ok previous entry is more of the past past past.

now we gonna hit straight to patillas on the current current current.

hehe. im loving this.

whenever i listen to smack that, it made me remind of herman filano. yeah. i dunnoe y. coz i rmb telling him tt i love akon new single and he sang. wen he sang, i was smilling wit glee n begged him for the song. he transferred it to me thru msn. so, tts y la each time i heard smack that by akon feat eminem, herman's face played in my mind. teeheehee.

next, when i heard my love by justin timberlake, trus i teringat this Rynobi aka Ry. hehe. serious. coz both of us adore him alot. it goes like this la. we went for dinner at lau pa sat as soon as iman kinderseminar ended. it was raining and while waiting for it to stop, we had our dinner at lau pa sat. we were waiting for the food to be serve, and my phone rang. osman called. now my ringtone is my love by J.T. he smiled. so while talking to osman, he was smilling at me. it was weird la kan. when i hung up the phone, he said

"aiseyman gerl. amacam bleh sama lak ringtone nie.. hehehe"

cute la he when he laugh. terpikat. then trus the whole nite its all about dance, hip hop and J.T. sama kepala and we never got bored talking bout it. da puas about all those, we moved to crita hantu plak. he told me his experienced when he undergoin his NS Police. he told me bout handling suicides la, murder la. then the encounters tt he had at his barracks. totally cuteness when he smiled.

hehe. NEXT!

u guys ever saw panic!at the disco lead singer guy? i tell u eh. tt lead singer looked like Jalil aka Jay. comel kan? its just tt Jay have this very tempting-to-kiss-able lips la. no doubt bout it. but everything bout him, the features and all are all similar. n since then i terpikat with the song "I write sins and not tragedies" hehe. serious. wa tak bedek! so each time, when terdengar tt song onie, i trus teringat him. n conferm i will sms him. if not he will sms me this..

" i tak sangka i listen to this song. but since u made me, now i terdgr. each time i terdgr, i have this urge to tell u. cpt la teringat kan i plak. g dgr radio.."

comel comel. hehe. and he plak, whenever he heard tt paris hilton song, "stars are blind" he thinks of me. takde lingkage kan? eeeeeeeeeeeee! geli.

last last, clarence plak. whenever i heard any songs by the late singer aaliyah, i tink of clarence. he is like deeply in love for her seh. any songs from her are all nice and catchy. n me plak, from not liking her, trus i listen to her song. y?

coz 4 songs sang by aaliyah is at the top of the playlist at LIMWIRE! THATS Y!!

teeheee.

and lassssssssssssssssssssssssssssst skali. haiz im gonna miss him. anything tt is related to hindustan, it will be all about Ibi. n im gonna miss him ya noe. y? he said this..

" mite as well we dun keep in touch noeing tt u will never be mine..."

this mofo. i dunnoe wat to say. he left me juz like dat. jus because i dun wanna be his gf. i have my own valid reasons k.

haiz. kk this is the slides of the guys. read the captions for who is who.

many many flashbacks happened today. y? coz it was oldskool just now.

i was enjoying the coldness and at the same time reading the book that ive borrowed. went to the library to the the queen of bubble today.

so while reading, i heard girlfriend by n'sync. touching sungguh lagu nie. teringat when hidayat wants me to be the gf, he sang for me this song. n it happened to be that im the most blur sotong to the max, i tot he sang tt song for fun. not noeing that hes hinting on sth. haha.

then when nick carter i need u tonite plak, teringat la when dzul wants be to be the gf. tt time i lived at hougang. was in love wit two. azmy and him. dzul being extra sweet, light up a candle infront of my house and arranged it " be mine?" and sing for an acapella song. tt nick carter song la. bleh pengsan aku depan pintu.

then when it comes to tearing up my heart by saper la. teringat la wen hamza sang for me tt song when he saw tt im super dooper close wit ming en back when i was in sec 2 tk silap. monkey love la. haha but touching la kan wat dis guys can do for the gfs whom they love like wat.

then got this one song, as long as u love me by bsb. woohoo this one i like the most. dylan sang this song for me. when the first time we met la. first first love love over the fone onie. then when the feelings got sooo deep we decided to meet. i tot i was being fooled la as iryan actually showed up. before meet up, i actually tot die die that this dylan guy is a caucasian guy. but it turned up that a malay guy turned up instead. rupanya2, member nak testing. hehe. its true la tt dylan is the mat salleh and iryan is the cousin.

then when he passed away, (i miss u dear), iryan was there for me. and he love this particular song. which my mp3 played without me knowing, i miss you by blink 182. iryan is not soo romantic like the cousin la. so because of him i started to listen to punk emo and indie. all sorts of genre la. thanks to yan. so when he got jamming kirakan mcm touching la kan.

when i was very active in the hiphop scene, i was wit nysham. hes the b-boy. he loves to sing duet wit me, bonnie and clyde. this song is like at everyone's lip seh at tt particular point of time. tt time everyone call their love ones boo. but nysham stick to the classic oldskool, my love. alahai....

then after a few malay songs, ter main la plak lagu ruffedge, yg, "bila rindu" i tink the title of the song. haaa this one terus teringat la si fahmi. hehe kekek la kan. he sanggup memorise tt song before i left for pahang staff retreat, and we sang tt song, and by the time i gt home from pahang, he can sing tt song like a pro oready. can cair la upon hearing his voice.

then toby lightman nyer lagu plak masuk. devils and angel. this one made me rmb of hamzah. tt u-noe-who guy. heh. he loved smallville alot. so he like this song. n he said the ferst time he saw me, this song was playing in his head repeatedly. tts y la he dedicate tt song to me. haha

then got summore la but i cant afford to list down all. pecah tembelang la kan seeing how many failed relationships i went thru. hehe. all these are monkey love k. tmr i shall blog bout the recent sings wit the recent ones.

adioz.

it sucks. super surreal sucks.

do u noe how it feels if ure totally been ignored. it is sooo not good feelings rite? tts wat im facing rite now ya noe. i mean yeah i was told for the upteenth time that the reasons he reacted like this today its because of the weather and feeling lethargic. but im not satisfied wit his reasons. i felt its like more of excuses. and for the first time ever i was being ignored totally the whole day. so u can imagine how bored i am this whole day.

coz frankly speaking, hes the one that actually made the day. his endless goody goody msg-es, this endless hehe-hoho-haha text and phrases. his almost im all about u kinda msg to me are all is a must. but wat really making me in total puzzle is why? why me?

he claimed tt he not onie ignored me but also another fren of his. okie la no doubt la i have to admit that i dun like having a guy frens who have a lot of gerl frens. tt totally not making me at ease. so this fren of mine here is like more of gerlfrens compared to the boyfrens. k tts besides the point actually as to what im gonna complain tonite. the thing is, y he have to go thru all these and drag me into the matter? i mean wats the shoulders and the ears for?

well initially, for your info, theres a shoulder to cry on and i can lend the ears to listen to. im always a good listerner. so he can consider me rite? he is never the secretive kinda person. he shares all the tots and feelings and almost about everything. but now how come tonite he is totally different.

the bottom line is, i cant accept the fact that i m ignored by him with reasons that he gave was, coz of the weather and feeling all lethargic. very illogical rite? i dun understand ar. when things gonna be a-ok, things gonna corrupt and there goes back to square one. i jus dun deserve this.

thats totally bout him. ive been bragging on n on about Jay a.k.a Abdul Jalil. the guy whom we declared have feelings for each other. look now wat happen. n so a fren said, langit tak selalu cerah. yelah, memang. tp pernah dgr tak aper guna nya kawan? ppl said, my feelings my say, u dun have the rite to noe if i dun wan to. ya la but if it already affected the someone that u love so dearly, u can still bear with it issit?

*faints*

heart pain seh when talking bout this matter.

tts Jay part. now it comes to this Herman Filano guy. i dunnoe if hes gone deaf naturally or was just putting an act. he acted super surreal blur tonite. i admitted, being told the new task in one whole shot was just a culture shock and everything, so i was fuming wit everything, and i let it all in one go at him wen he called before lunch. cant be blame. a hungry lady can be a very angry lady. so it happened tt he called before i had my lunch, and too bad la kan, he gt all the fook-a-doodle-ding-tiang.

but he just kept quiet.

and im sure u guys knew me too well rite, a softie. i called him when im on my way to get lunch. i apologised to him. sincerely okie. realising my mistakes and all and said tat i was in a blur mode jz now. he understands. so thats all for the whole afternoon. and then now, hes giving me the cold shoulder. wtf?

aku seriously tak faham la ngan lelaki ni sume. sumpah!

i asked him many many times la wats wrong wit him. he wit full ego said nutting nutting nutting. bih when i wanna have conversations with him, he replied u noe in the i-dun-wanna-tok-la-biatch kinda way. heart pain seh. blood boiling to the max k. then till now, im like as if talking to the wall. well at least wall is very well spotted, cant ans coz its like i said very well spotted! a non living thing.

but someone pls tell me that herman is a man. a human. a living thing.

sumpah! aku tak faham lelaki!

i tot just maybe i can blog the pictures of the guys tt cause the headache. but on a second tot i dun tink its a good idea. altho its very tempting.

shud i or shudnt i?

aniways, my new addiction is to the latest single by christina aguilera, Hurt. the lyrics are sooo meaningful tt i fell in love the moment i heard it for the first time. and i realise tt i miss my mom sooo much. her absence do give me a lil bit of quietness and boredom. tt can be a lil mundane.

hmm. what shall i do for now? ive swept the floor. ive did the laundry and done with the dishes. cooking gonna be later. as for now im gonna sit down and do nothing. stares at the ceiling? do teaching aides?

ohh no for goodness sake its holiday. christmas. ppl dun tink bout werk. ppl tink bout enjoy. so i shall do stuffs tt i enjoy. ive read almost all the books on the shelf. almost all the books ive read more than thrice. wat else? music? im waiting patiently for the teens choice awards.

ouh u guys, ive just realise the vocalist for the band, Panic! at the disco, look exactly similar, like replica of Jay. totally the same. like the malay verse goes, saling tak tumpah. i was soo exhilarated, i sms-ed him n told him. serious! even when im typing this, im all excited coz i tink apart from justin timberlake, tt panic! guy can also make drool.

*faints*

okie okie. this few days eh ive been boy crayyyyzie. wat onie me. u noe wat, the more longer it gets, the more tempting it is to blog bout the guys tt have been causing the headache.

k laterz.

ok.

lesbo fee just left. she accompanied me half of the day. Y? coz im all alone. how come? coz family on holiday. where? perak. y i din tag along? coz im werking. enuff said.

and mai bubbled. shes supposed to join but she totally bubbled. and true enuffs. bubblesaurus-rex have yet to extinct.

im freaking cold seh.

n now currently im chatting wit ry. so i cant concentrate wit my entry.

some other time.

a great warmth welcome back to me from iman.

ive came back from my leave and now back to serious business.

n now im lack of time to update like i always did during the holidays. no more free time sitting n laze ard infront of the computer.

really got no time k.

almost everyday when i reached home, i felt so lethargic and so so dead. cold n buried.

talking bout cold. the weather is ooo sooo amazingly cold and freezing. n i like.

but not when in the morning. the water is ooo sooo freezing cold. and i shivered and gritted my teeth so bad.

so ytd i went out wit jay. very funny guy.

on sunday after seminar i went out rynobi. such a sweet guy. a total sweetie pie. he sent me off at the interchange. we have a lot of common interest.

and i din noe that jay dun enjoy sports but enjoy dancing alot.

n i tell u, rynobi is like another replica of usher. fique pun kalah.

so hot la he.

n i shall goin boy krayziiiieeeeee again.

i shud STOP IT!

its saturday. tmr gonna be sunday. n i m so not looking forward to it. y?

we have this iman kinderseminar going on tmr at DBS Building. on sunday. n we gt our day off on the following mon. then on tuesday back to serious business. no more skool holiday and its all about 2007. i received lots of shocking news lately..

first.

herman filano really really in love wit me. n i jz found out his bad habit in which i noe i cant get along wit him pretty well. coz i dun see the good things in him for a long lasting relationship. so mcm maner nie? tkkn nk reject bulat2 macam tu? if i were to pity him, who wud want to pity me? true enuff i hate when im in this kinda situation. tak favourite sungguh. but i like him at the same time.

then jalil plak, he is really looking into me. really looking into us. the both of us. i tot he was just joking. n the ILOVEYOU is merely my frenly gestures. ahhhh. aku pusing la.

n one bad bad thing bout me is, i like both company. like both herman n jalil.

ni one more ive yet to tok bout him..

ibi a.k.a ibrahim. arrggh! pening la. he oso one thing. directly wants me to meet the mom seh. die i tell u.

i dun like la when im in this kinda situation.

k enuff bout this boy-krayzee thingy..

secondly.

my partner in crime. shes pregnant! ustazah nurani pregnant! shes a preggie mummie now! weeeeeeeee! so happie for her.

n by rite, im a bit worried too.

im out~

k ar nak action cket ar..hahaha!

pictures courtesy from My Sony Ericsson K800i. Thank You. And not forgetting the editing done by Adobe Photoshop.

nice kan? jay did that. i received it thru mail. altho its late, but its the thoughts that count. i love the grafitti and the colour. now im gonna made him teach me how to do grafitti and i can teach hime do fine still life painting.

n we love each other.

p.s Move the cursor to each of the picture to read the captions. It's a must.

k lets stick to short simple and sweet.

i bought for myself a new fone.

guess wat fone?


Sony Ericsson K800i beb. hahaha.

im loving it. parappapapaaap!









































im so in love wit it la.

i heart this one alot.



i heart this one. k800i. 3.2 megapixel beb.



i heart this one.




lastly, i heart this one. too.

anybody kind enuff to buy for me either one of these??

u need to do good deeds once in a life time.

tag me if u plan to sponsor me.

thankies.

i m currently not in my best mood. n it seems to kill me inside out when he accused me of being such a control freak towards him. wat seh? all i asked was...

"wahh, 2 days in a row eh ure online.. hmm this is a rare occasion ya noe getting to chat wit ya on msn. usually its oways on the fone. hehe..niways, wat u doing darling?"

and i rite after, he bacame sooo angry and he said he dun wanna argue wit me and he log off straight. so me being concerned, i called his cell. i asked wats wrong wit him n he said i shud ask tt to myself. wat seh? wat mistake have i done?

salah ke aku cakap macam tu kat die?

die kata aku kongkong die. aper die nak buat sume aku larang. aper seh? bile masanya? aku tau aku cuma larang die main bola sbb kaki die yang dahulunya terseliuh tu blom baik lagi~ makanya, lemab kat kaki tu masih terserlah. takkan aku nk jgk biarkan die main. pastu, kalau kaki sakit, pandai plak complain kat aku.

da tu je la.

itu pun kongkong ke? ader la satu malam tu aku cakap la ngan die, kalau nak main bola tu main la, puas kan la hasrat terpendam tu. lepas tu kalau sakit jgn complain. member sound plak yang aku ni da tak kuasa nak amik kisah pasal die..

lahh..ni la lelaki.........

skg, aku pikiran sbb dituduh macam tu. aku tak leh terima tau. mcm seolah olah, hidung tak mancung, pipi tersorong sorong. makanya siapa yang mintak benda ni semua terjadi? fikiran beb..

pe seh da jadi ngan entry aku nie?????

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k tt was wat im having trouble wit. and its between me n herman. some of the loyalties knew who the hell is this herman guy. nemind nemind, lets put aside bout him. we shall now talk bout me.

wat bout me?

ouh. my classroom IS READY FOR 2007! kudos to me n my partner. onie one thing has yet to complete. mobile hanging and also table display. ouh n i was thinking as to wat to paste for the math corner and bahasa melayu. niways i love my cozy corner. very cozy.

u noe wat, i cant blog properly. i need to go.

"oh bulan hanya dirimu, yang menyaksikan segalanya, kita hanya saling memandang dan terdiam terpaku. ouh bulan hanya dirimu yang menyaksikan segalanya, oh bulan tolong lah daku, katakan padanya, aku cinta dia...."

hmm. love is in the air. turned left, lesbo aidah celebrating her 36th mth anniversary with azim. lesbo fee also turning dunnoe how many years of annuversary on this 13th with sabiq. me? ivejust celebrated my 20th anniversary cum birthday on the 1st with Him, the Almighty.

niways. my classroom is 95% done. i still have my Warner Bros to paint. and now im trying to think and produce an idea from this shringking brain on whose acrylic paint i wanna use. mine or the skool. coz its a huge enormous wall, and it really need lots of colours. and its too risky to use mine as mine are jz small mini acrylic tubes. compared to the skool's huge acrylic jugs. so which is which? its a win win situation. ( or win lose situation? ) if i were to choose mine, i will have a very beautiful end product as it have its glossy effects and the colour enhance more. but i will end up wit no acrylic paint for the rest of the first six mths. if i were to choose the skool's acrylic paint, my acrylic will be safe and i dun have to worry bout not having acrylic for the first six mths and i can continue painting other cartoon. but, the end product wont look as classy and as fine as my acrylic paints.

so how neh? and im losing my pearl white soon. n i cant afford gauge. anybody willing to sponsor me? i need someone to sponsor me stuffs. or at least 1 tube of white gauge tt cost $8.90 per small tube.

i noe its costly. haiyah.

- i wanna love u.
- i wanna love u more.
- i wanna love u more n more.
- i wanna love u more n more and even more.
- n i wanna love only u.

kawan-kawan, can help me?

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sedalam nie la permintaan pertolongan ku kawan-kawan....

My Birthday Celebration with the lesbos at Sentosa..

in the mean time, jz look at the photos with the captions. theres a bit of missing words here and there but im tooooooooooo malas to edit. so ya go try to figure out wat im trying to tell.. detailed entry will be posted pretty soon. now im having a very very very very unbearable migrain.

was it because of my hair? its long. reaching the waist line? is this the reason?

niways, toodles!! happie viewing the pictures!