all. sowie for MIA such a long time. well cant blame a perfectionist. been so bz n my schedule is so tite. now been very bz with the reading clinic. helping the kids who cant read. n since we've been trained n obtained qualified certs, we have to conduct this clinic. im the overall in-charge with mdm julie.

jus now was hectic i tell ya. iman being iman. everything was a last minute. but still we managed to complete our task then. hmm wat was really rushing me to the core is the KidsFiesta thingy. me n mars was assigned to produce a checklist to the whole of this agenda. see how stressful is tt. not onie for wg but oso for all 4 centres. now im waiting for my dad to fetch me at skool n we're ready to set for hunting. costume rental hunting. fee maybe coming along. in all i have 4 checklist to be done n ive yet to complete at least one. after this,im goin chalet. so jobs,kept piling till i have mood to sit n settle wit it. class photo taking nx week. totally excited bout everything. n my course will start pretty soon. so ya..

i dunnoe to whom i shud express my feelings too. the depression in me. i gave all my love n trust to him n this is wat i get in return. simply said i dunnoe wat he want from me. many said ive been very stupidly patience towards him but i nvr heed their advice. n now when it already hit my own nose,then i ive realised ive been such an utterly fool. well its too late to take back my words bout me loving him so much. bout me can be patience to everyhting. bout me being able to accept wat he did to me all this while. now no more. ive had enuff wit all his nonsensical.

but then..

i kept on thinking to myself. will i regret later? coz i almost achieve wat i wanted all these while. to gain love from him. 2 yrs and ive already have the love from him. but.. how shud i say this. is it worth waiting for him? its unavoidable. its all always unplanned. its always been a sudden break out. n now this. wit him? was it merely my fault? coz from where i sit, i cant spot my mistake n flaws. was it him? who can actually ans all these qns? no one. i noe. im so depressed now.

tell ya one thing. by reading this u wont understand wat im goin thru.

to say ive move on..? maybe. looks like it la. ive been meeting n going out wit hamzah. irwan hamzah. he live juz nx block from me. n his house is visible from my house. although we rarely meet due to bz schedule,but still he is aware of the existence of hp. he made full use of it. i was touched. n i was attracted to his charming characteristic n charisma. no doubt he have the cute lookin face. but its all too early to say anything. feelings started to develop among us. this 14th august,we're goin out on a date. hope in turn out great. insya allah..

5 more mins to 3. gotta go. aite.
toodles.
salamz....

hubaiyah hubaiyah muqaddimah..

ive realised sth. but before that, salamz to all.

first n foremost. sorrie for the irregular update. apologise gazillion jazillion if u have been clicking my link for umpteenth times. time jus dont permit me to note down the facets of my life. met wit different types of peeps. throughout this whole new episodes of life.

ive discovered that,u tend to know more diff types of ppl wit diff types of needs n of coz thier own personalities. ive met diff bunchies to diff types of homies, n seriously, ive yet to see the real bunchies n homies which can really be under the same one roof wit me.

backstabbers. hypocrites. liars. unrightful behaviours are just so typical. y such things still happening? i mean ur daily life n activities is to deliver what was planned to n be the moulder of the early bloomers. but how are u supposed to fullfil that if ure behaving shitty? like an arse.
*word vomit..*

i had to end this matter. coz im gonna have more word vomit. cursing. n swearing. coz this matter is seriously killing me. its kiling me softly. all those stupid buggers out there,stop yak-yakkety-yak. come we tok face to face if u need to clarify n justify. n pls use ur common sense. n most importantly. ur brain. coz gd looks are nt helping. or another suitable term,bimbos..

u rambling hyenas are juz a bunch of schizo~!

signing out. *peace to war*

salamz

Fugue

salamz. hmm.
when my thinking ability is back in the process..
i discovered,
it's not wrong to hope. coz..

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.

and always knowing the reflections in life..

As I make my slow pilgrimage through the world, a certain sense of beautiful mystery seems
to gather and grow.

not forgetting the Friendships. coz..

The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.

well apparently the voice n the stranger within do play a part. as wat i wud like to qoute from wat Bertha von Suttner said,

After the verb "to love", "to help" is the most beautiful verb in the world.


there. been there n done it. enuff said.
think about it. try visualising if u have the ability.
action speaks louder than words.
n think before u made any conclusions.
made conclusions wit justifications.
set ur mind free.....

salamz.