and so this year we got for ourself a new 'lampu-lap-lip'. u noe meriah it is to look outside the window and u can see sparkling lites twinkling non stop. hhuhu. look at my ibu up there. we just came back from teh tarik for buka.

niways, aku malas nak blog panjang2 dalam bahasa english. dengan pening aku yang tak hilang2. lagi plak ngah dok betol2 depan teevee tgk rahsia perkahwinan.

kawan madrasah aku tanya, "kau aper cite ngan ngan lelaki yang bibir seks tu.." aku ader la ternganga sikit siapa la kan lelaki bibir seks tu eh. pikir nyer pikir, jay la. ya ampun. macam maner la aku bleh lupa pasal si jay tu kan.

sesungguhnya aku da berdoa pada allah ta'ala, kalau la betol dia tu untuk aku, dekatkan la hatinya pada aku, dan sekiranya dia bukan untuk aku, jauhilah diri ku darinya, hilangkan ingatanku terhadap nya.."

dan sesungguhnya, yang maha kuasa telah membuktikan...

happie fasting. first entry since the first day of puasa. i just recover from high fever. can someone pls save me? ive overworked and onie god noes.

i have 2 more pending proposals. saiful nagged at me almost every nite saying that i need to stop werking for at least a day and have a rest. well i did. on thurs i clear my 4 hrs time off. at nite i was hit wit high fever. i was shivering n sweating like a pig. my head ached alot, i vomitted and i had diarrhoea. u noe how suffering that is? onie god noes.

now, my migrain hit back n i have to wait for muqmin. where the hell is this muqmin seh?

how will u react if u were told before to wait and let the time decide, and then suddenly u were told that it's better and hes happy to stay as wat we r rite now, as frens.



pls somebody tell me that that sound super pathetic. i was super dooper dumb to take his words into consideration when he told me that im the one when the first time he saw me. u made me in cloud nine when u said that its oways a must for u to msg me, and once u did, u just cant stop msg-ing wit me.



bloody fakers all.



its all good now ya. so much for a happy ending. it sucks. i shud have shoved the big huge mirror rite to my face la kan before pretending to be the queen of ur heart. this thing hurt me sooo bad tau, its just that i cant afford to cry anymore. i noe the last time i cried sooo bad coz of him oso. he ignored me for few days n that left me in misery.

i cant bear to lose him but still things have to go on like usual. hes not my backbone or anything.



wat he told me thru sms when i tok things wit him, was just too painful to swallow. it ache alot as i never tot that he wud say that. literally i asked him if i shud still wait for him or just move on. and wat saddened me alot is that he dun understand simple n direct literacy. it was left unanswered. he assumed he did ans. and i assumed he wants to put a limit to it. well, if that he wants fr the outcome of everything after giving me hopes then i shall just walk away..



it hurt alot. surreal hurt alot. i talked to sis. i talked to bro. ive yet to tok to ibu. im just tooooo malu to speak to ibu about this. my ibu noes how much i dote on him. n shes the one who gave me the strength to continue wait for him. n now look wat happen.



this feeling here sucks sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i need u. (point to lesbos..!)

i have many things to update. we shall go topic by topic starts with the most basi one.

teachers day.

this yr woodgrove angkat all. well not literally all la kan but then it seems like it. this was like an eye opener for all of my new teachers. altho its kinda belated and passed for almost 2 weeks now, but it seems that our dinner nite felt like it was just ytd. pardon if my eng sucks to the core. time check pls.

i appeared to be BEST TEACHER FOR WOODGROVE 2007 and BEST CLASSROOM 2007. my centre under my management won the BEST LEARNING STUDIO. sth that i can be proud of as it was me n my teachers achievement for 2 yrs straight. this one is a must must be proud of kinda thing. and the most memorable event for the entire nite, woodgrove won the CHAMPION FOR IMAN IDOL 2007. we compete wit 8 other centers k. under my management too. im the choreographer. the costume. the make up. the everything. with the determintation and confident from my teachers, we won wit glory.

and so i brought home 4 trophies. not to forget, all the beautiful gift n prezzies from my kids. love them many many. many congratulate me. and some said sth that really made me left the hall wit two feelings, proud and shocked..

"congrats tr nurul. great effort. u deserve it this yr.."

"congrats nurul. u guys shud deserve it. baik ar joget. tak sia2 u marah2 wit ur teachers.."

see.

krayon.

im incharge for the deejay wannabe this yr for the woodgrove center. n so i went for the krayon recording twice. great experince i tell ya. theres a pic for it. a video too. but it seems that my lappie dun supprt the sth2. so dun bother to wait for the video. let the picture do the talking. i mean, if i can find the time to upload all the nice pics la kan. time is precious u noe.

teachers day outing.

we went to sentosa. huhu. i love my teachers. they are the most sporting sports ever. n they oways have plans for everything. n they always make it happen. tats wat i like about them the most. wat i always tell them, wen we're at werk, get their head seriously in the task that they are doing. when it is the time to enjoy, we enjoy to the fullest. its like bringing good old memories when the first time i stepped into iman.

another outing was planned. we went to bb safra or watever u call it and played lazer quest. initially we planned to play bowling, but all lane was booked, we play lazer quest. i mite be the best choreographer or the best teacher la kan but when it comes to lazer shooting, i came last k. ppl scores wit more then 500 pts, i manage to get for myself 24 points onie. how pathetic is that? malu tau. it took me 1 week to make them stop laughing at me.

lesson to be learn. dun listen to watever the instructor said. he said dun run. i shud be running like siao ca bo ok.

next. is there anything that i miss? ohh i tink its the emo entry. i shall make it to the later one. that one must be the exclusive entry.

pics will be uploaded soon. promise.

ola loyalties. im down wit sore eyes. AGAIN!. how fun can it be u tell me? when the job in class is pilling up and here i have to stuck at home coz of the sore eyes thingy. luckily i got it today, then later of the week, say FRIDAY??! im so gonna freak out.

dinner gonna be on this friday, its the teachers day dinner i mean. and well, everyone is looking forward to it. the costume we will onie collect it on wednesday. this gonna be uber fun and coolness. lets just hope n pray silently that the pay will be in by tmr, insya allah. coz im really in need of cash. i need new lenses. my compact powder is fisishing soon. my mascara is running dry. same goes to the eyeliner and my foundation. not forgetting my shower gel, its all from body shop.

BODY SHOP! HERE I COME!!!

niways, i miss pwince. who can help me to tell him that i miss him so much. if onie i have telepathy, u understand what i mean. theres so much of less interactions between me n him. we're not like how we used to be, like theres oways sth to chat or share about. like for now, its like plain dry and pointless. i dun wan this to be dragging till forever.

can someone tell pwince that i miss him so?

its been a long time kan since the last time i update my blog. sowie ar loyalties. was super dooper bz seh. been coming home late almost everyday seh. now lately, we have been werking hard on the trs day dinner performance. we're werking on asmaradana and guess who la kan the choreographer.

we're now waiting patiently the confirmation from the costume provider, if can we wanted so bad to have the exclusive lace but its all good la for now. just waiting patiently for the call each and everyday.

niways, i miss pwince ya noe. this few days, we have so much of less interactions btwn us. i dunnoe how come this thing can happen la but then its weird. altho theres muqmin and ash'ari, but still the presence of pwince will always brightens up my day no matter wat. they did la but not as well as pwince did like how he used to. i admit i miss him now. but the thing is i dun have the gut to tell him dat i miss him. haiyah.

"ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apa pun. ku menyintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku."

olaz. happy holidays. indeed i had a great time spending at home. this is heaven i tell u. woke up late and have all the time in the world to watch all the movies which ive been longing to. it was pure and surreal pleasure.

on the eve of national day, family went picnicking at nite. we left ECP at 4.00 am. n i noe that i have to wake up early, coz ibu claimed tt the comp man is coming to fix it. BUT! he did not k. so instead of watching the repeat telecast wit the rest of the members, i fell asleep the whole of the programme rite at the sofa. i dun gv a damn to those who disturb me. for all i noe, i totally ignored those who tried to disturb me.

then later in the evening, we went tanjong pagar. watched abg played soccer. gt friendly match with some local football group which i was fail to identify. huhu! rite after the game, we went to raffles to catch the firewerkz. it was freaking gorgeous and brilliant i tell u. it was sth memorable la kan. i was hoping to go wit someone special la kan but its all good tho.

teehee! niways, im meeting pwince tmr. huhu!