this actually are accompanying me rite now. just at this very moment. potato salad and signature hot chocolate at Starbucks. i am now patiently waiting for my love tekdee at Starbucks Capitol Towers. u must be wondering wat the hell im doing at Capitol Towers on friday nite rite? well, my skool, nanyang institute is at tanjong pagar, and this capitol tower is just adjacent from my school. so after i handed up my assigment on anecdotal recording, i went chilling at the starbucks. reason at capitol also its because, this is the ONLY starbucks out of 3 outlets that close pretty late. the other 2 close before 9.

i ordered hot chocolate coz im down wit flu. and im having nose block. so if i were to order chocolate frap, it will worsen my condition am i right? right. and so i ordered potato salad cos im freaking hungry. i inhaled ventolin and tat made me shivering like wat.

yes ppl. im down with asthma too. maybe due to overwork. ive been a loner wit my beloved France since nuran left. haada has been the floater but then, workload likewise, is double to the maha maksima. im lucky enuff to have a very co-operative K2 werking partners, if not, i'll be dead standing. teaching likewise no problem tau, but the markings can make me go mad, bleeding MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD! i din get to go for my break and tt explains well as to why im shivering.

haada was kind enuff to mark for my CAs. Surya actually volunteered to mark my Smart Writer Kit in which it will endless if u were to mark it, esp wit france 2.

1) beacause its a creative writing thing, u will go pening reading the kids "luahan hati"

2) it is a very tedious thing to do to mark creative writing.

3) if u were to mark lu suka mana suka, tt really gonna reflect ur own self.

so it really took me one of a hell of a time to mark tt smart writer kit plus their tepee project.

and sth happened. and i can sense sth will be different btwn us after this thing had happened. i can sense the cold shoulder treatment, the i-dun-like-you-bitch-anymore kinda treatment. just so that i actually shoted at them. reason i did those, its for their own beneficial. not for my own good, but for their own. it totally reflects on u to whatever ure doing.

if i can just so that i can please them, i m willing to go down on my knees and plead to seek their co-operation in this matter. i was being knocked down some senses in me and i have to buck up. tts the reasons to my sudden changes. now i really hope this groupies really support me from the back and understand my situation. like the RM said,

"her job is not easy. and i always make her life miserable. she has been her very best to be nice to all of you, but at the same time she needs to gain ur respect. just nothing personal, its all about work and she's your senior teacher."

i really hope they get wat the RM tried to deliver to them. i really hope this thing wont get too personal. i am still the same old teacher nurul. but when it comes to work, i meant work. its true when Nonz said to me, "everybody gonna hate u to the core and u must accept it. we're doing this for their own good. just do your thing. and ignore their reactions towards u."

i tink im ready to be hated. to be ignored. to be isolated.

she looked really liberated. how i wish i can be like her. i was mugging for the whole week. and im mugging on a sunday. how fun is that? very i tell u. all alone at home and all that ive been doing the whole afternoon was to stare at the lappie and notes for reference. typing all the way. i decided to wash the dishes to de-stress myself. sms-ing wit tek and onie to find out that hes not okay. how i wish i can be by his side.

but apparently i cant. im loaded wit many stuffs. now if u were to look at my schedule, u'll be shaking ur head i tell u. if u take a look at my notes, u'll be smiling but if u were to look at the due dates and the thing that im supposed to work on, u'll be throwing my notes all over for all u care.

im stress. but im not so stress to blog. im having my break so tts y im blogging. ive been doing lots of reading since 2. and then did lots of referencing for my assignment which due tmr. i have to be really tedious for this assignment, just to make sure my observation is an anecdotal one and not interpreting ones.

its a preschool eduation thing. u wont understand. and i just realise that im hungry and my mom din cook. they went JB. i wanna tag but seeing all these due dates, i cant. conferm they gonna be home late, and i dun wanna stay up late just to finish up the assignment. tmr me n the kids are going on eduvisit to SAFRA Toa Payoh Fun Maze. i must constantly remind myself to put on socks and shoes. cos tts the criteria to enter tt place. ive been reminding my kids to do so, skali i myself lupa..

shame on me if i lupa. da nanti no one will look after and assist the kids. pity them. i wan them to enjoy themselves. then when they come back to skool on tues, back to serious business in finishing their work and projects. talking about project, it is really killing me inside out. i just need to be patience.

yes.

breathe in

and

breathe out. ..

ass.

jeng jeng jeng! tt's me if ure wondering who is tt. it was drawn by my kid. a very beautiful kid who speaks and express well in literacy skills. i taught her since nursery, so i guess she really observed me pretty well. i was marking their creative writing. frankly i was half asleep when i came across her file n saw this. it was a theme on 'my school' and they are supposed to tok about their teacher.

many actually drew me and coloured me colourfully. i appreciate that alot. some drew me with thick red lipstick. ya ya i understood that. i gt the hint. i will put on make up more often. *smile* and so while i was marking the first page, half asleep, i turned to the next page and saw this. i was like.. " tr miza, u tgk basirah draw i. very detail tau. i ader baju putih ni wit blue flowers. and sluar n tudung hitam. tgk cara die draw tudung i and i nyer brooch. sume sama tau..!"

and she replied, " ar ar seh tr nurul. sama la. hehe. pandai eh basirah draw u. siap jam ngan bangle yang u slalu pakai tu pun die draw..alahai..!"

exactly! if u were to look closely,the right arm, theres a black band wit lil of yellow. tts my adidas watch limited black and gold edition. and if u were to look the opposite hand, tts my broad brown wooden bangle. impressive kan??

tgk la anak murid sape nie. hasil didikan tr nurul since shes 4 ok!!!! ROTFLMAO!!

tts her. the gerl who drew me. she looked smart isnt she? yeah, shes indeed intelligent. a lil bit lazy but she speak superb queens english. i must say its the mass media influence. coz the mom speaks perfect malay and the father is so the bapak2 zaman2 dahulu kala...

her name is Nur Sabrina Basirah. we always talk and gossip about high school musical. i tell u, she can go all the way andknow all about the high school musical. shes the one who know how to switch on my lappie. she knows my friggin password! i asked her..

"basirah, how come u noe how to on my laptop? it is protected with the password you noe. how u noe my password?"

and she replied so sardine-ly, "ala, i overheard u said to ustazah nurani that ur password is pasted. its on ur sticker name."

betul cakap la. now i have to change it so that she wont switch on my lappie ikut suka mana suka and play the high school musical soundtrack. but still, i love her sooooo much. shes gonna do well in P1 nx yr, insya allah. *smiles*

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ehem ehem! can somebody tell me that i look good in pink? am i gorgeous or wat?
*smack forehead* mampoz. tk tak malu nye orang. seriously, when it comes to wear pink, i always make sure that i made the right choice. i oways have doubt in wearing pink. well, furthermore its lace. it really took a whole load of courage to wear lace and pink hokay?!

niways, i wore pink to Dodi's wedding ytd. its at some place at JB.

tts him. the cousin. adek was not in the picture as this picture was taken by her. and upon hearing Dodi's frens sing, i bluntly made a comical declaration.. "I Love Malaysian Men.." and i chuckled. but still deep down, tek is the onie one. hehe.

i said that because they have a great voice. they sang beautifully. and they have the thing of singing that jamal abdillah song; Azura. maner maner wedding i attended, in Dodi's presence or the frens, sure they sing tt song. i dunnoe y but then when one of the mat sang tt song, everyone kacau-ed azura noeing that everyone knew her, (but not me thankfully!) and im very sure that her face turned red.

cuteness.

Seringkali ku menjadi celaru

Tak terdaya batin ku

Merencana yang tlah berlalu

Namun kini tiada lagi ku rintih

Kerna kehadiranmu

Kembali cahaya hidupku di awan tinggi bagai di pelangi

Bila temu cinta suci

Kau bisa membuatku terlena

Dalam mimpi indah tanpa gundah

Hingga tak inginku celikkan mata

Walau cinta tiada logika

Nyata cinta membawa bahagia

Jika kita jujur tulus setia..

Bila mimpi kian menjadi nyata

Waktu bisa terhenti bila kau mengucapkan cinta

di awan tinggi bagai di pelangi

bila temu cinta suci

Kau bisa membuatku terlena

Dalam mimpi indah tanpa gundah

Hingga tak inginku celikkan mata

Walau cinta tiada logika

Nyata cinta membawa bahagia

Jika kita jujur tulus setia...

Biar cinta tiada logika

Nyata cinta membawa bahagia

Jika kita jujur tulus setia..

p.s I love my tekdee so much. till infinity.

1. Kekuatan berfikir
Cinta bermula dari fikiran kita. Berfikir tentang pasangan ideal yang ingin kamu kenali akan membantu kamu mengenali dia, ketika kamu akhirnya bertemu dengan orang yang tepat tersebut.

2. Kekuatan untuk menghormati
Kamu tidak mampu mencintai seseorang atau apa saja kalau kamu tidak menghormati mereka. Orang pertama yang patut kamu hormati ialah dirimu sendiri. Untuk mulai menghormati diri sendiri, kita patut bertanya pada diri sendiri “apa yang aku hormati dalam diriku?”. Untuk mendapat perasaan hormat dari orang lain, bahkan dari orang yang kamu tidak suka, kita patut bertanya pada diri sendiri.”apa yang aku hormati dalam diri mereka?”.

3. Kekuatan untuk memberi
Jika kamu mahu menerima cinta, kamu harus mampu memberikannya terlebih dahulu. Makin banyak cinta kamu beri, makin banyak yang akan kamu terima. Mencintai sama ertinya dengan memberi cinta tulus pada dirimu sendiri. Belajarlah untuk melakukan berbagai macam kebaikan. Formula rahsia untuk meciptakan hubungan yang ceria,penuh cinta,dan abadi adalah dengan selalu berfikir “Apa yang dapat aku beri?”dan bukan Apa yang akan aku dapat?”.

4. Kekuatan persahabatan
Untuk mencari cinta sejati,kamu mesti mencari sahabat sejati terlebih dahulu. Cinta bukan bererti mata kalian saling berpandangan, tapi lebih bererti bersama - sama melihat ke satu tujuan. Untuk mencintai seseorang seutuhnya, kamu harus mencintai keperibadiannya, bukan fizikalnya.Persahabatan adalah tanah dimana benih cinta dapat tumbuh. Jika kamu ingin membawa cinta ke suatu hubungan, kamu harus menciptakan persahabatan terlebih dahulu.

5. Kekuatan dari sentuhan
Sentuhan adalah salah satu ekspresi cinta yang paling kuat,menghancurkan dinding pemisah dan menyatukan suatu hubungan. Sentuhan membuat kita lebih dapat merasakan getaran cinta yang sebenarnya.Tetapi agama Islam melarang kita bersentuh-sentuhan tatkala bercinta, kekuatan ini difokuskan kepada suami isteri..

6. Kekuatan untuk melepaskan
“Jika kamu mencintai seseorang, bebaskanlah dia. Jika dia kembali kepadamu,maka dia adalah milikmu. Jika tidak, maka dia tidak akan pernah jadi milikmu”. Bahkan dalam hubungan percintaan, seseorang perlukan ruang untuk dirinya sendiri. Jika kita mahu belajar untuk mencintai, pertama kita harus belajaruntuk memaafkan dan melupakan masa lalu yang buruk serta kedukaan hati kita. Mencintai bererti melepaskan rasa takut, curiga, danego. “Hari ini aku melepaskan semua rasa takutku, masa lalu tidakakan dapat mempengaruhi ku- hari ini adalah lembaran baru bagi hidupku”.

7. Kekuatan dalam komunikasi
Ketika kita belajar untuk berkomunikasi secara terbuka dan jujur,hidup lalu berubah. Mencintai seseorang bererti berkomunikasi dengannya. Biarkan orang yang kamu cintai tahu bahawa kamu mencintai dan menghargainya. Jangan pernah takut untuk mengucapkan 3 kata magic : “Aku cinta padamu”. Jangan pernah melewatkan kesempatan untuk mengucapkan itu kepadanya. Selalu tinggalkan orang yang kamu cintaidengan kata - kata mesra, kerana ia mungkin boleh jadi hari terakhir kamu melihatnya. Contohnya, jika kamu akan mati tapi diberi kesempatan untuk menelefon orang yang kamu cinta, siapa yang akan kamu telefon, apa yang akan kamu katakan…dan sekarang…kenapa kamu menunggu?

8. Kekuatan dari komitmen
Jika kamu ingin mendapatkan cinta yang berlimpah, kamu harus mampu menciptakan komitmen, dan komitmen tersebut akan tercermin dalam fikiran dan tindakanmu. Komitmen adalah ujian cinta yang sejati. Jika kamu ingin memiliki hubungan yang penuh cinta, kamu harus setia dengan hubunganmu itu. Ketika kamu terikat komitmen pada seseorang,berhenti mencintainya bukan merupakan pilihan. Komitmenlah yang membezakan antara hubungan yang mudah hancur, dengan hubungan yang kuat.

9. Kekuatan semangat
Semangat, membakar cinta dan membiarkan cinta tetap hidup. Semangat yang terus berkobar, bukan hanya datang dari daya tarik fizikal,tapi datang dari komitmen yang dalam, kemahuan, dan rasa saling tertarik. Semangat dapat diciptakan kembali dengan cara membayangkan saat indah di masa lalu dengannya. Spontan dan kejutan dapat menciptakan semangat cinta. Pokok dari cinta dan kegembiraan selalu sama yang harus kita lakukan adalah mengisi hari - hari kita dengan penuh semangat.

10. Kekuatan dari rasa percaya
Rasa percaya selalu menjadi komponen penting dalam suatu hubungan.Tanpa rasa percaya, seseorang bisa menjadi curiga, cemas, dan takutdan orang lain akan merasa terperangkap dan secara emosional menjadi tertekan. Kamu tidak boleh mencintai seseorang secara utuh sehinggalah kamu mempercayainya secara utuh pula. Bersikaplah seakan - akan hubunganmu dengan orang yang kamu cintai tidak akan berakhir. Salah satu cara untuk mengetahui apakah seseorang itu benar - benar untuk kamu, tanyakanlah pada dirimu sendiri “Apakah aku benar - benar mempercayainya sepenuh hati ?” jika jawapannya adalah “tidak”, maka kamu harus berfikir dengan mendalam sebelum kamu membuat komitmen yang lebih jauh dengannya.

*adapted from http://ayatcinta.wordpress.com/

the pictures will tell all. but for sure i noe that it is very difficult to convince tt bestie of mine. me n hanah kept our finger crossed and Voila! it happened. like finally.

niways tek, u were there all along but i dun feel the connections. keep on assuring me, i need tt. and i am trusting u now and forever.

love you deep deep down down deep down in my heart. *smiles*

if only this place exist, i'd love to go there. the scenery is just so beautiful.

working on saturday can be bleeding boring. no class yet as my enrichment program will only start on the 9th feb and i'll be werking real close with daman aka Teacher Huda. apparently, before this we were together for whizz club program. now its the club genius.

no no. not onie for the genius. but preferably the genius ones join us la kan. ROTFLMAO. sbb its all about hands on learning and experimentation. and so i recommended those who dun really need help in reading n writing to join this programme. now the number has risen and im sure mdm will be okie wit it.

plans for today gonna be osman's bday surprise. planned by me n the gf hanah. tek was also part of it. he came up wit the place. and we chose amirah's grill. i bought for him a casio silver digital watch. tek chose for me and i really hope osman will like it. (tak guna nyer besfren kan aku nie..)

niways, will load the photos soon. if theres any...