i felt so sorie for adik. cookie's bro. his day was super bad luck today. got scolded by mama n his bro. pity him..

niway.im shag. came back from bugis juz now,alone. slept in the train,wen i suddenly i woke up when it reached yishun. then guess hu i saw? abg jamal. the tarian guy. we exchanged looks. n smile. n look again n smile again. i dropped at woodlands, and for one last time we exchanged looks n smile. (",)

assignments,assignments n assignments. due in 2 weeks time. hmm. got so many unfinished business ya noe. the an-nur anniversary dance have completed. superb. a javanese comtemp dance. i loike. juz a simple choreograph.

on the fone wit cookie. he can b nice. he can b very harsh. haiz. hurtful ya noe. the one that u msg-ed me when i was in the lecture room. tt is so so harsh.

niway,im logging off. on the fone wit him..

misch the bunchies n slackers..

n u too cookie..

salamz..

this is the only time for me to update my blog. been so bz wit stuffs. standard after reading clinic,slacking wit the ustazah. watched the ali baba and forty thieves the movie wit ry,mai,far and sis shidah. shag ar peeps. i seriously have no mood to go sengkang. ya i do miss my opah but coming to party? haiz. tmr is taboo bday. but the mother want to celebrate today. so no choice i have to come down early coz she needs me to prepare some stuffs. she wants me lead the party.

i have drain out of ideas sia...

niways,cookie dearie went JB wit mama, adik n kak erna. goodness gracious its been so humid n stuffy these few days huh. my cough condition is worsen i tell ya. gonna lose my voice in any minute. i have to think n write a proposal for the children's day event. me n ry will have to come out wit an idea wat to do on children's day. tot of having sport day. have yet to ask ry's opinion though. see how la shes responding to it.

i have an asignment. which wil be due in 3 weeks time. nx week im gonna have lesson observation. then external auditor most prolly gonna drop by on monday. haiz. this week my table display suckz to the max. so plain. onlie pictures of birds n words. i bet mdm hani will say that its not interacting enuff. haiyah. the teachers day celebration dress code have confirmed. black. so wat m i supposed to wear? ive tot of buying this jubah at AC collection. its 254 bux but since ive ever worked there,this sis here can give me 152 bux. so im putting it in the checklist. wanna go Hoyen first, to see if anything tt catches my eye.

haiyah. nx mth cookies bday. peeps. help this indecisive soul. a swatch or havaianas sandals? first he said he wanna swatch. then he changed his mind n he said he wan the sandals. so help this both indecisive soul...

salamz.

higher than mountain deeper than sea..

reading clinic was fun juz now. had so much fun n laughter wit them. did some singing. no craft n it was a bit lagging though. but its fine. but the thing is enes ogul is vr irritating. very i tell u. its killing me. even sue got really pissed wit him. go ard n straggle ppl. bite n smack. i wud be like "ENES OGUL! I'LL BRING YOU TO USTAZAH NURANI! SIT DOWN N CROSS YOUR LEG!" then shidah came up to him n hugged him till he cry. but fake la. like wat sue said, faker~!

im so in the cloud 9 now.. hehe..
the whole of iMAN knew wat im goin thru. even cik idah n cik midah. it was a hell of a storm ytd evening after werk. i was so shy. so so damn shy. chaotic la.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

im so in love now..wit him~

love ya cookie dearie.

nurulhamzah..

eh typo!

nurulhuda..heheheh!

*hint**hint*

get it??

no??

hahaha!

im crrrraaaaaaaazzziiiieeeeeeeee!

coz im so in love now......................

kk. signing out now.
nurulhamzah..
eh typo again!
nurulhuda..

hehehe

been wondering if im being such a selfish lil spoilt gerl?! anyhoos salam. im down wit flu and very bad dry cough. juz hoping real bad tt i wont get asthma. asthma meaning im sick. n sick meaning i have to mc. n meaning mc i have to stay at home. i cant. works piling up..

went to the zoo ytd wit him. at first it din turn out great. but after quite sum time,everything went smoothly after tt. hes crazy. enjoyed si much. hamzah..u notti cho cho!

i need to move on ya. fahmi..till wen do i have to wait for u? we cant be like this 4ever. have the conclusions to our relationship can? plz..

arrgghh. my nose its bleeding~!!

i almost knock out at skool juz now.

Almost.

EH goin off la. this zahid oso goin off soon. i dun wan kakak cantik to teman me. aite. chow chin chow.

salamz.

back from hibernation..

salamz all. sowie for MIA such a long time. well cant blame a perfectionist. been so bz n my schedule is so tite. now been very bz with the reading clinic. helping the kids who cant read. n since we've been trained n obtained qualified certs, we have to conduct this clinic. im the overall in-charge with mdm julie.

jus now was hectic i tell ya. iman being iman. everything was a last minute. but still we managed to complete our task then. hmm wat was really rushing me to the core is the KidsFiesta thingy. me n mars was assigned to produce a checklist to the whole of this agenda. see how stressful is tt. not onie for wg but oso for all 4 centres. now im waiting for my dad to fetch me at skool n we're ready to set for hunting. costume rental hunting. fee maybe coming along. in all i have 4 checklist to be done n ive yet to complete at least one. after this,im goin chalet. so jobs,kept piling till i have mood to sit n settle wit it. class photo taking nx week. totally excited bout everything. n my course will start pretty soon. so ya..

i dunnoe to whom i shud express my feelings too. the depression in me. i gave all my love n trust to him n this is wat i get in return. simply said i dunnoe wat he want from me. many said ive been very stupidly patience towards him but i nvr heed their advice. n now when it already hit my own nose,then i ive realised ive been such an utterly fool. well its too late to take back my words bout me loving him so much. bout me can be patience to everyhting. bout me being able to accept wat he did to me all this while. now no more. ive had enuff wit all his nonsensical.

but then..

i kept on thinking to myself. will i regret later? coz i almost achieve wat i wanted all these while. to gain love from him. 2 yrs and ive already have the love from him. but.. how shud i say this. is it worth waiting for him? its unavoidable. its all always unplanned. its always been a sudden break out. n now this. wit him? was it merely my fault? coz from where i sit, i cant spot my mistake n flaws. was it him? who can actually ans all these qns? no one. i noe. im so depressed now.

tell ya one thing. by reading this u wont understand wat im goin thru.

to say ive move on..? maybe. looks like it la. ive been meeting n going out wit hamzah. irwan hamzah. he live juz nx block from me. n his house is visible from my house. although we rarely meet due to bz schedule,but still he is aware of the existence of hp. he made full use of it. i was touched. n i was attracted to his charming characteristic n charisma. no doubt he have the cute lookin face. but its all too early to say anything. feelings started to develop among us. this 14th august,we're goin out on a date. hope in turn out great. insya allah..

5 more mins to 3. gotta go. aite.
toodles.
salamz....

hubaiyah hubaiyah muqaddimah..

ive realised sth. but before that, salamz to all.

first n foremost. sorrie for the irregular update. apologise gazillion jazillion if u have been clicking my link for umpteenth times. time jus dont permit me to note down the facets of my life. met wit different types of peeps. throughout this whole new episodes of life.

ive discovered that,u tend to know more diff types of ppl wit diff types of needs n of coz thier own personalities. ive met diff bunchies to diff types of homies, n seriously, ive yet to see the real bunchies n homies which can really be under the same one roof wit me.

backstabbers. hypocrites. liars. unrightful behaviours are just so typical. y such things still happening? i mean ur daily life n activities is to deliver what was planned to n be the moulder of the early bloomers. but how are u supposed to fullfil that if ure behaving shitty? like an arse.
*word vomit..*

i had to end this matter. coz im gonna have more word vomit. cursing. n swearing. coz this matter is seriously killing me. its kiling me softly. all those stupid buggers out there,stop yak-yakkety-yak. come we tok face to face if u need to clarify n justify. n pls use ur common sense. n most importantly. ur brain. coz gd looks are nt helping. or another suitable term,bimbos..

u rambling hyenas are juz a bunch of schizo~!

signing out. *peace to war*

salamz

Fugue

salamz. hmm.
when my thinking ability is back in the process..
i discovered,
it's not wrong to hope. coz..

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.

and always knowing the reflections in life..

As I make my slow pilgrimage through the world, a certain sense of beautiful mystery seems
to gather and grow.

not forgetting the Friendships. coz..

The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.

well apparently the voice n the stranger within do play a part. as wat i wud like to qoute from wat Bertha von Suttner said,

After the verb "to love", "to help" is the most beautiful verb in the world.


there. been there n done it. enuff said.
think about it. try visualising if u have the ability.
action speaks louder than words.
n think before u made any conclusions.
made conclusions wit justifications.
set ur mind free.....

salamz.