back from hibernation..

salamz all. sowie for MIA such a long time. well cant blame a perfectionist. been so bz n my schedule is so tite. now been very bz with the reading clinic. helping the kids who cant read. n since we've been trained n obtained qualified certs, we have to conduct this clinic. im the overall in-charge with mdm julie.

jus now was hectic i tell ya. iman being iman. everything was a last minute. but still we managed to complete our task then. hmm wat was really rushing me to the core is the KidsFiesta thingy. me n mars was assigned to produce a checklist to the whole of this agenda. see how stressful is tt. not onie for wg but oso for all 4 centres. now im waiting for my dad to fetch me at skool n we're ready to set for hunting. costume rental hunting. fee maybe coming along. in all i have 4 checklist to be done n ive yet to complete at least one. after this,im goin chalet. so jobs,kept piling till i have mood to sit n settle wit it. class photo taking nx week. totally excited bout everything. n my course will start pretty soon. so ya..

i dunnoe to whom i shud express my feelings too. the depression in me. i gave all my love n trust to him n this is wat i get in return. simply said i dunnoe wat he want from me. many said ive been very stupidly patience towards him but i nvr heed their advice. n now when it already hit my own nose,then i ive realised ive been such an utterly fool. well its too late to take back my words bout me loving him so much. bout me can be patience to everyhting. bout me being able to accept wat he did to me all this while. now no more. ive had enuff wit all his nonsensical.

but then..

i kept on thinking to myself. will i regret later? coz i almost achieve wat i wanted all these while. to gain love from him. 2 yrs and ive already have the love from him. but.. how shud i say this. is it worth waiting for him? its unavoidable. its all always unplanned. its always been a sudden break out. n now this. wit him? was it merely my fault? coz from where i sit, i cant spot my mistake n flaws. was it him? who can actually ans all these qns? no one. i noe. im so depressed now.

tell ya one thing. by reading this u wont understand wat im goin thru.

to say ive move on..? maybe. looks like it la. ive been meeting n going out wit hamzah. irwan hamzah. he live juz nx block from me. n his house is visible from my house. although we rarely meet due to bz schedule,but still he is aware of the existence of hp. he made full use of it. i was touched. n i was attracted to his charming characteristic n charisma. no doubt he have the cute lookin face. but its all too early to say anything. feelings started to develop among us. this 14th august,we're goin out on a date. hope in turn out great. insya allah..

5 more mins to 3. gotta go. aite.
toodles.
salamz....

hubaiyah hubaiyah muqaddimah..

ive realised sth. but before that, salamz to all.

first n foremost. sorrie for the irregular update. apologise gazillion jazillion if u have been clicking my link for umpteenth times. time jus dont permit me to note down the facets of my life. met wit different types of peeps. throughout this whole new episodes of life.

ive discovered that,u tend to know more diff types of ppl wit diff types of needs n of coz thier own personalities. ive met diff bunchies to diff types of homies, n seriously, ive yet to see the real bunchies n homies which can really be under the same one roof wit me.

backstabbers. hypocrites. liars. unrightful behaviours are just so typical. y such things still happening? i mean ur daily life n activities is to deliver what was planned to n be the moulder of the early bloomers. but how are u supposed to fullfil that if ure behaving shitty? like an arse.
*word vomit..*

i had to end this matter. coz im gonna have more word vomit. cursing. n swearing. coz this matter is seriously killing me. its kiling me softly. all those stupid buggers out there,stop yak-yakkety-yak. come we tok face to face if u need to clarify n justify. n pls use ur common sense. n most importantly. ur brain. coz gd looks are nt helping. or another suitable term,bimbos..

u rambling hyenas are juz a bunch of schizo~!

signing out. *peace to war*

salamz

Fugue

salamz. hmm.
when my thinking ability is back in the process..
i discovered,
it's not wrong to hope. coz..

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.

and always knowing the reflections in life..

As I make my slow pilgrimage through the world, a certain sense of beautiful mystery seems
to gather and grow.

not forgetting the Friendships. coz..

The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.

well apparently the voice n the stranger within do play a part. as wat i wud like to qoute from wat Bertha von Suttner said,

After the verb "to love", "to help" is the most beautiful verb in the world.


there. been there n done it. enuff said.
think about it. try visualising if u have the ability.
action speaks louder than words.
n think before u made any conclusions.
made conclusions wit justifications.
set ur mind free.....

salamz.

Hobby ; Full time lover... Leisure ; Missing In Action (MIA)

salamz. hey back once again after such a long time of blogstipation. niways,things have been so chaotic n hectic. ive been seriously no time to go online n update this n date. been so stress up wit the TKC Roadshow. its on the next saturday. n nana n me are like bz preparing n forcing n rushing finding kids and made them dance. we've decided to dance the sway from triple noize and mahive or sth like tt ost from the hindustani movie kal ho naa ho.

mr shah wants ther performance to be in tip top condition. ar ye yg stress nye aku ngan nana nak suruh budak2 tu joget la,bergerak la,goyang la,pusing la.. we're trying our very best. the roadshow is on the 9 july. its on saturday. so for those who miz me like hell n cant wait to meet me, do come down to the roadshow. un'malu'ation..

shag. stress. caught up. pissed.

memoranda metafora.

i miz my syg.

hubaiyah hubaiyah muqaddimah.

'die die u must finish it~!'

salamz.

Venue: Bedok Corner
Time: 9.30 pm
Story: Mat Motor kental to the max!

Mat Motor: Assalammualaikum saudari. Hie..
Myself.......: (in blur tone) Err waalaikumsalam. (mat mintak derma eh..?holding my wallet oready..)
Mat Motor: Tak. saya bukan nak mintak derma. nama saya Zulfikar. nama awak?
Myself.......: (wit blur face) Nurul. eh wat is this..? (masih blur lagi ni makanya..)
Mat Motor: boleh kenal2? ade no.?
Myself.......: alamak~! kenal2? sowie not interested.
Mat Motor: takkan tak leh kenal2. bukannya da tunang kan..? (in a very musibat malay slang!)
Myself.......: seriously not interested. (step garuk2 pipi sambil menunjukkan cincin yg 'ter'sarung kat jari manis.)
Mat Motor: ohh sorry my bad..anyway awak sweet. (walk off. disappointed..)
Myself.......: ohh thanks ya.
Kawan2 Mat motor: Begini la nasib diri ku yang malang,ohh tuhan. ikan pari tak masuk perangkap~! hahahahahahahaahah!

the whole of bedok corner can hear them. nvr interested wit such thing.
niways,sorrie MIA for such a long time. utterly bz n things been in topsy-turvy lately.

i'm back~!

salamz all. geez. im back from pahang. reached home at 9.30pm. took cab from the wdld checkpoint together wir ryhana n fee.

overall the holiday was fun. from horror walk to nature walk. the pukat ikan activity was a new experience. goin to pasar rompin was fun bargaining stuffs. the dinner was awesome. everyone dress up beautifully. a big transformation to some of the teachers n ustazahs mostly.. amal was real gorgeous tt nite. well the make up was normal as she always put on make up but the way she present herself was superb.

i wore simple. a long dress wit mini veil n the sunglass juz to suit wit the theme. was fun altho everything was held back coz the whole of pahang was black out. so no jungle war game n the dinner ended at 1 am. was fun though.

too many to mention actually. overall we had so much fun. gain lots n new experience. learn more of team buiding n spirit n the brainstorming was interactive though. still on holiday mood ya..

salamz.

Full-Time Slacking..

salamz ya'll. today i did mothing much. ma lesbos all are werking n attending courses. me? stuck at home n do chores, chores n more chores. n since taboo slept over,so movie marathon was on the list. from spongebob the movie to catwoman to S.W.A.T to Meet the Fockers. im lucky that i have onlie 1 younger cousin. drop dead layan this kiddo..

went online since 8.30 juz now. was kinda shock when a pop up form email saying a new blog announcement from -wite bear- take a close look at the pic, n i guffawed. geez. i told u told me u wanna close ya frenster account. n now look u even came out wit a new name,and even got for urself a blog. hmm new pics summore huh..

da maju anak umi..

so went through n looked ard. hmm. still under construction though. i really have no idea wat so difficult for him to put his real status. y huh? well okie im not being such a paranoia but plz..theres always a limitations to it. i had enuff said bout it.

this sat im goin off to pahang. staff retreat. more like staff mis-treat to me. the itinerary suckz. n gez wat,although we're better known as young adult,n the moulder of the nation,our sitting in the bus is planned by the admin. they will tell where n wit hu u're supposed to sit wit. so get wat i mean...? its pathetic. no. ridiculous. nah. nah. erm..wts tt call? cant remember, will note it down once i rmb.

k bebs. loggin off soon to do much better stuffs. my heart sores real bad now. off for now.

salamz...