crampy n cranky me..

salamz ya'll. i got this terrible stomach cramp. i kept on burping i dunnoe wats the reason. anyhoos im at work rite now. werking on the theme board. no idea for the enrichment corner. me n fee have been cracking our brains since juz now. the enrichment thing must be manipulative..

meeting adek farah. after tt meeting min n syawal together wit ayid. goin to esplanade later wit them. min n ayid mentioned tt theres indie gig. today im in a good mood. in wearing this new dark blue kurta tt my mom bought for me the other week. n this is the only day tt i can wear jeans n snickers. so yeah. this is me.

im drop dead hungry. had oreo n marsmellow cereals but then im still hungry. hear my stomach growls like hungry cat.

im so down.
wit mamat..
i din mean to hurt him..ytd nite.
but i was jus too tired.
din realise tt i actually have hurt him by telling nth goin on..
when actually im not feeling well.
i dun wan him to worry much for me.." nanak terlalu risau pasal ayang la.."
but still i dun wanna hear.." tapi abang have the rite to noe ayang sakit atau sihat.."
i noe he have the rite..
im down..
seriously down.

i called his home juz now. his adek answered the fone. he left oready. not for werk. but for dk. comp is nearing. haiz..

im such a paranoia..

salamz.

once again re-birth..

salamz. once again im back after much of stress n pressures.
skools starts n works uploading... been utterly in a mind freak control.
have to face n overcome a few circumstances..
dumbfounded.

niway,theres many upcoming events tt need to be updated n keep in track.
been indecisive lately. over some small little matters. pessimistic.
tidal heat wave jus hit me. hmm.. i need energy.
to stand upright..
for my own truth..
for my own rights..

well truth hurts.. tts juz life have to go.
on n on..

salamz..

salamz..

salam alaik all. hey ya. feel like updating ma bloggie. well been such a long time oready since i last update thins thing. i went online often but seldom update stuffs. apparently went online to do sth which is rather much important.

skool closing soon. so ya noe so many stuffs tt need to compile together n bind. been tiring this few days. bell was warded n i wasnt told. pity her so bad. her mum is really being so unreasonable. but i dunnoe la. i felt sinful for toking like tt bout her mom but seriously..i was being angry towards everything bell told me..pity ma besfren

the peeps goin home soon. so im leaving too at the same time la. got loads of stuffs to settle wit.

chow chin chow...

salamz..

back from blogstipation..

salamz. hey ya. mmisch all ma bunchies.

anyhoo,ive received my o level result. n yeah im cool wit it. passed my art. tot of leaving iman n go to nafa or sumtink but then mdm dun allow me to. well apparently im signing up for quranic theme at iIUM. some islamic university at wisma indah. insya allah. not ready actually to take cpt or dpt as yet. wanna change my direction to sth different which ive been longing to do.

today was another hectic day. well never a "never" hectic in iMAN maa. today was maths craft. n ca. so its chaotic to the max la. but i loike. i lurve ma kids. ive realise tt al azhar 3 kids are much creative compared to the 1 n 2. n ive realise the kids tt ive always have the mind set tt they're brilliant are'nt really were. they were more visualising n verbalising. but overall al azhar is jus fine to me..

im waiting for my bro actually. we're gonna catch a movie later. most prolly watching hitch or hide n seek. but i'll let him choose. bought for my sis a silver engrave ring over at the bits n pieces. she seems to like it though. tml after meeting im goin shopping. wanna but a jubah n some tudung, the sarung tangan, black stockings n this black covered shoes. noni n the rest kept on calling me 4U2C. alah u noe the group which sang fiona. yeah. irritating though. but nah. i dun mind at all. coz im oways confused in my sense of dressing. kebaya top,black pants n converse slack shoes. confuse to the max!

shoots. gtg. the peeps are dissappearing soon. they're goin to JB. asked me to tag along. but nah..i can go there wit ma parents in fact. i wanna go along house n sleep over. need the comp to finish up ma lesson plan. when due? hah tml!

salamz. adios.

salamz..

hey ya. droppin by juz to say a few werds to a few peeps. misch ya lotz all ma babes n hunks. well insya allah gonna meet u some other day. well to faizcomel,hanzahar,norabella,tengkufir,aizadskip n they new baby..misch ya too.

we're sure gonna hang out again. yeah again.

hmm lotsa thing tt need to be done. its rushing to the max. well..cant blame a perfectionist. wasnt saying it to myself though. im starting to blabber. well chow chin chow!!

coz i got wat it takes to put it up on stage..

salamz. hey ya peeps.

anyway tt will be my new tag line. i dunnoe got it from ma bunchies. zai gave it to me n he said i must it whenever im up on stage. well ive decided n planned tt i dun wanna perform anymore. i dun wan.

skool juz now was chaotic. totally hectic. fed up to the max. im sure ma peeps noe tt i dun like to do werk rushing and last min stuffs. jus now was very rushing. n tiring. n urrgh! damn piss off. its phonic craft n wat blew me off was the craft arrived exactly this morning. not yet paste n everything. they said tt the tamp teacher aid will paste it for us but..words no strings attached. so i was very kanchiong as tcr fizah wasnt around,attending some courses.so i have to prepare all 6 sessions. lastly i gave up. i did onie for my class n a few for cambridge. then i pass it to ust maria n let her do it.

kinda shag actually. i miss late nysham. juz now mak called me. asked me how was i doin. n say she wanna meet me. so i tink this sun meeting her lor. heard tt this sat meeting is at tamp. or. mite even be at pasir ris. mendaq to the max.

ytd irfan from harvard called me. miss him so much. he said he's cuming home coz his sis kak tijah wanna get married. so most prolly i get to meet him.

ohh shoots. i need to start doin the idea web for nx week's theme. ma family. aite. simple. hmm..wat else huh?? waiting for fee..

tml..issue out the file..circular..pal..

zai,chill aite. dun freak out. boy q too..understand me aite. ma schedule hectic. n stop telling me to quit doin stuffs..kiki lala,im gonna mizz performin wit ya..chicka bella..gonna miss ya..n to the most favourite bunchies..haziq hakim da flow.. *wink**wink*

salamz..

{ps. ive oready fall in love wit this song. dun laff! its a malay song. dun laff la!! its a song from dinodi. duno wats the title.. muz buy the album!}

salamz..back from blogstipation

salamz all. im back from blogstipation. yeah been very bz wit my werk. its oready week 4 n its my week. so anything tts got to do wit the lesson plan its got to do wit me. anyhoo im damn shag now but the enthusiasm in me keeps me wanting to update my blog.

theres so many ups n down in my life lately. yupz. ive been much sensitive nowadays. i strongly disagree when ppl said tt im strong when actually im hardly to move on. yeah werks keep me bz but apart side of me it keeps me thinking n wondering bout the unwanted n unimportant stuffs. i hate it when i have to encounter this kind of feelings. i need super one hundred percent concentration in ma career.

toking bout career. i tink im gonna carry on wit ma plans. taking dip in preskool learning-teaching. n at the same time im taking dip in quranic themes. over at the iiUM. International Islamic University of Malaysia. insya-allah. whether i can cope or not its all tawakkal. been very excited bout tings happening ard me. well i have to, to actually move on n look on the bright side of life. been kinda upset though. ohh i hardly watched tv nowadays but ytd while marking the werksheets i watched Hanyut n i saw the unexpected sumone. seraphic. he can act.

well..

been bz wit werk but oso at the same time bz juggling my time wit ma social activities. ive a hectic n topsy turvy schedule. well u cant blame the moulder of nations aite. ahakz! its been quite sum time i went out wit him. bz wit matches. n the other him. bz wit goin overseas. n another him. bz wit skools. when im bored to death n free to the max they're the one who is packo wit stuffs. hmmph..more updates..*tinking..*

ohh n i was told i wasnt allowed to contact him anymore. grool. i mean wadever. well i dun wan to tink tt im actually still "terhegeh-hegeh" wit him but nah i dun mind. but deep down in ma heart.."OUCH" ohh n remember ma homies bell,well shes too out of ma life. well tts wat she wants. she said the besfren chemistry is fading. i dun tink its fading but shes the one hu actually have jus discovered the sumone new hu is never bz. now its no more fading but its jus disappearing.

ppl jus come n go. ive lost sumone hu is very close wit me. very. nysham. he passed away. accident. motorcycle at expressway. its saddening. yupz. love was jus about to re-incarnate. jus about. we plan it,he decide its. now im all alone. wit no one to tok to. only to him i can turn to. ya allah ya tuhan..

chow chin chow. gtg beb. im still at werk for crying out loud. im hungry. so hungry. n i need to head home now. im shag. i smell like rotten apple. i need a bath. im hungry. shag. ohh bye then..

take care..
salamz..