salam alaik.
im back once again. this time.
now i dun go missing hibernating.
but settling a few unfinished business.
alhamdulillah. all things,those unfinished business,
have juz finished. last sun.
in fact last week,ive been working really hard for those
one whole week. one whole straight donkey week.
wit the SLC. the one n the last KF meeting. the preparation n setup for SLC.
then not forgetting my Food N Nutrition theory examinations. and of coz
the EXTRAVAGANZA KIDAFIESTA 2005 ; K2 GRADUATION!

now its all done.
alhamdulillah syukur.

esp for KF. i can now give a loud *sigh*
its really a free mind now as i have no more things tt need to be
worrying n think about.
kudos to all. great job. but im very sad wit my SANG NILA UTAMA!
they cut off tt play! dammit. hate tt okie.
its okie during the reaheasel u ppl never paid any attentions to it.
but on the day itself u guys have the cheeck to cut it off. i understand.
time exceeds. but u can cut off other plays too rite?! y must it be onie SANG NILA UTAMA!

well wats past is past.
let bygone be bygone.

SLC. was great tho. met almost all the parents.
im so gonna miss them though.
hmm. n nx yr, my class wud be yale.
nursery. n my ustazah gonna be ustazah fauziah.
hope it gonna juz fine..insya allah.

then erm ytd for the first time in monkey mths wit hamzah,i behave
rudely to him. well too bad hes asking it from me.
n yeah i juz have to treat him exactly like how he used to treat me.
i was very pissed wit him. i dun mind ppl said im such a paranoia.
i dun care. but for all i noe wat i did to him was really *BOOM*
and as usual,he started his sympathetic story. bout not living wit his mom anymore.
missing his brother badly.
n i carried on bombard him. 2 weeks straight he ignored me. no call no msg. n suddenly
last sun he called me n asked for money. dammit.
i dun werk for his own thrust fund aite.

so yeah. i n i mean I! ended the relationship for once n for all.
in fact he dun wan it to. but i have my last say.
then the bro still have the cheeck to ask the billabong bag from me.
he said "kakak promise kakak nak belikan adik beg billabong kalau adik pass. share ngan abang."
i dun rmb tt promise. i dunnoe when i made tt promise. for all i rmb,if he passes his exam,
me n hamzah will go on dutch n buy for him n my bro mp3. but fortunately this hamzah cant wait for the end of the yr,he bought it when the exam not even started.
now the thing is my bro got top 5 n he never demand for anything. my
very own blood brother ok.
kids nowadays.

niways,couldnt be bothered to tok bout this nimore.
signing out for now.
peace. dun do drugs.
teeheee!

salamz.

salamz.

please forgive me. for all my mistakes.
for all my wrongdoing. please. i beg u.
the things tt im goin thru. the things tt i have to face.
its unbearable. its killing me inside out.
i seek an apology. from u. please.

i dun wan this to happen. it all happen abruptly.
i had enuff. i knew it all. but i dun deserve it.
this isnt how i expected things shud be. well.
like i said. suddenly.
after one another. and another. and another.
another. and another. ouh. i need faith.
i need guidance. i need the will. i need the power.
to enhance. to re-incarnate. to re-birth. to everything.
please.
wats with the conflict. wats wit like acting u care?
wats wit all those. what? justify. or. clarify perhaps.
dun misunderstood me.
dun misjudge me.
never. ever. u taught me how to laugh.
n cry. n be strong. n all. n everything.
things jz wont be the same.
no more..

ever.

(p.s boyfie,im sick. ok. sorie cant mit u tonite.)

well wat do u care rite?
urgh~

salamz.

am so shag.
went out wit the bunchies jz now.
comel. skip. gong. bell. aisyah. boyfie. adek. n fir.
its chaotic. esp in the train. we made a fool of ourself.
we sang wit full of total "unmaluation". we sang lots raya song.
its funny tho. well. been quite sum time we did stupid n crazy stuffs.
then we took loads of pic.

mine was the first. then skip. at yew tee. boyfie joined from yew tee.
and also left from there. mama needs him. me too. bt i gave in.
then bedok. comel's. crazy dumb-lop-illo. we reach much faster then him.
wen actually hes travellin wit his vespa. stucked halfway in the middle of expressway.
tank kering la beb!! mendaq!
we waited for him. anxiously.
then to gong's. at potong pasir. another one craziee dude.
kept on asking wen we wanna get married.
then to bell's. the last one.
bump into her mom.
ouh. i muz mention this.

i still got zakat from them ok.
altho they noe im already werking.
but they say,they wont make any diff if they dun give.
nice eh. and all the houses serves food. bloated. full tank.
so. clock struck 11.30. we went seperate ways. gong have to go hm alone then.
me went home wit fir.

eh. i saw this one cute guy. got goatee.
i fall for goatee guy. easily. apparently.
n i forgot to mention. bell's cousin. a guy. he's cute.
jz becoz he got goatee.

aiyah. stop it.

oh n then. fahmi viewed my profile at frenster.
he miss me. i tink.
well. i miss him too.
lot lot lot.

alot ok.

k la. gtg.
takin care.

salam alaik.

felt like sharing an info which i found in amazingly interesting.
facts on the different types of phobias.
it is sth that is much related to anxiety. and the mental health experts says that
there are three types of phobias.
simple phobia. social phobia. and agoraphobia.

here are the list of names, the diff types of phobia. its rather interesting.
some are weird. go on n explore...:

atelophobia - fear of imperfection

atychiphobia - fear of failure

aurophobia - fear of gold

automysophobia - fear of being dirty

autophobia - fear of being alone

bibliophobia - fear of books

caligynephobia - fear of beautiful women

catotrophobia - fear of mirrors

chrometophobia - fear of money

didaskaleinophobia - fear of going to school

ephebiphobia - fear of teenagers

erotophobia - fear of sexual love or sexual questions

gnosophobia - fear of knowledge

graphphobia - fear of writing or handwriting

see. n the list goes on. coz i seriousy shag. but i never get tired to read all the names.
well if u bother to find out more, u can simply find it on the net. its all the matter
panic disorder and post traumatic stress disorder.

i dunnoe y suddenly i have the tendency to know more on all the different types of
phobias..

salam alaik.

selamat hari raya aidilfirtri to all my loyal readers.
maaf zahir n batin.

ive been blog hoppin since im logged in to the internet.
i went to 4 blogs. the 2 of them ive oways check on them regularly.
one particular blog which i rarely bother to check it out.
once in a while went to her blogger, theres oways sth new bout her
which never fails to shocked me. kudos to u gerl in ur new relationship wit him.

another blogger which ive never dropped by. i dunnoe why suddenly i have the
urge to dropped by his. masya-allah. i was gob-smacked.
his words are beautiful. meaningful. ive bookmarked his blog. n will check it
out as often as it is. the other 2 bloggers..

ive oways check out their blog. u will have this feeling whereby u have to come back
to their blog the next time when ure online.
theirs are the best blog ive ever hopped. n read. n wonders.
they are the best bloggers that i have in my list.
one of them is a polytechinic student. masya-allah.
her english is super dooper perfect. flawless. subhanallah.
its like reading a literarute teacher's blog. a lecturer.
a PhD holder. someone with lots of words. words of wisdom.
respect her for her perfect point of view.
n it seems tt both of us have the same passion.
but she able to make it into reality. cos she is full of confident.
unlike me. i still have the low soft spot in me.

the other one. i love her blog skin.
soo cooling. very inviting.
the tendency to repent n get back to the rite path is strong.
upon seeing the pictures layout. i adore her. her ability to create such scenery.
such beautiful manificent skin.
i ever mention to her to create mine. but she jz kept quiet bout it.
well,i really hope she took my werds into consideration.

i envy. i adore all these bloggers.
can i blog like them too?

salamz.

tonite we will bid goodbye to ramadhan n
salamz to syawal. im so gonna miss ramadhan.
the holy mth. the mth full of barakah.

i have bad news:

i am so not lookin forward for syawal.
unlike last yr,this yr,altho the preparations was da bomb,
im still not in the mood.
the close ones know wat i meant.
in fact the close ones knew wat happened.

well tt news isnt soo bad to the news tt im gonna say it out now:

im in love wit two.
yeah. indesicive me.
but then im seriously caught in between.
boyfie turns out miraculously loving when i decided to.
this is wat im scared to go thru.
asked my lesbos n mar for opinion,
they said go for it.
the feelings for boyfie is still there.
same goes to him oso.
haiz.

hamzah.
yadali.

i dun wan to be like this saying tt goes..

yg dikejar tak dapat,yg dikendong berciciran.

eh no no. this saying so the not kena. i dun chase him. hes the one
posessively over me. im not leading him or niting, in fact he is leading me on.

haiyah.

enuff said.

salam all.

ramadhan will be gone soon.
n very soon syawal will appear.
im gonna miss ramadhan so much.

i dunnoe y i dun really looking forward for this yr raya.
maybe my close ones noe to wat im saying.
the close one in fact knew wat happen.
sumtimes im wonderin wat ever happen to me rite now,
is there anything tt lied beneath it?
im curious to noe.
the curiosity in me is killing me so bad.

niways,
im very indesicive rite. ya. majority noes this.
n rite now.
im stuck wit two.
im so in love wit two.
wen i decided to go wit it,boyfie turned out out unexpectedly loving.
he nvr reacted tt way tho for how long ive been wit him.
this is really testing my patience so bad.

yadali.
hamzah.

urgh~!