i found this when i was scrutinising some old stuffs. i was left in awe when i saw this. how much i miss him soooo bad. i tried to look at his profile in my frenster acc. i guess he must have deleted me in his frens list la kan coz i cant found his profile.

tt time rite, i was on holiday waiting for the o level result. everyone were bz with job hunting, i was bz wit him almost everyday. almost everyday we went out and spent time together. it was a bliss at that point of time. maklum la kan, org ngah bercinta, sume nyer indah2 belaka.

and then also, many commented that this pic, he looked like Achik Spin. i dunnoe hw true is that la. maybe of his smile. no doubt he is a photogenic. he looks good in almost every picture. i managed to find a few of our neocards. theres plenty of our pics when we were to together, but no where to be seen. hilang kot?!

i miss him u noe. mmg la wt he did to me is sth that i shud just lupakan die, but still, sweet memories betwn me n him dat makes me appreciate his presence at that point of time. he tot me many things. every experience is educational u noe. haha.

but its all good now tho. hes in his own world, n me now in my own world. hope to bump into u at the thahibita bridge. insya allah.

niways, tts him, Muhd Azmy Osman.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

amacam? jambu tak? huhu. dats how we looked like this yr. altho this was taken in a very informal way but then its like at least sth la kan,a sneak preview uh wat i meant. will load the rest of the pics say when i have the mood oready as apparently im feeling all excited bout tmr.

lets not talk bout tmr. im all excited to tok wat actually happened on the ferst day raya. no not all the cryings. wat i really looked forward for was meeting all the long lost once a year meet cousins. how fun is that? they grew sooo tall like mini sky scrapers. n some have really turned into a young handsome man.

realise ive been toking bout the male cousins onie? cos apparently, the gerls dun have any changes. they were minah since donkey years oready. the boys were stil budak hingusan last time. look now, they've grown so well.

well. time passed. ppl changed.

and so the ferst day of raya i din go out since opah n aki were raya-ing at my house this yr. we went out onie on the second day of raya. n the fun ting is, we skipped many house this yr. the usual ferst day raya ones. macam fun gitu. sbb frankly i dun find it necessary to go visit them oso.

*ooops!*

not say necessary uh but then its like more of each time i come they will ask unnecessary qns which is unavoidable. and they sounded not pitiful but freaking irritating k, so this yr like i can totally avoid the whole scenario. best kan. im sure u understands.

i shall update more wit the pics that comes in slide. so its ez to view oso.

toodles.

let the picture do the talking. ni semua hasil kerja kawan karib ku yang paling ku saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang skali. Osman and Shims. Thanks eh korang. korang ni la yang menghiburkan hatiku saat saat aku kebosanan kat hospital. aku saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang korang sehingga akhir hayat aku.

kepada yang hadir melawat aku, terima kasih la byk2. buah tangan korang tu semua, belon tu sume, tima kasih la byk2. aku da sihat wal'afiat nie. syukran for all your doas.

nenek ku tanya, "kak, maner kawan kakak yang keje polis tu?"

dalam kepala otak aku da klua macam2 nama ader, kamarul? shah? taufik? EC? saper eh? ibrahim ke?

"alah yang kelmarin gamba die byk kat computer kakak tu.." nenek aku sampuk bila die tgk aku tercengang memikirin saper yang aku sesungguhnya tak tau sape..

aku tersentak. mat polis yang aku ader byk gamba dalam computer aku? hmm. dan sesungguhnya aku da tau jawapan nyer.. dan perlukah aku ulangi nyer lagi..?

"sesungguhnya aku sudah berdoa kepada yang Esa, Jika betul dia untukku, dekatkan hatinya pada aku. Sekiranya dia bukan untukku, Jauhi diriku dan fikiranku tentang dia.."

and sesungguhnya Yang Maha Kuasa jawab makbulkan doa ku.

"Ohh Jay. Dia keje la opah. Sibuk sikit.."

padahal padahal...........................

and so this year we got for ourself a new 'lampu-lap-lip'. u noe meriah it is to look outside the window and u can see sparkling lites twinkling non stop. hhuhu. look at my ibu up there. we just came back from teh tarik for buka.

niways, aku malas nak blog panjang2 dalam bahasa english. dengan pening aku yang tak hilang2. lagi plak ngah dok betol2 depan teevee tgk rahsia perkahwinan.

kawan madrasah aku tanya, "kau aper cite ngan ngan lelaki yang bibir seks tu.." aku ader la ternganga sikit siapa la kan lelaki bibir seks tu eh. pikir nyer pikir, jay la. ya ampun. macam maner la aku bleh lupa pasal si jay tu kan.

sesungguhnya aku da berdoa pada allah ta'ala, kalau la betol dia tu untuk aku, dekatkan la hatinya pada aku, dan sekiranya dia bukan untuk aku, jauhilah diri ku darinya, hilangkan ingatanku terhadap nya.."

dan sesungguhnya, yang maha kuasa telah membuktikan...

happie fasting. first entry since the first day of puasa. i just recover from high fever. can someone pls save me? ive overworked and onie god noes.

i have 2 more pending proposals. saiful nagged at me almost every nite saying that i need to stop werking for at least a day and have a rest. well i did. on thurs i clear my 4 hrs time off. at nite i was hit wit high fever. i was shivering n sweating like a pig. my head ached alot, i vomitted and i had diarrhoea. u noe how suffering that is? onie god noes.

now, my migrain hit back n i have to wait for muqmin. where the hell is this muqmin seh?

how will u react if u were told before to wait and let the time decide, and then suddenly u were told that it's better and hes happy to stay as wat we r rite now, as frens.



pls somebody tell me that that sound super pathetic. i was super dooper dumb to take his words into consideration when he told me that im the one when the first time he saw me. u made me in cloud nine when u said that its oways a must for u to msg me, and once u did, u just cant stop msg-ing wit me.



bloody fakers all.



its all good now ya. so much for a happy ending. it sucks. i shud have shoved the big huge mirror rite to my face la kan before pretending to be the queen of ur heart. this thing hurt me sooo bad tau, its just that i cant afford to cry anymore. i noe the last time i cried sooo bad coz of him oso. he ignored me for few days n that left me in misery.

i cant bear to lose him but still things have to go on like usual. hes not my backbone or anything.



wat he told me thru sms when i tok things wit him, was just too painful to swallow. it ache alot as i never tot that he wud say that. literally i asked him if i shud still wait for him or just move on. and wat saddened me alot is that he dun understand simple n direct literacy. it was left unanswered. he assumed he did ans. and i assumed he wants to put a limit to it. well, if that he wants fr the outcome of everything after giving me hopes then i shall just walk away..



it hurt alot. surreal hurt alot. i talked to sis. i talked to bro. ive yet to tok to ibu. im just tooooo malu to speak to ibu about this. my ibu noes how much i dote on him. n shes the one who gave me the strength to continue wait for him. n now look wat happen.



this feeling here sucks sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i need u. (point to lesbos..!)

i have many things to update. we shall go topic by topic starts with the most basi one.

teachers day.

this yr woodgrove angkat all. well not literally all la kan but then it seems like it. this was like an eye opener for all of my new teachers. altho its kinda belated and passed for almost 2 weeks now, but it seems that our dinner nite felt like it was just ytd. pardon if my eng sucks to the core. time check pls.

i appeared to be BEST TEACHER FOR WOODGROVE 2007 and BEST CLASSROOM 2007. my centre under my management won the BEST LEARNING STUDIO. sth that i can be proud of as it was me n my teachers achievement for 2 yrs straight. this one is a must must be proud of kinda thing. and the most memorable event for the entire nite, woodgrove won the CHAMPION FOR IMAN IDOL 2007. we compete wit 8 other centers k. under my management too. im the choreographer. the costume. the make up. the everything. with the determintation and confident from my teachers, we won wit glory.

and so i brought home 4 trophies. not to forget, all the beautiful gift n prezzies from my kids. love them many many. many congratulate me. and some said sth that really made me left the hall wit two feelings, proud and shocked..

"congrats tr nurul. great effort. u deserve it this yr.."

"congrats nurul. u guys shud deserve it. baik ar joget. tak sia2 u marah2 wit ur teachers.."

see.

krayon.

im incharge for the deejay wannabe this yr for the woodgrove center. n so i went for the krayon recording twice. great experince i tell ya. theres a pic for it. a video too. but it seems that my lappie dun supprt the sth2. so dun bother to wait for the video. let the picture do the talking. i mean, if i can find the time to upload all the nice pics la kan. time is precious u noe.

teachers day outing.

we went to sentosa. huhu. i love my teachers. they are the most sporting sports ever. n they oways have plans for everything. n they always make it happen. tats wat i like about them the most. wat i always tell them, wen we're at werk, get their head seriously in the task that they are doing. when it is the time to enjoy, we enjoy to the fullest. its like bringing good old memories when the first time i stepped into iman.

another outing was planned. we went to bb safra or watever u call it and played lazer quest. initially we planned to play bowling, but all lane was booked, we play lazer quest. i mite be the best choreographer or the best teacher la kan but when it comes to lazer shooting, i came last k. ppl scores wit more then 500 pts, i manage to get for myself 24 points onie. how pathetic is that? malu tau. it took me 1 week to make them stop laughing at me.

lesson to be learn. dun listen to watever the instructor said. he said dun run. i shud be running like siao ca bo ok.

next. is there anything that i miss? ohh i tink its the emo entry. i shall make it to the later one. that one must be the exclusive entry.

pics will be uploaded soon. promise.