blogstipation

salam alaik.
sorrie for not updating my blog for quite some time. been very bz wif skool. sorrie frens. i did update my blog. been bz wif skool n stuffs. my mid yr baru je habis. now bz prepare for the o. its jus ard the corner..

sorry aite

to muhd fazil..

salam alaik.
sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time. been busy wif skool n teaching.
for fazil my buddy,dun give up easily. ku seidh bila dgr kau cakap macam tu. jus tink positive aite n move on wif life. u still have me,bell,lan,tengku n rin. u can count on us aite..

i really hope u stay strong n sabar menempuhi semua dugaan yg kau lalui. trust me,ku sedih dan sehinggakan ku menitis kan airmata ku mengenangkan nasib mu itu. life is short. hope u handle things maturely.

anyway introdue u peeps to my fren..theres..

Gong=Fazil Tomok
Bell=Nora HipHop
Dang= Me (short form for gendang)
Tengku=Firdaus Listiluhu
Lan=Faiz Comel (short form for gamelan)
Rin=Noreen (short form for tambourine)

hmm..ni la kerenah budak JAMIYAH BUSINESS SCHOOL..

listening to: sarena ku cinta (newboyz)

life was meant to be beautiful dearie...

salam alaik.
i dun really noe wats got into me. jus a small thing n i made it big. im sorry nadiyah. im really sorry. i behave n handle things like a kid when im actually turning 18 this year. but i jus wan u to noe tt i really treasure our frenship. all this while we've been goin through the ups n down together. eversince we seperated,many things have gotten into between us. wat happen this few days,im sorrie. im jus stress up n i dunnoe how to handle it. behaving like tt is totally immature. im really sorrie.

had mini arguments wif the MF peeps. am really ashamed wif myself. wats wif me? im not strong to handle n face wif this kind of situation. everything is not right. dylan. hes another one. sometime i jus gave up wif him. but he always make me promise,never to give up doin things halfway. i can never give up in him. he need me n so do i. i promise to him to always be by his side. love is blind. this is not the kind of relationship tt i want. but,its all fate. fate lies in GOD's hand. we plan it,he makes it. i prayed day n night,for dylan,for my family,for my besfrens, nadiyah, diana, hidayah, endang.

never in my mind to forgot them. in fact everything tt i do,i remembered them. eating at cineleisure long john silver wif faiz,remind me of my girlfrens. i sumtimes wonder wat they do and in fact, do they remember me. at the hawker center amk,eating mee soto wif Azmie,remind me of them. theres a whole lot of memories, everywhere i go.. i see them..

losing u peeps in my life is like losing the half in me. i have lose the other half of me when azmy left me. i dun wan u peeps to leave me. u peeps n my parents are my the other half. losing azmy is a crazy thing tt happen to me. i dun wan to lose u peeps, mikhail bob junior dylan,n the most important person in my life,my parents. jus dun leave me aite.

Mikhail Bob Junior Dylan..be strong abang. i noe u read this,i jus want u to be strong. ingat tuhan. ayang will always be by ur side. insya allah.

wassalam..

hmm wat are frens for anyway huh..?

salam alaik.
i read pai's blog. hmm so my mf peeps went out together n left me out. good. ini la yg dikata kan kawan. i din even noe tt they went out together. bagus la kawan2 ku yg ku fikir kan sejati.

if the alasan tt they din wan me to come along coz they tot im skooling,well bagus ar. i wonder if they ever heard of the existence of hp. they can always ring me up n ask.."huda,free on friday? wanna meet up?" tell ya wat,im absolutely free on friday. absolutely no plans. n the most imporatant thing is tt i dun have class on friday. the only day tt im free to the max.

well y mus i even bother to blog about wat they did to me. i remembered them but do they..? nah dun tink so.. if they did,they wud ring me n ask me to come along. no wonder i dreamt bout them last nite...

wassalam ..

listening to: fuck it i dun wan u back (dunnoe by hu laa..)

gone..

salam alaik.

everything will be gone soon. seriously soon. first wud be my hp. shocking n first time in my life my bil shoot up to $90! damn shocking aite. next my hunzie dylan. (ohh hunzie,sungguh tak sedap..tapi die nak jugak ku panggil die ni..)hes leaving singapore this monday afternoon. supposed to be this wed,but his dad,changed his mind to mon afternoon. earlier in fact. n hes moving to OC california,by the end of this yr. much further. allah hu akhbar...~!

so shag actually. tml ader prac. then goin to esplanade library. got this indie band gig. must go. then study wif the homies as usual. hmm wat else huh? ohh yeah meeting Qasim this sun insya allah. hmm wat else. bout tt azmie guy, everything goin very fine. still on the get-to-noe-better session. he said im interesting. ar ye, aku ngah tanggung sesama derita ngan dylan aku,kau tak tahu. interesting konon! lelaki mudah ajer lafaz kan.."ur einteresting la gerl.."...."u very cute la girl. i love to tok wif u on the fone la u..."....WATEVER!

I sound piss huh..? yeah! coz..? dylan of cos.. i dunnoe wats wif me. i better go n solat to cool myself down...-fooooohhhh-

wassalam..

listening to: demi cinta suci (UNIC)

tt smell..

salam alaik.

i was walkin towards 962 to go home. from civic center. went out wif faiz. my nose smelled sumting. ohh tuhan! its tt smell again. i turn ard looking for tt smell. n there it is. tt same guy was standing rite behind me. smiling at me. i smiled at him back. my heart goes thum-the-rum-the-rum..

i went to join the queue. he followed me from behind. n yeah tt smell. i felt like turning ard n gave him a big hug n took deep breath.. i lay my bump on the pole. i looked at him. he looked at me. he was about to say sumtink when i looked away. he got nearer to me n whisper to my ear, "remembered somone?" ohh my. i looked at him. i smiled n i looked down. "hi my name azmi..(not sure wif the y or i)" i guffaws. looked at him wif my mouth open. "nurul.." i said. shooked hand wif him. ohh my.

the bus came. board the bus. sat rite at the back of the bus. "where do u live?" he asked. jus beside the woodlands ring pri.." i answered back. "ouh..dekat la tu.." he said. i jus smiled. i cant stop myself from breathing tt scent deep deep deep down. ohh tuhan i miss this smell. "my smell..remind u of someone..?" he suddenly ask me.. ohh my i was so shy. i was blushing. " yeah. my ex-boyfren.." i smiled at him. n looked away..he just chuckle. the next stop was my stop. he took out his nokia hp 6600.."can i have ur no. ?" and this stupid me,so kanchiong..drop everything tt im holding on to..i said.."wat..?"

"no awak..boleh..?" took his hp. press my no. n gave him back. i was about to alight the bus when he said out loud, "i msg u aite.." i smiled..

n yeah he msg me..

n yeah another azmy or azmi..

listening to: karma (black eyed peas)

madrasah.. then to tamp..

salam alaik.
this chick dun even noe the name of my band. but they only like they all wanna hold hand. the name of my band by eminem feat d-12

woke up at 9. made breakfast. then cook lunch. had lunch b4 went out. then took bus 969 to go to bugis. met ilmy for a while. waited for faiz n nora outside banquet. plan to meet ilmy after my prac. but then they decide to study at tamp library. i was like okie. sms-ed ilmy n told him cancel bout our plan. damn my discman wif him n hes lazy to come to madrasah to pass my discman. so he brought home my discman wif the simple plan cd. while discussing this faiz comel changed his plan. he said study tml. i was like okie. good. i have to go tampiness alone.

then out in a blue moon,khairul sms-ed me. hehe i was so delighted. sms sms we plan to meet up. hehe then meet him. he look so so so hot now. wif his goatee n well dress. ohh i love him. he kept on hinting tt hes still waiting for me. im to shy to mention bout it. its a long story aite btwn me n him. he send me off at interchange n he went to meet his fren. ya tuhan. i miss him so much. he said he miss me too. (",)

reached home. mandi then solat. then finish up reading the silverfiiiish book. read a journal by azlan mohammad. its about this azlan guy went to gay club n got hooked a gay. good book. after tt went online n chatted wif ghazie. hes still waiting his NUS reply whether he qualified or not. wish u luck bro. then now updating my blog. accompanied by 'the name of the my band" sang by eminem feat d-12.

i miss my dylan. he din call me ytd. i hope he call me tonite. im worried sick for him. hes not feeling well. n he always forgot to take his jab. haiz ayang miss u abang. this tue hes goin back home australia. im gonna be drop dead miss him..

listening to: the name of my band (eminem feat d-12)