i miss blogging properly. but the fact that i dun have the real motive to update n that kills me from updating. wat da.

niways, dee's birthday coming soon. well, childrens day is much sooner. n ive yet to get anything for my little ones.. damn. me n lin totally dun have the diea on wat to buy for them. majority got for theirs a bookmark. then us? still thinking beb. but time is running out.

eh i dun understand ar wats up wit her. hate her so much. i mean, i noe its not rite la say such thing, but thinking bout her is killing me lor. ive been keeping this all to myself, without even showing signs or anything, but still, i hate her alot. n i dun care if someone is getting really sores in the heart.

astaughfirullah..

maybe u think wat ive said jz now was truly rude, well wat she did to me was worse ok. im so down to the core.

to fasha,

ey pompan, selama ni, aku sabar je tau ngan kau. ok fine, kau nak klua ngan die, aku tk penah halang sbb aku tau aku ngan die takde tali ikatan, tapi kalau da dapat klua, jgn nak buat perangai, nk buat hal plak la eh. maner la prinsip kau yg kau penah agung2 kan sangat. eh pompan, aku tau, selama ni kau simpan dendam kat aku kan. tapi, knp ngan die kau nk balas dendam? masalahnya aper? grow up cket la..

ni la masalahnya kalau org ni da diibaratkan KATAK BAWAH TEMPURUNG!

go n get a life.

n fyi, die tk percaya kau langsung. tu sbb berita ni bleh smp kat aku. skg satu geng da tau kau pe busuk pe cite k. haram!

nasib ko mmg baik la ey..skg ni bulan puasa. ngan kau, aku da takde masa nk bobal sopan k. orang mcm kau tk patot dilayan baik2. patot la. skg baru aku tau sape nyer keje selama nie. musibot! ko world sana, world sini, skg kite semua tau kau yang world.

pi duduk blakang aisbok main pakau ngan kaki2 kau la wei. ko tk layak nk join ngan kitorang la!. tak sedar diri!

pegi taubat la!

*istighfar comot..istighfar..*

astaghfirullah hal'azim..

2 years ago.. it was him, fique..






now its him.. Hady Mirza.



Congrats to him.

Happie Fasting! Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan!

i miss blogging. but i dun feel like to. how neh?

i wanna tell u guys sth. but i wasnt allow to.

ouh. jz now spore idol. i voted for hady 10 times already.

i rmb i din vote for fique. huhu.

i tink im gonna sms 2 to 43657 again.

ya.

Oldie Oldie Pics!!

we start wif this la k. i was browsing some pictures in my email. then i came across a few pics n tt gave me the idea wat to blog for today. hehe. ahh this is us. used to do almost everything together. ahh we are the sec 5 peeps. back in 2003. theres, desmond, sugiharta,alex n shah. n the usual gerlfrens. taken on dee's 17th bday. there are a few outsiders tho.

theres ilmy, n two of his frens, jai n hamza. ouh n another guy, samir. dee's pri skool mate.

ahh this one was taken at pasir ris beach. celebrating dee's 17th bday. hehe. she smelled like cow tt time coz i sprayed whipped cream at her. eeeee busyuk bye olang! haha. the one in green is endang. next is me. hehe. enuff said la bout me. the one in the center, confused look-a-like, is dee, bday gerl. another white one is diana. n next to her is dayak. we r best of friends.

ok this is taken during my graduation nite 2003. hehe. can spot me? of cos la kan. im the onie one that went to prom wit tudung. hehe. i was still wit azmy when im attending this function. onie 29 days old. hehe classic rite. okie okie back to the pic. im in between rahman n my fav all time bro, shah. okie, from the background of the pic, thats rozlina and sanah. i tink so la tts the name. eeek! apologise ya if i got it wrong. then the second row, start wit the yellow shirt guy, this one oso i dunnoe wats his name. hes an indonesian guy. from an express stream. ouh ya forgot to mention, all of them are the express stream sec 4 children. onie the five of us, me, dee, diana, dayak n shah the sec fivers.k back to the intorduing part. after the yellow guy, tts hafiz. ahh this red guy here is the most cutest malay guy for the sec 4 batch. his name is taufik. heard tt he have his own band. n he graduted from some JC. not sure which JC is tt. next to him is imran. very quiet n geeky.

next row, which is my row, the one in blue, tts hakim. tt time not cute. now, hes super dooper charming. no idea wat hes doin now also. next to him is rahman, a very kecoh guy. n me. the very quiet one. shes a teacher rite now. ahaha n next to him is shah. he graduated from Thames already for adv dip in mass comm if im not mistaken. now the front row. another red guy, his name is nazrul. ya if im not mistaken la kan. whoa! i used to admire him seh. i mean tt was last time la. heard that now hes in police force. graduated from JC also. but not sure which one. next to him is dayak. shes now in..eh! i forgot. NAFA or La Salle eh? but no worries la. watever it is shes doin great now. next is dee. shes in NYP doin her final yr. a great companion. all the best to u ya dee. n nx to her is diana. shes in ite college simei doin logistic. shes doin absolutely a-ok now. all the best wit ya relationship ya. hehe.

ahh this pic was taken also during the prom nite 2003 held at Grassroot Club @ Yio Chu Kang. at tt period of time, i tink la kan, everyone heart him. of coz la when this pic was taken, he looked so kental. but take a look at my frenster, n search for lord hafiz or sth like dat. see how cool he is rite now. i dun really noe wat hes doin rite now. frankly speaking, this picture was the last time tt i get to interact wit him. im very shy shy wit him. took this pic also for the sake of everyone took the pic wit him n i dun wanna be left out. hehe. ouh ya. his name is Md Hafiz.

hmm a sec sch fren of mine, dee juxtapose all the pictures of me that she can find in her computer and produce this magnificent collage. she gave me for my 18th bday. tt was years ago seh. we went to beach rd then head to bugis after that. celebrate it wit alex. coz im on the 1st n alex on the 8th. alex is tt chinese guy there, the one wit cap. i used to be his second wife back at mfss. graduating soon, n so he came up wit stupid but funny-cum-rojak family tree. dee was his daughter, an end product btwn him n endang. his ferst wife. n me, if im not mistaken have a very handsome son. everyone heart him alot. too bad i dun have his pic. hehe. sec sch life. so great n wonderful..

so tts the end of the oldie oldie segment. haha. eventho its onie a few. its enuff for me to made me smile in times when im sad now.

:(

someone wrote bout me. sweet stuffs n a lil confession. damn. how come i dunnoe tt he actually have bloggies eh?

this is wat he wrote..

she was indeed such a beautiful gerl that ive ever met. no doubt she was the first person to approached me at the library while having a sharing session. i was puzzled at that period point of time.

her smile. her eyes. are all beautiful. so captivating. i fell for her. but shh i wont be telling her. shes cute. shes got very contagious laughter. shes got a very sweet soft dimple. she can be very quiet. n shes very emotional.

i love emotional gerl. aniway, this gerl here is a yr younger than me but she looked matured for her own age. shes a teacher now n i love her to bit.

yul, i noe u wont be reading my entry. but i still have to penned wat ive been longing to say n have been keeping it to myself.

i heart u a lot.

too bad la tt i read it. n it so happened tt im meeting him this weekend. ohh my. how shud i react eh??

i think i have to learn to love myself. yeah. i mean ytd i had a conversation with my buddy osman. it was fun. i was asking him a few qns. since we've been friends for like more than 6 or 7 years. i asked him wat he think bout me.. he gave a really gob-smacked ans i told u. left me in awe..

9/9/2006		10:58:24 PM		(*)(Z) §µPër ÐððPër (Z)(*)		|(brb)| مفتاه الإذن الله |(brb)|		me tak pandai to read from the pic..
9/9/2006		10:58:44 PM		(*)(Z) §µPër ÐððPër (Z)(*)		|(brb)| مفتاه الإذن الله |(brb)|		but as far as i knw from u
9/9/2006		10:59:04 PM		(*)(Z) §µPër ÐððPër (Z)(*)		|(brb)| مفتاه الإذن الله |(brb)|		in summarise and pendek.. u have one beatiful soul dat i have ever met b4 :)

hehe tu la besfren ku si osman. touching eh. i felt like screaming when he said tt. at least theres someone who can see the real pure me.

*faints*

salamz loyalties..time to grab your attentions!

well not really.

i have many things to update stuffs and all but i jz couldnt find the right time to do it. im wondering to myself is it already the right timing? n apparently i constantly remind myself that i need not worry bout anything as onie the loyalties have the passwords to read the entries. in which i doubt the loyalties will read my entry regularly as its rather leceh u noe wat i mean? each time they have to drop by or wants to return to my page, they have to type the password. but i better play safe rather than gettin on my nerve each time i have intruders..

okie so beat on tt. aint touching on tt nimore. hmmm. now im actually kinda happy when things starting to settling down n all. its all good ya noe. but i cant really wanna comment more on it. coz some of the very concern ppl advised me to wait till the time is here. so we shall wait till the time is here n i'll burst out the ooogey juiceeey stowie. u noe wat im saying? teeeheee.

chatted wit oldskool mate, diana. tt one craziee gerl. non-stop laughing. updating each other wit stuffs. u noe BGR, work. skool. study. fashion. future. past. frens. all sorts. anything under the sun i must say. it's nice u noe once in a blue moon u call one of the oldskool to have a chit chat wit them. its like reminising the good ol' days. ya tts wat im trying to say.

niways tmr sucks. i have to work on sun shift. if u happen to browse thru one of those days berita harian, im sure uve looked thru the advertisement on iMAN's open house. yeah we're having open house for the 2007 intake. n luck is totally not on my side, i was shoved to sun shift. well supposedly to be today but, rozita decided to do hers today, so i was pushed once again to the sun shift. this is so ugly.

can i like make a confession? im so damn broke! n its onie the 10th? DAAAMMN! u see theres so many unfinished stuffs tt im settling wit. nah mostly its the upcoming event. aiyah hari raya kinda thing la. fret not, when the time comes, i dun really have to worry bout it anymore. but ya la the thing is im like scraping for money seh now. now ive yet to think bout wat i wanna get for those little lovelies on their children's day. unfortunately, this yr childrens day falls on the 4th or 5th day of ramadhan. so ya la. nth big tho. but still, i have to get them sth.

wat eh?