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i invited moon. but he cant make it. hes out of town. *sob**sob*

on my 21st summore.

i spent my sunday today wit him. he made me laugh non stop hits and theres so many things that we both can share. from cats, to his mom, to his frens. all.

absolutely all.

and i understands him better now. he never n i dun mind repeating it again and again that he never fails to make me smile and laugh till it hurts. the most best thing about him? hes a joker. the bad thing bout him, hes not romantic. he dunnoe how to react if tings dun go well.

but its all good now. when is our next miting eh Min?

aiseyman..

da nak mula lagi ke cite cite mepek zaman gilang gemilang nie? bosan seh. da takde keje tu, gi la buat keje yang berfaedah sikit. kalau niat nak menyibuk dalam hidupku n nak amek tahu perihal hidupku, baca sudah la entry ku.

yang kau kuasa nak tag, tanya aku sape nama ex aku yang bastard aku, (padahal sape bastard sape ntah) or suruh update blog aku tu knp? kau bayar gaji aku ke untuk aku update blog aku. aku peh suka la kan. kau ada masalah kepe ngan perihal hidup kau sendiri? hidup kau ku tak kuasa eh nak amek kesah..

tak guna eh nak blog speaking ngan kau, sbb orang yang mempunyai daya pemikiran yang negatif and sempit sikit kat ruang otak tu jek takkan faham apa yang aku ingin menyatakan kat sini. aku tak suka, hidup ku kau nak meyibuk.

ku tak jemput kau suruh baca blog aku, jd tahu malu sikit eh bila nak tag. susah2 mak bapak kasi nama, pinjam nama orang. masalah sosial betol.

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niways. loyalties. im really having bad ache now. everywhere. the whole body. last wkend, i spent time wit Min. ytd, deepavali holz, i met Kamarul. i m suppose to meet Jay tmr, but hes werking on morning shift and finish kinda late. tak kuasa nak jumpa malam, i decided to mail the stuff onie.

lesbos, we shud meet one day. plz. this is a must. heck care wit the tite schedule.
dee and diana, in case ure reading this, me too need to meet u gerls.
didi and riana, i hope ure reading this, meet me one day. pls. need to gv u sth.
dayak, if ure reading this, pls ss emm sss me.
osman, haiz, i dunoe if we have the time for each other to meet or not. call oso can rite?

the rest, ive made an arrangement, we're meeting anytime sooner, so wait fr my call aite.

toodles.

i found this when i was scrutinising some old stuffs. i was left in awe when i saw this. how much i miss him soooo bad. i tried to look at his profile in my frenster acc. i guess he must have deleted me in his frens list la kan coz i cant found his profile.

tt time rite, i was on holiday waiting for the o level result. everyone were bz with job hunting, i was bz wit him almost everyday. almost everyday we went out and spent time together. it was a bliss at that point of time. maklum la kan, org ngah bercinta, sume nyer indah2 belaka.

and then also, many commented that this pic, he looked like Achik Spin. i dunnoe hw true is that la. maybe of his smile. no doubt he is a photogenic. he looks good in almost every picture. i managed to find a few of our neocards. theres plenty of our pics when we were to together, but no where to be seen. hilang kot?!

i miss him u noe. mmg la wt he did to me is sth that i shud just lupakan die, but still, sweet memories betwn me n him dat makes me appreciate his presence at that point of time. he tot me many things. every experience is educational u noe. haha.

but its all good now tho. hes in his own world, n me now in my own world. hope to bump into u at the thahibita bridge. insya allah.

niways, tts him, Muhd Azmy Osman.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

amacam? jambu tak? huhu. dats how we looked like this yr. altho this was taken in a very informal way but then its like at least sth la kan,a sneak preview uh wat i meant. will load the rest of the pics say when i have the mood oready as apparently im feeling all excited bout tmr.

lets not talk bout tmr. im all excited to tok wat actually happened on the ferst day raya. no not all the cryings. wat i really looked forward for was meeting all the long lost once a year meet cousins. how fun is that? they grew sooo tall like mini sky scrapers. n some have really turned into a young handsome man.

realise ive been toking bout the male cousins onie? cos apparently, the gerls dun have any changes. they were minah since donkey years oready. the boys were stil budak hingusan last time. look now, they've grown so well.

well. time passed. ppl changed.

and so the ferst day of raya i din go out since opah n aki were raya-ing at my house this yr. we went out onie on the second day of raya. n the fun ting is, we skipped many house this yr. the usual ferst day raya ones. macam fun gitu. sbb frankly i dun find it necessary to go visit them oso.

*ooops!*

not say necessary uh but then its like more of each time i come they will ask unnecessary qns which is unavoidable. and they sounded not pitiful but freaking irritating k, so this yr like i can totally avoid the whole scenario. best kan. im sure u understands.

i shall update more wit the pics that comes in slide. so its ez to view oso.

toodles.

let the picture do the talking. ni semua hasil kerja kawan karib ku yang paling ku saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang skali. Osman and Shims. Thanks eh korang. korang ni la yang menghiburkan hatiku saat saat aku kebosanan kat hospital. aku saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang korang sehingga akhir hayat aku.

kepada yang hadir melawat aku, terima kasih la byk2. buah tangan korang tu semua, belon tu sume, tima kasih la byk2. aku da sihat wal'afiat nie. syukran for all your doas.

nenek ku tanya, "kak, maner kawan kakak yang keje polis tu?"

dalam kepala otak aku da klua macam2 nama ader, kamarul? shah? taufik? EC? saper eh? ibrahim ke?

"alah yang kelmarin gamba die byk kat computer kakak tu.." nenek aku sampuk bila die tgk aku tercengang memikirin saper yang aku sesungguhnya tak tau sape..

aku tersentak. mat polis yang aku ader byk gamba dalam computer aku? hmm. dan sesungguhnya aku da tau jawapan nyer.. dan perlukah aku ulangi nyer lagi..?

"sesungguhnya aku sudah berdoa kepada yang Esa, Jika betul dia untukku, dekatkan hatinya pada aku. Sekiranya dia bukan untukku, Jauhi diriku dan fikiranku tentang dia.."

and sesungguhnya Yang Maha Kuasa jawab makbulkan doa ku.

"Ohh Jay. Dia keje la opah. Sibuk sikit.."

padahal padahal...........................

and so this year we got for ourself a new 'lampu-lap-lip'. u noe meriah it is to look outside the window and u can see sparkling lites twinkling non stop. hhuhu. look at my ibu up there. we just came back from teh tarik for buka.

niways, aku malas nak blog panjang2 dalam bahasa english. dengan pening aku yang tak hilang2. lagi plak ngah dok betol2 depan teevee tgk rahsia perkahwinan.

kawan madrasah aku tanya, "kau aper cite ngan ngan lelaki yang bibir seks tu.." aku ader la ternganga sikit siapa la kan lelaki bibir seks tu eh. pikir nyer pikir, jay la. ya ampun. macam maner la aku bleh lupa pasal si jay tu kan.

sesungguhnya aku da berdoa pada allah ta'ala, kalau la betol dia tu untuk aku, dekatkan la hatinya pada aku, dan sekiranya dia bukan untuk aku, jauhilah diri ku darinya, hilangkan ingatanku terhadap nya.."

dan sesungguhnya, yang maha kuasa telah membuktikan...