to blog meaning to release tension

huh. but no i dun tink im tension rite now. well apparently rite now im not in a mood to finish up my playgroup lesson plan week 4. n i have my tree of fame n teachers info board still waiting for me. it was given to me a few hrs ago n the due is tmrw. so yeah. tmrw then i'll start doin it. well i hate repeating this but then, u cant simply rush a perfectionist.

i have mothers day n SLC craft to submit. soon i guess. ouh n not forgetting the report book remarks. n ya the one tt they are chasing for is tt assembly slides for term 3 week 3. due by week 4. n apart from this busy-ness, i havent start practicing my still life drawing n painting. design im not really worried as tt paper was the most easy. n ive yet to buy my literature text n IRK book. so many pending yet so little time.

can i just vanish?

the bunchies moon suddenly called me n asked if im free this sat. too bad im not. im working. then i have to rush to nuran's wedding. cant wait for it actually. then maybe, just maybe, i wanna mit my Along n Abah. need to discuss some matter. n insya allah, meeting Bell. so its kinda hectic. they said they're having gathering at tunnel. there i am, talking to moon, in the bus, heading towards home from work, talking 'bout tunnel. tt matrip beside me was looking at me one kind. i din realise tt he actually was looking at me in awe. realised when i took a glance at him. when he saw me looking at him, he jz looked away n say out loud, 'tunnel sia!'

so? cannot go is it? u tink the tunnel tt im talking about is tt tunnel is it? pergh! but i ignored him anyway. underage guys arent suppose to be entertain. n so we continued the conversation. i begged him to change the venue. coz i dun wanna step into there anymore. scared tt i mite bump into him like last time. i had enuff. n also scared tt i mite get addicted to it. n so we agreed. to meet up at al-falah.

hehe kiddin' la. we decided to meet up at sheikh's place. since his mom kept on asking bout me, n so ya la we're goin to sheikh's. the whole of bunchies coming. bt too bad la fik not joining. he said he got sth on which we're not told. but i cant confirm wit them yet coz i mite be dead n cold n buried by the time i meet them. after the wedding n just IF i meet bell, im gonna be totally shag. drain.

ouh well..

tmr im goin geylang wit ibu. wanna buy shoe n do lil shopping. wanna treat her at Di Tanjong Katong. if she wants la. jz hope she dun choose at haig rd or sth la. i dun even noe if haig rd still exist.

i was pondering over some stuffs which sets me to think. n i was gob-smacked. wish not to elaborate anything further. ouh n ya. i broke my promise to fee. sowie gerlfren. at first i asked for her opinion if i shud msg n wish him his 21st b'day but she told me to forget it. dun even try to think bout it. but i did it. i msg-ed him at the very last hour. 5 minutes before 10 pm if im not mistaken. hehekz. i was just tempted to do it la. then after a few minute, he asked who is this. n i simply ignore it. coz the main reason was tt, to wish him bday n tts all. n i did.

my arm still hurt from the accident i had a few days ago. nth really serious tho. jz minor bumps n scratch. im loosing my power. toodles for now.

rmb, dun do drugs. peace to war. \w/

everything is so unpleasent this few days.
n its very very demoralising.

im back.. *yawn*

n im still tired lor. cant start doin anything seh. too tired.

ok ok. a few approached i got when i reached the entrance of the mosque. apart from osman welcoming me n introduce me to the chickas. oopps. to the beliawanis.

" eh u look very familiar eh? do we noe each other?"

"u the one budak madrasah kat sini kan dulu. the one hu never tok."

"eh hie. at last we got to meet kan. kalau tak we're onie in each other friendster list of frens je eh."

"eh u look soooo tired. come have a sit. come i take for u the drinks. eh come i bring u to where we shud keep ur bag pack. eh come solat maghrib. eh come la this..come la that..."

n the most which i seriously cannot tahan is....

"huda, how long u n osman da kawan eh? rapat ngan die? mcm maner bleh rapat? kenapa sampai boleh jadi besfren? ouh abih penah klua ngan die? sape suruh dtg sini eh? osman ke? masih contact eh ngan osman? eh u kenal kan ex osman yg nama ni, ni, ni, tu, tu, tu? osman die gini gini gini kan? die mmg gitu, gitu, gitu."

EH ALAMAK. I SERIOUSLY CANT STAND HER!.

i knew her very long time la. she ever approached me last time at frenster n asked me the same thing all 'bout osman. n at tt time, i n him baru baru nak close la. she bombared me wit so many qns seh. smp kan osman tlg settle kan. abih ni lagi. osman jz told me to ignore. n ya i did.

ni mesti kes berkenan ngan osman. hahahaha!

kk overall tt thing was EUREKA! it was nicely done altho theres hassle here n there. but everything went perfectly smoothly. no doubt the tiredness is unbearable la. n i looked very very very pale k. the moment i reached home, my mom was so shocked to see me so white n puffy n sleepy n errrggh! ugly!

k back from MIA.
well wasnt really MIA. but things are just really gettin tied up. my schedule this weekend can strangle me to death. ytd apparently i went to the briefing coz my very besfren osman made me go to the briefing. it sounded really important. lucky my dad wasnt working so i made him drive me all the way to en-naeem. my used-to-be madrasah back then. it was like half way collapsing i tell u. since the day i left en-naeem, till now theres no big changes.

we had the briefing in one of the many containers. met some old folks but there were'nt really any interactions tho. onie a few rmb me by the camp a few yrs ago. peeps like the huzaifah n ramdan n shahrizam noes n rmb me. surprisingly sambri my pri skool mate was there too. hes one of the geek wit the bike la. no doubt osman oso la. so i was told tt im the station master. n will be at esplanade. wit a few other chicks n geeks. k this thing actually like the ala ala amazing race liddat la. from one area travel wit bicycle to certain part. from eastern to the northen. fort canning la. hong lim park la. malay village la. muis la. tt kind of thing la. n this activity happens at friday nite. cool aye?

cool habis..

ppl like me wont get a wink to sleep k. rite after the curriculum presentation, i have to straight away report to en-naeem, n get ready for the opening event @9.30pm. the 'intifada' group will do the opening. nama nak step style eh. these are the the geeks wit the bikes. well they arent really a geek la. hehekz. so hit straight to patillas. after the opening thingy, we the station masters will be driven all the way to our own stations n get ready to it. n we approximately target tt by the time reach my station, it wud be roughly at 3 am liddat. AM k.

so can imangine la eh on sat i report to work wit shagged puffy looking face. tt is so not gonna work man.. last group roughly we target wud be 7. n i tink by tt i'll b rushing to work lor. i dunnoe if i cud make it or not. insya allah la eh. haiyah. ni semua osman nyer pasal la. kesian kan kawan BAIK pe pasal...

ouh n i misses jepp so much. altho last mon i met him. i made him asked for halfday from his work so i cud meet him n had movie marathon. coolness! watched all those movies. wahahah! but the thing tt i dun like watching movies wit him is tt, not him comforting me from the coldness, but me have to comfort him. die cepat sejuk la beb! haiyah. syg tunang nye pasal. oopps! bakal tunang nye pasal...

wahahahah! there me go blabber bout tt shit again. haiyah!! n ive jz received an email from hyrul anuar! HAHAHAHAHH coolness! k shuddup to those who called or labelled him kepit ke ape ke. i dun give a damn. for all i care im happy he emailed me. wat izzit about??

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS LA WEI!!

heheks. kk taking care. i have to do my lesson plan la. totally crapness~

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salamz.

olaz olaz olaz! back from holiday liao.
yeah. i cant find the entry when i talked about this trip we're heading to. but nah im back.
we went to batu layar. its a kampong resort kinda thing. n this is a really really the ol' kampung days okie. no tv. no aircon. jz plain fain. the bathroom, my goodness. i cant stand it. a water-closet wit no flush. jz a plain tap wit no hose. a big bucket wit very very small container for u to collect the water. frankly speaking i cant survive. not tt im not adventurous or the 'ngada-ngada' type. but the truth is i need a very good bathroom k. if bathroom not okie,everything will be a totally turn off.

i'll be like dragging myself when thinking bout taking the bath. wondering how my hair gonna be this n that.. then the light sooo dimmer.. n u noe wat i did? i pull the bucket one side n i sat rite under the tap. full blast! n there.. heaven..

its jz a small room. this trip was like a survivor kinda thing la. its a company thingy, so no objections from my folks la. which i noe for sure they dun really like the idea of staying at tt resort. n i tot tt the weather in s'pore was super dooper hot, but the weather there was very very n super dooper hell-of-a scorching hot. it felt like tearing n skin u alive. tt bad eh.. yes. seriously speaking. fee, i tink if ure there, u will get migraine. coz i myself was crying trying to survive from my headache. super hot la. i removed my hijjab n put on the feecoyid cap n shades. 24/7. each time i cant stand the heat, i'll rush to the toilet n wash my head.

when it s getting darker, the 4 of us headed to the sea. it was a beautiful sight. an eye pleasure. the rocks, the water was super fine. n yeah wordless to desrcibe it. the corals was beautiful. n theres plenty baby sharks swimming as it was near to the south china sea. each time my dad's colleque went fishing, they will sure to bring home baby sharks.

overall the trip was fun. adventurous. survivor. live on barbecued food. okie la. once in a while. im craving for a perfect holiday treat.. not re-treat but treat.

will post the pic once its uploaded.
as for now, toodles chickas.

p.s. fee, tt guy ar msg me n asked if i will accept his apology. the thing is he ask a qn. not asking for an apology. then now he suka mana suka msg me like he used to. din ask for an apology also. such person eh..

salamz.

took loads of pics jz now. dunnoe y this few days im in a mood to be a cam whore.

heres one of the pic taken wit amzar. such a cute lil boy. hes from al-azhar. gf fee's class. cute aint he? he juz suddenly lean against me when i held up the camera.

i was actually pissed wit him. u noe hu la eh fee. i was gob-smacked by the way he sms-ed me. wahliao. cant really accept the fact to the way he sms me. he was like provoking me. very harsh indeed. i was like totally lost for words. early morning, woke up to such a terrible msg by him.

i tot we cud be like tt best of frens forever n ever. but it seems tt hes always confuse wit his own damn feelings, till like he doesnt noe the real feelings tt hes having. tt is so so difficult. super surreal difficult. i jz couldnt bear to accept the fact tt we arent frens anymore. i noe ego had engulfed me when he said tt i can jz forget bout him n i said fine whatever. i din made the effort to actually save our frenship. but maybe its because tt im jz too tired to do anything. coz all this while, our frenships have always been like in a confuse state. n i myself do not noe how to react to the situations tt im in.

he showed signs tt hes into me. but i dunnoe la wit his feelings. i seriously dunnoe wat he is confusing about. tt is like so not him. he lied to me anyway. so tts just off the limit.

anyhoos, im done wit my craft and also learning point. teehee!