there i was sitting in my class waiting for my lecturer to bring in all our notes.
i was browsing thru the previous notes from the previous lesson.
while browsing thru, my nose twitched. i smelled sth that i smelled b4. sth im familliar with.

its tekdee's parfume. the addidas scent. i looked at the door, thinking that he mite just appeared there and surprised me wit blueberry tea and the sandwich from Cheers.

but no. cannot be. he was on his way to meet his sec sch fren, izzuwan when i called him before the class started. i continued browsing the papers. then my hp vibrate and the msg read,

"so near,yet so far. im at tanjong pagar."

OMG. i said to myself. is this reallky happening or wat? somehow i can sense that hes there but its just that hes not there yet. i was so shocked when he msged me that. very the coincidence. and i told him wat happened.

"adakah ini tanda rasanya rindu di jiwa?"

thursday
i was dead since thurs.
and i was reincarnated once again on sun morning.

at first when i woke up on thurs morning i was fine.
was only coughing.
i made my way to skool as usual.
the moment i stepped into the skool, i started to feel nauseous.

i sat down instead of the usual standing in front of
my teachers when i did the morning briefing. coz
i felt so giddy. n i was sweating profusely already.

my palm, both of my palm started to perspire.
i cudnt hold my pen properly. i shud have just let someone else
do the minutes of the meeting. i coughed again n again.
my head and my neck hurt.

i started to lose my voice.
and i ended the briefing early.
it was unbearable. but i had no guts to tell mdm tt i was sick.
i sat on a chair. everyone started to get ready. one by one asked if i was ok.
damn rite i was not ok.

i plucked up the courage to tell mdm that i was not well.
i smsed, "mdm, i demam."

and thank god, she actually instructed me to go n see doc and update her on my mc.
after i did some admin stuffs, and packed things tt i wanna bring and
do at home, i left for poly.
at first, my body temp was 38.8 derees.

the waiting was devastating.
i fell asleep while waiting for my turn.
my head was super heavy and i coughed like nobody business.
i had to put on that mask. and wit me wearing tudung, its like im wearing a niqaab.

finally it was my turn.
the doc took my temp n it read, 40.1 degree already!
and the doc knew about me suffering from hyphothyroid.
got for myself 3 days mc.

while waiting for the medicine, i was standing.
i tink there was this "mat" who saw me almost dead-like, he gave up his seat to me.
i sat. and i waited for another 30 minutes.
after i got the medicine, i walked back to skool. adilla walked beside me and she
commented that she cud feel my body heat.

i took my stuffs and left.
they asked how many days mc, i lifted up 3 fingers.
i cud see the shockness on their face.

i took a cab. i reached hm. no one was home.
i removed my hejab. after taking my medicine, i took my temp.
43.5 degrees! yikes!

i slept the whole day. woke up when my darling tek texted me.
he said he wanted to come over. ibu woke me up when he arrived.
he was super dooper sweet. he bought for me chengteng and tau suan.

only god knew how delighted i was to see tek.
he nursed me. he fed me the chengteng.
my body temp was still high. i lied down on his lap.
he stroked my hair. he touched my forehead and i fell asleep agn.

when i woke up, tek wanted me to sleep properly on the bed and rest.
and he left.
and i took my medicine and continued sleeping.

friday
i woke up at 8.
mandi. ate bread with milk. din finish the bread.
ate my medicine, continued to sleep.
woke up at 3, Along came.
brought porridge.
cudnt finish it. somehow it tasted so yucky. and my throat longed for sth sweet.
made milo. cudnt drink. vomitted all out. drank low fat milk.

in tt very sick condition i still had to do my work. i finished up my report book remarks.
all 60 of them.
with the help of Along and luthfi. and also my lovely bro.
called tek before i went to bed.
and i knocked off after i was done. took my medicine and slept.

saturday & sunday
still felt very giddy but temp was back to normal.
i cud eat. and i cud sit to watch tv.
i cud smile and i cud move ard the house.
frankly i was paralysed on thurs and fri.
tek came over to see if i was doin fine already.
we spent the whole day at home movie marathon-ing.

monday
im back to healthy me.
*cough-cough!* onie coughing a lil bit.
*smiles* thanks for the prayers to those who prayed for my speedy recovery.
esp my sayang tekdee. he never stopped praying for me.
thanks for taking care of me when im sick sayang.

x0x0

my sayang tek, is not only good in his literacy but also his "sastera"..
following are a few stanzas for me from him.

"Bagaikan bidadari anggun dari kayangan dewa

Kau meliputi kalbuku dengan panah-panah cinta

Tiada lain lagi yang ku pinta

Hanya mahukan kamu dalam hidup hamba

Cinta suci cinta lara

Selagi jasadku mengalir darah ku akan tetap setia

Entah kenapa hatiku gusar

Ketiadaanmu disisiku seakan-akan membuatku gila

Harap coretanku ini akan mengukirkan senyuman

Di mukamu yang manis dan cantik jelitawan"

thank you sayang.

i love u.

I watched 'Ayat-Ayat Cinta' with ibu just now.
it was a mother and daughter date.
at first i tot it mite be very boring. all about love and all.
boy i was wrong.

i love the movie.
i love the character "Aishah".
she made a big sacrifice. even if she noes that her heart will be sore.
her courage. her strength. and her pure love.
i envy "Aishah" alot.

sure, love need lots of sacrifice aye?
im waiting patiently for the book from my sayang Tekdee.

*will you love me in the morning sayang?*

tek darling left for his school camp already.

cute kan masih ada skool camp ni sume.

the last time i had one, was of course during the sec sch yrs la.

and i always love going to camps.

now, im really looking forward for the staff retreat.

or just a short getaway with my loved ones.

anyways, tek will come back by tmr.

just a 1 nite camp.

sth tt is related to his NTUMS leadership thingy.

he was one of the candidates for a Top 6 position for NTUMS.

(READ: Nanyang Technological University Muslim Society)

wo hen lei ah.

my body is aching.

i miss u tek.

mwahs!

lets start from sun. since someone was trying to make me update.
almost every nite he reminded me to update about it.

and so on sunday, me n tek laling had a movie date.
we DUN always watch movie k so dun go "haiz..stakat movie je pe!" kinda ting k.
and we watched at Vivo. we watched Nim's Island.
initially we wanted to watch Ironman, the available seat was onie 2nd row from the front.
so we tot its not gonna be comfortable and we decided to go with Nim's Island.
the movie was fine. if only i can afford to own an island. just like Nim.

before the movie, we ate @ Fig and Olive.
i cant really rmb the name of the dishes that we had, but for all that i can rmb, i had great time spending looking deep into his eyes.
i heart him alot.

after the movie, we took the fresh air and had heart to heart talk.
i told him what happen about Min. he said that he felt appreciated coz i told him about it.
but deep down, i noe he's hurt.
after the chat, we walked all the to harbour front for the cab.
the Q at Vivo was bleeding lenghty.

On Monday,
supposedly theres an audit. but then, the day goes by wit no one wants to audit us.
i put on new shoes and i had blisters. put on socks but still got blisters.
pressure was increased upon seeing the project booklets.
its the project week. and its gonna be hectic. and madness i tell u.
tiring also. and so, i did all the writings that i can find the time to do it and finish up the writings and documentations.

ohh i rmbered i went to class. sat for the test on psychoanalysis theory.
i disagree with Sigmund Freud and so for the last qn, it was 3o marks, we had to pen down
our thoughts if we agree or disagree with his theory and findings. and i listed down all the
possibilities and disadvantages.

on Tuesday,
frankly.
i cant rmb wat i did on tuesday.
or was it i met tek?
hehe kidding. ya i met him. he accompanied me in skool and helped me out wit the
table displays.
initially i wanted to put up my wow station and logic smart as the whole mahjong piece fall off from the wall.
very heart pain u noe tues morning, stepped inside the class and view that.
but then i cant do it as i dun have double sided to tape it to the wall.

after that, me n tek laling had dinner at KFC @ Triple 8.
i had my cheezy melt and he had his banditto pocket.
now, i like to eat KFC with tek. cos we're able to order the stident meal.
save beb!

and on Wednesday,
which is tdy.
school @ iman was super hectic.
chaos to the maha maksima.

we did potato salad.
we did bunga rampai.
we had flower arrangment competition.
we did chromatography experiment with carnation.

imagine. all those in 3 hrs.
no. minus 1/2 hr for kidsmeeting.
imagine. all those in 2 and 1/2 hrs.
no. minus 15 mins for their break.
imagine. all those in 2 hrs and 15 mins.
no. minus all the dilly dally la. asking for toilet breaks la.
imagine. all those in 2 hrs.

mati terbongkang aku!

ohh and i din mentioned. im a soloist in France.
*pat on my back* gd job ST Nurul.

mampoz.

tek send me to school. @ Nanyang.
was so happy got to meet him.
he looks bright in yellow.
i love him lorh.
ohh tek send and fetch me from skool.
i was in cloud 9 tonite.
and i miss him already lorh.

*wo ai ni tek.

an apology entry specially for lesbo fee and lesbo aidah.

sowie aku tk dapat nak join korang tadi. aku btol2 mintk maaf. aidah, kau tau kan aper sbb nyer. aku msg kau pagi tadi saying tt i cant join u ppl to Sentosa today. kau tak reply and aku assume kau marah aku. aku lost beb. mak aku ajak klua and knowingly aku this few days pun jarang kat rumah sbb course and ngah exam period sume, aku harap kau faham la keadaan aku ni mcm mane.

aku tau da brape kali aku bubble meeting kitorang, tapi aku tak pernah lupakn korang. aku janji, kita akan klua sama2 jgk satu hari nanti. and aku tak pernah lupakan korang tau. jgn ingat, aku da pulaukan korang and lupakan korang tau.

korang masih tetap besties aku. sampai bila2. aku harap korang faham.

yang ingin minta ampun dan maaf,
lesbo comot

(on a side note)
to tekdee,

thanks for the ring. thanks for the dinner. thanks for the company. appreciate it so much. n i love u till infinity. no worries about the pictures. it might be gone, but im not. n will never b.

xoxo
pus