im having the whole house all to myself! woohoooo!

they went JB for shopping spree. and im getting my adidas watch green one this weekend. tt is all im buying for myself. i paid the bills and bro shoes is still pending. and i tink i need a few pants and kurta. i had enuff of wardrobe malfunction.

niways, im counting the minutes to the dancefloor. and currently nutting to blog about.

i miss My Love.

and Baby Yadh (fayyadh) is getting scary and scary~!!!

HELPPPP!!!!!

okie im on 2 days mc. rmb rite i complained that my cough is getting from bad to worse? ya apparently its worse than ever. i can vomit blood coughing to it (but i din la..) and so i was send to the nearest clinic on friday morning. i was hit with very bad diarrhoea and migrain plus that cough la. lucky it wasnt asthma attack. not yet i tink. teehee!

niways, weird thing started to happen in my class oready. and i shall not story on dat. it really sent down the chill on my spine and my hair on the neck is oways standing on its end. its eerie i tell u. but i dun wanna tell anyone as yet. esp to the preggie mummy. i dun wanna get her into the shockest time of her life.

niways, my love msg me at 3am saying tt he just reached hm from werk. hes being extra hardworking by volunteering to do plainclothes duty. and i really really hope he can make it to PCG or at least to the land division. if not hes gonna be a sad sad boyfie.

we need your prayers ppl. pls. thanks.

niways i just got to noe this very lame young guy la. hes more of a psycho-slenge-cute guy. hes a year junior and waiting for his entrance at ite tamp. previously was from new town sec and ite yishun. ive just met him ytd and he asked me to be his gf. ytd also. mepek kan this guy? so me being very playful, i playfully accepted him..

hehehe! i noe im bad. but deep deep down in my heart, its gonna be oways my love my love my love. niways my love knew bout this, n he laugh about it. he said this young dude here is despo. takper kite layan kan je he said. n he said.."saper la sanggup layan u..kerenah u. me ajer la yang sanggup sesungguhnya~! nanti conferm die tak sabar ngan u nyer..percaya la cakap me ni.."

haha i bet on that too. aku nak tgk larat ke tak budak ni layan aku. siap la aku mulakan kerenah bodoh aku.

bak kata pepatah fee, " scandal biar ramai, kekasih tetap satu je.."

woooohoooo!

tapi aku rasa serba salah. jahat kan aku nie? hehehe!

today lack of manpower again. and my cough is getting worse and worse as days goes by. now u tell me when is it my turn? to have my beauty rest. and to regain my beauty energy so i can be a beauty once again?

*smacks forehead*

so today monday. ya. and we're going to west coast for a picnic! yippee!

*hops around!*

and apparently, in my mind ive been planning what we can do there. initially i tot maybe we can have a rolling good time wit balls. so yeah, tts part of the plan. another one thing is to bring my ohh-soo-expensive binoculars to let my children experience using the real matrix-look-alike binoculars. so at least sth la kan..

*teeheeeheee!*

and lesbo fee just left the house. we spend hours and hours of editing, arranging, choosing and deleting Mr Sabiq's photos. since hes turning 22 tmr, we search and fit in 22 pictures. brilliant aye? haha. and it turn voila!

all those hardworks, all those back aches, all those eye squinting and all those unremorseful remarks (hehehe!), i hope he likes it. i hope FEE likes it.

niways, i wanna hit the bed anytime sooner. coz i cant afford to stay up awake now. im soooo tired now. and i cant wait for tmr gol and gincu @ suria. i wanna have a bf like him. can my love be like him?

*shhhhhh...*

onie god noes....

thank god it's friday today. seriously. no joke. i dunnoe but this week was sooo hectic and chaotic to the max. maybe its because of lacking of manpower, and so theres a bit re-shuffle here and there. and apparently, since my class was like more of the extra hand, its oways been my class that willingly volunteer to relief the class. well, tts norm.

the principal knew that im quitting soon. she asked the sister but all the sister can do was jus shrug her shoulder. then the principal was like denying the fact when actually she noes tts the truth. she complained it to her instead. and what more rite she can do? she suggested just to start searching for new teachers. and the principal claimed that she cant afford to stop us anymore as she said she knew she wont able to succeed if she were to do it, n we cant really stand working under her. tt is total crapness k. i dun agree wit that.

reason i wanna quit is because of me wanting to continue studying. its just that i tink i had enuff rest from studying and now im ready to go back to skool.

well enuff said bout this. i dun wanna be ranting bout things which have yet to have the possibility if its happening or not.

now, the real entry.

ive actually been damn freaking furious with the bestie osman. u noe wat? i gt really sick and tired wit him. the gf knew how i felt all this while after wat had happened to her recently. coz wat really happened to her was the exact thing tt i wanted her to feel, realising how difficult it is for me to accept the whole senarios and the whole of the everything. wat i hate bout him is, if he have problem with that gerl, he came crawling complaining to me and the gf, when he and that gerl is doin fine and a-ok, all he claimed was miscommunication.

go to hell with miscommunication!

well im not being emotional or anything la but then ar, to make it simple and straight, let me say like this la, "bila susah ingat aku, bila da senang aku kau ketepikan."

merepek kan?

not onie me la realise this but the gf also said the same ting. recently, wen he needed my help in launching the syabab and the logo thingy, he came to me asking help to paint that thing on fabric. at first he promised that things will be provided and he will deliver it to my doorstep. frankly speaking, i was super dooper busy as skool is opening anytime sooner at that period point of time. but thinkin that it was my besfren who is the one that asking the help, i made the sacrifice. the event was on sat. he confirm everything to me on fri morning. freak rite? i told u it was suicidal. and hes making i dunnoe if its a reason or not that, he cant provide me with the things as he dunnoe which is which. tts vaguely crapness. ive said early one week in advance, just buy any acrylic paint as long as its not classroom acrylic. i advice him not to use fabric but replace it with mahjong paper.

and he gave me shit by telling me that, he cant provide all those. reasons, he dunnoe if its suitable wit things. he said, (read:SAID) he will gantikan all the stuffs after once its done. k so me being baik hati, i told him that i will provide him the mahjong paper, acrylic paint and brushers. i was damn freaking lost wen all the colours that needed for the logo thing finished. it was madness i tell u. n i cant be buying onie a tube of each colour needed as it was freaking expensive to the max. bt im lucky mai is just a few storeys down, i used some of her colours then. tts a lot of sacrifice. theres more sacrifice in fact, i reached home on tt fri nite very late. n my parents were getting ready for their holiday at penang. i started doing it at 10 and manage to finish it and frame it all by 3 am! take note that i have skool orientation on the next freaking day! so imagine how i looked like on tt very morning. i meet all the parent with droopy eyes.

tts a sacrifice i made for him ya noe! i brought tt ting to skool. he said he cant meet me, so the gf meet me instead to fetch tt thing. i miss the gf.

and now wat exactly happened? ouh, theres a retreat to tt thing. a chalet cum bbq kinda thing. n guess wat? i wasnt invited seh! and wat? i wasnt involve u said? then the painting? who make it happen? who the gerl that din sleep n finish tt thing? who the gerl that came knocking on mai's door asking for paint? whos the gerl that goes to skool with droopy eyes and that heavy thing, took taxi cz was late for the skool event??

who who who????????!

i m freaking mad!!!!!!!!!!

tu sbb ku cakap, bila nak mintak tolong aku, sanggup datang rumah aku, hantar frame, bobal ngan aku baik2. bile benda tu da siap, member lupa aku. tak cakap thanks pun. mmg la sblom benda tu siap member da thanks pegi thanks balik. tapi bila da siap, member hilang. melampau kan???

k dgr2, that gerl did told the gf to invite me.

ape? bila mintak tlg, pandai merayu sms aku, bih bila nak jemput retreat, main passing2 msg kepe? and member sindir kat the gf tau like as tho mengejek..

" eh gerl, kau jangan lupa tau jemput SI HUDA tu. ingat tau, SI HUDA KAWAN KAU TU!"

macam sial kan? hah kan da cakap. nak ajer aku maki musibat!

im really angry ar. wit him smp skg menghilang dunnoe where to. wit tt gerl who is behaving super surreal immature. onie the gf knoe how i exactly felt. and for all i care, i dun lose anything. n tak menyesal pun tak pegi.

macam sial.

on the way to skool this morning was accompanied by panic!at the the disco song. i write sins and not tragedies. i was physically nodding to it. cant dance to it as i dun wan stares from ppl. early in the morning summore. so i was all quiet but smilling to myself, recalled wat happened the day before.

ytd after work, met my love. it was a last minute plan. it wasnt really planned. he told me thru text that he wanna go to isrida at woodlands to buy tie some time ago. and apparently, wen he told me that, i was at the causeway point and i decided to check the stuff for him. but sadly, isrida causeway dun sell tt thing. they were more of brooches and hair clips and accesories. so me being concerned towards my love, me n mai decided to browse at metro at the gent's apparel. n we did saw a few tt caught our attentions.

so i msged him. told him all the detail price. n sadly he said its over the budget. tt thing stopped and we moved the conversation to other thing in fact. and so ytd morning, while hes doin his nite shift duty, he accompanied me while im on the way to skool. n he suddenly popped up the meeting qn. he ask if im free and he decided to meet me after work. i was literally jumping for joy rite infront of everyone. i tell u its very difficult and leceh to date someone who works shift. and it happen to be that my love work in shift, so it will onie happen once in a blue moon. and apparently ytd, was his first nite off, so he gt the time to meet me.

it was total yayness! and i love every time and every moment we had spent.

and the part that i hate most was when we have to go on seperate ways. he send me off n bid goodbye. im my heart im asking, when will we get to meet again.

i will miss u, my love.

" I will wait for the day, when it's just us. till the sun comes up, till death do us part. Now I am stronger than I was before, because of you.. I feel so alive and I'm wanting more. I can't believe it's true, as your my perfect joy. This is truly all because of you.."

his song is playin in my head all day long and ive been humming to it. y? coz i tink i miss him. or apparently his voice? heh. onie me myself and i noe.

to you fique, i miss u.

(awww!)

okie hit it straight to patillas. after werk, we invade causeway pt. we as in me n mai la. she is totally a big spender. she bought things without thinking. she tinks she likes it, she grab it and head to the cashier. i was like being her doggie tag her everywhere she went. and at the same time, we went for scruffy bear hunting. and i bought for my class kiddo a marshmellow cushion. u noe the cushion which felt so soft, and u feel like squeezing it and squeeze them hard? its like selling hot cakes. mine wasnt really a specific animal, i chose the same creature of different colours and now im draining my ideas to create a name for each of softies.

well literally they look like penguin. its just that i bought them blue, purple lilac and black with yellow beak respectively. its damn soft soft soft. n im just loving it.

after all the hunting, we headed to swensens. she gave me a treat. i tell u shes one loaded woman k. a big spender and its just that shes not a moneymaker. if shes one, shes gonna be super dooper big, Big, BIg, BIG spender. in the swensens, i ordered topless 5. goin crayziieee with butterscotch and sticky chewy chocolate. she wanted the strawberry berry sth sth. but they're out of stock for the berries, so she ordered cookie summit instead. and we ordered fries to come along with it.

we talked almost about everything under the soon. well, ( roof actually!) we hoped that fee could tag us along but remembering what she said ytd, tt shes meeting biq after her curriculum meeting, and realising tt its the 13th, i told mai tt its thier anniversary today. n since ive said it, i have to say it out all for now..

HAPPIE ANNIVERSARY TO YOU LESBO AND PARTNER! yang ke berapa eh? i oso lost count for now.

niways, always in a happie happie mood mood ya u guys. work hard. krg tu da nak kahwin, mesti la nak kena keje keras. wakaka!

now, back to english.

reached home at 5 and hit the bed. so tiring that i slept till 8. totally passed the time for asar and magrib. when i woke up, ibu was in the kitchen, so as to avoid any eye contact and not wanting to pro long the ever-ohh-so-masam look on her face, i did my prayers. and off to do the dishes. shes still ohh-soo-masam face up till now. i dunnoe wats with her. she asked me if i noe where the sister went.

this one. i dunnoe wat to say. its like as tho shes the onie one is in a lovey dovey period. and i can bet wit u, he gonna come in when he send her home.

(da antar tu sudah la, lagi nak masuk!)

so the uncle ohh-so-loving from washington asked, when i wanna settle down. i dun have to answer that. ibu answered for me. she told them, "kakak masih nak blaja, tu sbb blom ader yang sesuai. kawan die tu ramai sgt, skejap yang ini, skejap yang itu.."

and guess wat my ohh-soo-loving twin uncle in which im much close with, "waa, beb, u become player ar now..?"

me player? heh. he dunnoe tt im actually battling for the victory of love. now im just focusing on my kids and the NAFA-NIE Dip In Art (Teaching) thingy. and not forgetting him. Jay la i mean. heh. niways, its kinda lengthy, i have to go for now. this thing wont end if i dun put a stop to it. i need to work on the slides and the scruffy template tmr. im out.

get.

sumpah i tell u!

sumpah i tell u i gt no time anymore to blog!

sumpah i tell u its penat giler this week. hectic to the max!

sumpah i tell u all i think now is HIM HIM HIM!

sumpah i tell u now that im im doing very fine with my new resolutions. now this is a positive one aite.

sumpah i tell u i wanna blog but im jus feeling plain lazy~!

sumpah i tell u sometimes im head over heels when think about it!

sumpah sumpah sumpah! aku penat nak mampoz.

nak blog tapi malas~

sumpah~~!