introduce my latest heartthrob parappapapap love. cute nak mampoz kan? haha. i love him so much ok. his name? haris mirza. haiyah cute la.

and i have announcement to make, my love shims, is the most disgusting gf ive ever had. she caught 3 snails and put it in my class for my kids observation studies. it is soooo effing disgusting la! and it stink!!!!! thanks eh shims. dats y i love u so much. rotflmao. (ceh ceh shims, da terror eh aku with that acronym) wakaka!




look how gross and slimey they are! eeeeek!!!!!!!!!!

i have many things to complain about. first lets starts with my brother. do u noe i miss him? no rite? thats the pt. anyway, i wanna complain, eversince he got for himself a gf (at last!) he have no time for me la. and we have little interactions nowadays. its not good alrite. no more late nite talking, late nite gossiping and stuffs u noe wat i mean. wit her? u mean azura? nah i dun click well wit her. and i click super hell stick like uhu glue with brother.

sadly now he dun have time for me. 24/7 gf. i noe i shudnt be so freaking selfish la kan but still i miss his presence la. hes like oways there for me when i was down. and previously i am down. and i bet he din noe coz i din show.


next is her. this is my adek angkat aleesha. the bunchies noes her. well she came over on last mon but i din get to see her as i was fast asleep when she came. when i woke up the next morning, ibu asked me how come i went to bed early and told me that actually aleesha dropped by just to mit me. ohh my. i felt sooo bad. we will meet soon alryte, when kakak is free and its the skool holiday okie dokie wollie mollie!

this is my madness gf didi. knew her since the pri skul days and we've been frens for more than wat ten yrs. 14 yrs to b exact! n its still goin strong tho. the last time i met her was at dayak's bday gathering. supposedly we went wit a bunch of us, but the bubblesaurus rex was not extinct yet, it ended up onie the two of us turned up. pity dayak. *smiles* niways, didi, we shud meet soon alrite. then we can go shopping for GUESS till we drop!


this one also i miss her like mad dog seh. seriously la. this yr, we have yet to chill together rite? it was donkeys mths ago since the last time we met. now please bring back her to me n fee pls. no doubt we are bz but we cant afford to go on seperate ways la kan. we're lesbos eternity! wakaka. i love u lesbo. niways, i shud post a pic of the three of us.

thats more i like it!

i miss this bunch of slackers! comel is now at taiwan. azhar is at ite simei doin i dunnoe wat. bell is patiently waiting for her result. and if she did well, she will proceed to poly, n if not, she will have her own plan. but watever it is, i miss them like alotlotlotlotlotlotlotlot!

how can i forget them. if onie i have dayak's pic. i shud selit kan her. niways, this is like the last time we totally have a proper hang out. after this, it was the unplanned meet up and terserempak kinda thing n i miss them a lot la k. i seldom blog bout them doesnt mean i totally forgot bout them la kan. haiz, diana is patiently waiting for her result like bell oso. dee is now miss nadiyah at some convent skool. shes an IT teacher now. chey-wah! heh. niways, we shud seriously go out one day and do lots n lots of shopping at body shop!

i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss lots of ppl ya noe. i miss everyone. haiz, macam nak mati la plak kan, miss sume orang. i missssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss my adek farah also but i cant find our decent pics taken together la. there is this one pic but me without wearing tudung, n its damn obvious, so cannot make it la. but doesnt mean i dun post any pic of u adek n me, i dun miss u ok. i missssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss u like alotlotlotlotlotlotlotlotlotlotlotlot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! siap dimerahkan lagi tau namanye. *muax*

and thats me and fayyadh. smiles!

i cant rmb when was the last time like i sit infront of the computer and do the fun stuffs. hmm like onie now then i felt like i have all the time in the world to do the most fun thing online which is blogging.

crapness.

now im lost for werds. haiz. wat onie.

to all, happy good friday. its the last supper. well ignore if u dunnoe wat it means.

niways, i shud be sleeping but i just cant. and im feeling extremely lethargic the whole day today. but still i forced myself to do the chores coz we the siblings received yet another nagging from the ever oh so loveable ibu of mine. she nagged that we shudnt neglect the house work. it is well spotted la but cant help it la. im just plain lazy. getting lazy and lazier almost everyday. and almost everyday shims reminded me to be,a,girl.

thanks love. i m ok.

i rented few videos and bro told me that actually ibu dun like the idea of me renting the videos. she said actually the amount of money that ive been easily thrown at ez-video, if i gave it to her, she cud like get for me equivalent to 10 dvds in all. well the thing is, i dun watch the latest movie. i initially looking for old time back dated movie. coz thats the whole point, if i wanted the latest one, y waste buckeroos on renting when i can juz buy tix and watch at cinema or just buy the dvd. ryte? i noe.

but i just kept quiet about it. she wanted to gave me head to toe lecture when she saw me brought home a new sets of movie but i told her i claimed the free vouchers that ive got. not noeing that ive actually credited 50 bucks to my rental acc! woohoo!!!!!!

and im down wit cashless. stupid me rite? i noe.

well maybank is doin fine after all. ouh.

u noe recently i broke my back ryte? alah about the hair line crack that was shown to me by the doc when x-trayed it.and because of that, i cant perform the tarian performance at the victoria theatre. so kudos to me la kan, after mths and mths of practices, it goes down to the drain just like dat. pig.

can i make a huge shout out? I HATE YADALI!. he is super dooper irritating to the core i tell u. and to add to it, hes the most effing lame and the most despo guy ive ever met. i mean wats wit the beauty in a gerl thats hes looking for? he shud really look at me without the make up u noe. coz whenever he ask for my pic, and stupidly me i mms him 2 pics of mine, he kept asking for more. when was asked y, he said "geram la tgk ur pic. lawa seh u. kalau dapat jadikan u my gf, lagi best!" thats the most mengarut comment ive ever received la seh. grow up can? well supposedly we lost contact, but thanks to spore coz of its super micro population, everyone is like everyones relative, we contacted back. thanks to him eh!

i hate ns men. they behave immaturely. like rambling hyenas u noe wat i mean?

and kamarul ikrimah a.k.a my monster, is freaking degil to the max. hes down wit fever for almost a week and guess wat he did? he totally ignore it and still goes to work but at the same time complaining to me that hes super tired and feeling so so so unwell. wen i advised him to go to the clinic, he said he wont coz its wasting. and summore he will onie go if he need to.

bih now yang almost every hr he complained that hes not well and the throat is sore like wat tu aper?? lelaki lelaki!

rul, org da tak kuasa da nak pujuk awak gi clinic eh. org tau, org da nasihat, da suruh mkn aper, tu terpulang la eh nak dgr ckp org ke tak. org tau awak baca blog org. *bluek!*

and early this morning, i was awaken by jay's morning apology msg. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! he apologised fr nt msging me very often as he was bz and he hope i understand.

i will always understand u la my heart.

he complained also saying that he couldnt get off from werk by this week. if he insisted, they are not gonna pay his wages. bloody hell. so i told him, he shud decide fr himself la. i pitied him actually. werk more that twelve hrs, standing job, end up not receiving anything by the end of the day. wtf.

ok la period. time checked.

i went for retail theraphy just now. i spent 140 buckeroos!!

on bodyshop products!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it was pure madness.

I WANT MORE WAREHOUSE SALES~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is a pending entry actually. ignore it or just proceed if u feel like it.

niways, i jus dun like the feeling that i have for myself. i mean all this promotion thing doesnt help me in any bit. in fact i felt so much pressurised u noe. pressurised as in, im scared i couldnt go on MC if i reported sick. im just stupidly stupid naive. and i have this feelings that no one gonna listen to me if i have an instructions to give or message to deliver.

true enuff i gain much attention, but not in a very good way tho. they see me differently now n i hated that so much. u noe, no more the joke joker yul again. they see me and they gave me the smirking face like as tho u need to give them one tight smack so just that they can look at u normally like how they used to.

and today actually i reported sick. onie god noed wat happen to me. i fell. n i hurt my back. and it ache so much that i have to put pillow rite under my waist to support. when siting, i cant slouch like how i used to and i have to sit straight just like how i sat during the debating competition that i went when i was in sec 5. i noe i shudnt be complaining but i just cant la.

and doc said my bone is freaking fragile as im low in calcium. i was like wth. wats wit the milk that ive been drinking all this while? he spotted and i see it wit my own eyes theres hairline crack on the waist bone. freak i tell u.

he reminded not to carry any heavy stuffs. so its well spotted i couldnt carry ilhan my pg kiddo anymore when he reaches the skool tmr. ohh my. so much things to avoid yet so many things to look upon to.

ppl must be like " wat la u. ure the most crappiest snr teacher wg ever have la. so fragile and ure immune is freakingly weak la dey. " and they will write a petition to have thier snr teacher change! i die i tell u!

aniways, after visiting dr lim, i went to maybank. settled a few stuffs and rented a few videos for bro. looked for devils wear prada for lesbo fee but couldnt find it. say it was on rental. and i put it on the waiting list. i m amazingly tired now as i have to sit straight and i cant slouch a bit. i mite have to go for another check up and it is on one of these days. i told the doc that i mite give it a miss and he said suit myself. blardy hell doc. he smiled anyways and i assumed hes joking. shit.

i looked damn tall. no wonder its difficult for me to find guys whos taller then me. i look tall la for a gerl's normal ht. shorter can? but i dun wanna look stout la. i need heels niways. he said he loves looking at me wearing baju kurung wit heels.

guess who?

well no prezzie tho for rite answers. so im like searching high and low for some decent heels which is obviously have my size la. mind u i have big feet wokay~!

k i have announcement to make loyalties. pls settle down. sit straight and dun slouch.

rite.

on tuesday, i was called to come into the office. and mdm spoke to me. and on thursday morning she broke the news. and on thursday evening debriefing, lesbo fee broke another news. so wats the news im talking about?

exactly after 2 years and 4 mths with iMAN, after many experiences in handling big major events, after many things that i have to go through, after all the thick and thin..

iMAN promoted me to Senior Teacher for Woodgrove. and not onlie dat, i was promoted to K2 Harvard and PG Kingston. Kudos to me!

y my entry so formal leh.. make it easy can?

and so ya loyalties, ive been promoted. now im responsible for all the things that lesbo fee used to. ohh, and she was promoted to the Head Teacher for Woodgrove. Euphoria for her!

and literally i shud be happy rite with the promotions and the hand over of stuffs, but deep down inside my heart, im feeling lonely.

1) the fact that family is leaving tonite for a holiday cum ibu bday celebration.

2) a change of teaching partner. a major changes to be exact. back to independent me. used to be pampared by the ustazah and a very useful partner.

3) jay making me jealous by going out wit a gerl for a movie "ninja turtle" despite the fact that he claimed when i overheard his conversation on a fone when we went out the other time, saying that ninja turtle is effing lame and boring. when i offered to watch movie, he said he was cashless, i offered to treat him but he rejected. and now a week after, he said hes at the cinema watching that "effing lame and boring" movie. he said k.

wth.

shims said i shudnt have this kinda feelings as he isnt my bf. he have the liberty to go out wit everyone. and after much logical thinking, i tink, i shud let him go.

shud stop thinking bout him.

shud stop bothering him.

shud stop msg him like he will be be n forever be mine.

shud stop everything that is linkage to Abdul Jalil.

but bestie osman asked, will be able to stop. or worse IGNORE? he just knew me too well la. i called him n consult him. i cried and he actually coax me. so sweet of him.

i shud concentrate on someone else.

i shud like give chance to others.

i shud like try to accept yadh's existence. (im trying my very best in this...)

i shud priotise my work! and children! and the new responsibilities! and to the family! (thats the most important thing!)

yeah i shud. so no more pwince. no more heart. we shall just see la k.








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