sowie for the very long time hibernating. well they call it hibernating for a reason rite? heh. niways, im not gonna post the pixs one by one. im gonna use slide and u can view the pics in one go.

im supposed to get myself ready for werk u noe. altho im on leave today but im hardworking tau. and thats because im not done with my freaking LEARNING STUDIO la kan. heh. knowing that i onie can depend on lesbo fee and powerpuff suzie. yelah. so i tink today im goona drain myself inside out, bermandian peluh again to finish up learning studio plak.

ytd we finished up the the theme board. later im gonna do the iman gallery first then the eduvisit pixs board while suzie go and prepare the stuffs.

alritey la. so many things to share but sooo little time and plain lazy to do it anyway. just wait for the pics alrite. ouh wait. i spent on chocs, tee-shirts and indulged on food never ending. i wanna start skool soon. so i dun tink bout food oways. pantat.

niways monster, i had a great rolling ball of time with u on sunday. thankies. mwahs!

<3

to you,

although our mit up ytd was like only 15 minutes, but i appreciated it alot. like how happy i was getting to see your face. my fren said im soooo stupid to travel all the way by MRT, for more than an hour journey just to mit u, not noeing whether ure going home on the same route with me or not. but i dun care to wat they have to say.

wat i noe is that i get to mit u. and get to see u. and get to be with you. and get to feel your presence in me. and get to walk just beside you. but, u have to rush home coz sth crops up. i was left by another someone coz he too have to attend to someone. dun blame him coz he tot im going home wit u. but then, ended up i went home alone ytd.

so thats y my fren asked me again n again. is it worth it? "kau sanggup naik train. of more than 1 jam nyer journey. jumpa die tak sampai 15 minute. he have to rush home. kau kena balik sendiri. tak sempat aper2 pun ngan die. tak jadi gi pasar malam kat depan rumah die pun. sanggup nyer.."

i answered, "sbb sayang." *smiles*

niways, dun worry, im not mad at u. but im not sure if ure mad at me or sth. y u din ans my fone call when i called u? well u told me to msg u once ive reached home. but i find that calling is better than msg coz i tink that really do a lil bit of sth to ur bill rite? well, a lil difference makes a huge changes alrite. i msg-ed and u din reply. i din really paid much attention to it. thinking bout it can really sore my heart. and this morning at 7, the morning wake up call. the usual routine. no matter how tired u are, u will surely ans my kol. and at least by 7.15 ure widely awake. but not this morning. u din ans my kol. me being someone who dun like to be shouted and nagged at, i din disturb u.

now im wondering if ure doin fine.

today, if u were to msg me at 3 jz like ytd asking if want to meet up or wat, i will say yes. cos i will never regret anything tat happen btwn us. onie btwn u n me ok.

regards,
myself.

well helo loyalties. i bet there arent anymore loyalties. im sowie for such a long hibernation. i was stress back then. now i tink im back to serious blogging.

aniways, im rotting and home and im doin absolutely fine. coz i said to myself that im gonna make full use of it. n i m onie gonna start to think about skool again onie after i have enuff rest. ive got many pending stuffs to think ya noe. class for sure ive yet to set up for the term 3. and i have learning studio and the theme board to set also. and this have to be done single handedly by me. except for the class coz i sti;; have my preggie partner.

so, pray for me loyalties.

i was shocked seeing osman online. i mean weekdays, osman? online? he shud be in the camp wat. i wanted to say hie but his status was on away. so buang karen onie if i were to say hie at him. but i will not stop trying. i will still make the effort to say hie to him.

ive watched the muvie mukhsin thrice in just 2 days. i tell u i love all movies from the director fatimah. its all very direct and she direct it base on ppl logical thinking and mindsets. and while watching it, i tot to myself that if by any chances, when i have a family, i wanna have and be a family like mak inom and pak atan's. i told bro bout it. n he said he can foresee me in becoming like dat kind of parent.

thankies bro.

im going to the beach with shims tmr. simply cant wait. n i dunnoe how much money i shud bring to KL. can i just bring 50 bux? coz i dun have the intentions to shop. im done shopping @ spore. but still, i scared of the temptations and the influences ard me. haiz. well well well..

i read didi's entry. she jz came back from KL. n she spend 300-400 buckeroos on shopping. will i be spending like her? ohhh my. this is stressful when it comes to money.......

i cant wait for tmr's date wit shims gerlfren.

gonna be lengthy but i make it simple and straight as it is.

or y shud i anyway? coz this is mine and not any other mofos outside rite? k then dun bother.

it was a hell one for me. shouting. yelling. backstabbing. it was a merely kecoh one la but i wish to put that aside as its already the holiday and no use reminiscing bout that basi story.

lots of things that i went thru. almost everything. be it physical, or mental. heh. shall not elaborate more on the physical ones ya. niways, bout mental one, i did lots of thinking. the crucial one, the minor one and also the oh-so-so one.

y u ask? well i dunnoe coz i tink im too free to think bout all these. and well apparently thats an absolutely untrue. thats really a weird self-proclaim alrite. the truth is, im stress and a worried freak. i worried so much. even the tiniest thing that i shud just let it burn oso i made myself think so hard. stupid rite? well pondering is healthy anyway.

haiz.

ive yet to go for my health medical check up. i dunnoe when i can but i tink i need to go soon. coz ive been feeling giddy very often. READ:GIDDY. and ive been loosing my hair really like alot la. i dun tink its the shampoo tingy la coz ive been using it for almost 2 yrs now, y i gt the effect now rite? logical thinking la kan. n i have very terrible mood swings. i can be very chirpy and at the same time i can be one freaking worried girl. i can be very happie go lucky but at the same time i can also be the most emotional ass girl in the whole wide world.

crap rite? i noe. tell me sth new.

i dunnoe wats wrong wit me. im not complaining or anything la kan. maybe its just that ive been receiving less n less attention from the one that i needed the most. hmm but who la kan? apparently its jay. seriously he is like freaking bz, mad mofo emo and also irritating bugger at time. i admit i nvr said about him tis bad bt its just tat i have to la kan. but no doubt i still have a thing for him. coz now our convo is always bout him complainin that hes tired with the training. stupid instructions that he received. unable to see kuda kepang during his cuzzin's wedding in which literally i found it really no linkage to the whole situation that we're in.

but still wat can i say? i dunnoe la.

next was this guy that i go head over heels for. kamarul. or was it ikrimah? till now im confused as to which name to call him. the right perfect one. ive yet to mention his name before coz i tot he is amazingly farnie la kan. to me. maybe to u ppl, hes a serious chap but to me hes the sensible but sometime cute kinda guy. i hope that sounded like a compliment tho. niways, wat bout him? i went thru lots of things wit him. its seriously bizarre knowing that hes the ___________ (cant describe him. i can do it physically tho!) kinda guy. and in addition to it, i tink i have a thing for him..

wat la? i cant meh? y not?

i have the rite ok. well i like his company. he treated me well. he pampered me so bad. altho there are time it is so difficult to grab his attention but still he is like ___________ (yet another word i cant describe! argh!)

eh wat? im not trying to angkat him la kan. but that the truth. trueness!

im indesicive la. (points to shims.) rite shims? i need company la fee. (points to fee.) can fee? i miss and need u la (points to kamarul) can awak?

somebody shoot me!!!!!!!!! (points at everyone!)

*dies*

actually, theres a very recent entry. its about someone whom im mad with. but when i clicked the "publish post" button, the onie thing tt was publish was the labels. pathetic ryte? and the most saddening thing is that i din save it as draft, so ya la there starts my hibernation.

and now im back. check this out.


cute tak? future project runway..amacam? cuteness kan? this is wat exactly wat i did @HQ after the brief miting for the kinderfun camp programme. i din do on the hair la. shikin helped me coz i gt really agitated and impatients as the yarn dun really stick to head and it kept on slipping off. and wat i mostly did was designing the bajus for the puppets. the chn input will be adding the features.

check this one out..



are these cute or wat la kan?? hehe. i noe i can never do fashion design. its all so kental but it will look great and the kids will love it alrite. they will have all the fun time in the world choosing wat baju shall be for thier puppet. hehe cuteness and i cant wait for the real day itself..

ouh this one your truly made for jay-love.




amek kau! cute kan? hehe his all time favourite.."pink-is-nice-la-gerl. we-shall-wear-pink-for-this-yr-raya" colour guy... siap organza kt tepi k. wakaka! too bad they dun provide songket. if not, i will be going madness tergolek-golek!!!!!

so it all started when i tagged ibu to her friend's jemputan. i m so not looking forward to the wedding couple. i just cant wait to look at the deco and their wedding dais. and voila! it really impress me alot. the dais is superb. its pretty and elegant. its high and i like. and it look vintagely beautiful like the western victorian if u noe wat i mean. and so i mms this pic to jay and said..

"pwince, this dais is pweety rite? but i still insist to have buaian for my later dais..hehe!"

and he replied that he wanted to have juntaian of bunga melor and a maroon background. i was impress with the colours that he chose. coz he said that his fav choice of colour gonna be green. i never tot its gonna be maroon. so like i mentioned earlier, its gonna be a vintage victorian look-a-like la kan. haha and so he replied to my next sms thru mms..


my 'swingy' dais. jay's dream dais deco.

and his msg to this pics are...

"heres ur buaian and this is mine. amacam?" i noe already coz this is from Chinta Wedding. i told u he have this very impressive taste on choosing things. and so our colour preference is nearing the same and guess wat? we came out with both of our same preference in our dream dais..



taadaaa!! we came up with this one. except that the "juntaian" at the back he wants it to be bunga melor. biasa la kan, kalau da jawa tu, jawa jgk. haha. i loike this one. this was taken on my abg sedara's wedding. he like. i like. so *winks**winks*

anyways, tak salah kan kalau layankan berangan masing2 nie. we have so many things in common. we met ytd and we slacked at starbucks after so many weeks of not meeting. we miss each other alot. i miss him more i shud say. frm SYF to the PA show performance. and the closing, we were toking bout this yr raya. he said he wants to wear songket. i wore songket 3 yrs ago. and i said ive yet to decide. he suggested that i shud go on lace. i said that i have very low self-esteem and i dun have the confident to wear lace. as i dun wanna look so groggy and i noe i dun look good in lace. u now when u wear lace, it have to look slim and sleeq rite. and im so not into looking body fit kinda baju. so i told him siang2 me da pangkah. but he insisted. he said purple is a nice colour for me (knowing that i love purple alot) and he hint hint that hes wearing purple this yr.

so the conclusion, this sat, we're meeting again to go to kg jawa to look at the kain. he offered to help me with the materials and the colours. and im all excited la kan! he said i shud ignore wt other ppl gonna say. i said i need moral support and he said hes giving me all the support that he have.

haiz. sweet la kan.