Good Morning loyalties.

This morning, I received the most shocking news ever from someone. I was so shocked that I went speechless for the next few seconds. I just do no know how to react. She was someone whom I look upon to when I need an assistance. Receiving this kind of news in the morning doesn't make my day any sweeter. Knowing that tomorrow is public holiday, is pure sweetness for me. But, after receiving this heart broken news, it ain't sweet anymore. I actually cried when she told me. Yes. I cried just now. I was praying very hard that none of my teachers pass by my office. Simply because I do not want them to see me cry. I can't show them that I am a softie. A sensitive freak. An emotional lady. I have to always show to them that I am a strong independent woman.

So, what is the plan for the whole day today? Nothing much I guess. Anis, my Nursery teacher, left for Nanyang Poly. She is taking Diploma at NYP studying Health and Science. She said she wants to be a Nutritionist. I wish her all the best. May she succeed in life and be happy with what she choose to do. Yesterday was the last day for all the trainees. So basically, more people leave and little people coming in. I am starting to have bond with my team players, but I always have to remind myself that, I should have or at least create a limit or borderline when I am with them. I do not want history to repeat itself. I do not want had happen to me at the previous center to happen to me again at my own center. I should do this if I want to act and do things professionally. Talking about my previous center, I have a piece of story to share..

I do not know why I have this hatred feelings towards here, but for sure I know that I will never like her. First, she wasn't very nice to me at all. And I simply don't understand how she can simply be so blunt. I doubt that she's dumb. Second, you're from a Madrasah stream school. You should know the "Adab" when talking to people. And what are the consequences when you make someone feel bad. And third, you don't live in this world alone. It is not like you are the most beautiful woman on this earth. You don't have to be arrogant if you think you are beautiful. It is cool to be beautiful with pure and clean heart. But it is saddening to have a beautiful face but an ugly heart. It is very sad.

There was this one particular time, I was marking my book. Note that when this happen, I was still at my previous center. Like I said, I was marking Creative Writing written by the children about their favourite teacher. A child wrote about how much she likes me and how beautiful I was (I am still, right now!). I qouted what the child wrote,

"Teacher Nurul is very pretty. She is as pretty as Princess Aurora."

That was what exactly the child wrote. I mean, what do you expect from a 5 years old child right. They do fantasize and so Princesses are mainly their idol. I don't really know much about Aurora. I don't even know from which fairy tale she was in. And so I asked a fellow partner of mine about it. She was clueless too. But out of no where, she appeared and bluntly said this,

"Ala, Princess Aurora yang tak cantik tu la. Muka dia macam bapok."

READ: Princess Aurora is not the pretty one. She looks like a transvetite. Now, tell me, my children actually do love children that looks like transvetite is it? I was awed at her remarks. When I got home, I googled, just to justify myself on how exactly this Princess Aurora looks like. that was a long time ago. So no need to ponder about it anymore. For all I know, Princess Aurora is a very beautiful princess. Thank you to my student, Emylia. Now, this is the newest story, about the same person. Imagine you just ended your tuition and was reasting on the couch when your tutee's mother sit next to you and said,

"Nurul, I want to ask you something. Is it true, kids meeting is now talking about healthy and unhealthy food?"

And i nodded my head. Too tired actually to open my mouth.

"Well, last week, Nasrul came back home from school, crying. He said, in his class today, they had kids meeting. And this teacher, her name is teacher ****, said like this during the kids meeting. Children, can you eat alot? Haa. Cannot right? If you eat alot, later you become fat. Haa, remember or not teacher nurul? later you become like her.."

I looked at her face. A lil bit of 'maluation' hit my face ok. I only smiled. The parent continued saying that, Nasrul was actually sad as he thinks highly of me. Nasrul actually came up to me and said,

"Betul Teacher Nurul. Adik tak bohong."

READ: It is true, Teacher Nurul. I am not lying. *sigh* This kind of people do exist eh. I mean,
why do you have to say mean things? Does that really makes you feel good? I simply don't understand this woman here. She has the look, but she is ain't perfect also. She has that bunny teeth. Unlike me, I have a prefect sets of teeth. Sometimes, this kind of people that actually made me feel so demoralise. I hate you, Yana.

I am back loyalties. Yes. This is for real.

I had my own long break from blogging. I do miss blogging but somehow, time don't permit me from committing to blogger. So here's a lil update about me since i i depart from blogging. I have been with Iman for almost 6 years. I was from Woodgrove and taught many children at Woodgrove. I grew maturely at Woodgrove. Early this year, I was transfered to Choa Chu Kang. Before that, I was promoted. After the promotion, I was posted to Choa Chu Kang and run the centre with lots of guidance from the experts. I was very fortunate. I was given this oppurtunity and seriously, it is a huge challenge for me. I never thought I can go this far. But here I am, running my own center with 142 children and 5 teachers.I can say that I am proud of myself but, I will always remind myself that I do still have a lot to learn. With a great team of players, I am sure, I can give my very best. Insya Allah. Wish me all the best, lovelies.

I am also in the Curriculum Unit, under Nursery Department. Now, I get to actually experienced what Fee has been experiencing all this while. I know I can't be like her, but I am very sure that I can be someone whom all the rest of the teachers can rely on me. I am always looking forward for teachers training during the school holidays as this will be the only time whereby I get to know whether I am giving and providing knowledge and materials efficiently. With this, I am always looking forward to do everything the best. I have my own idol when it comes to curriculum. I looked highly upon her, and she is the reason as to why I am still in the Curriculum unit. To some of you who might be wondering what is a Curriculum Unit, well it is similar to Head of Department (HOD) in the Ministry, when you are a head of a certain department and as for my case, I am the head for Nursery Level Department.

there. Well said.

Relationship likewise, I am still with him. (points to Tek.) yes. happily. We are nice to each other. We are mean to each other too, at times. We love each other very much. And we know that there will be no one that can intervene us from moving forward. We have our very own small business in which both of us started from scratch. Both are into Arts. And so, both set up Twopeeps.sg. I am the shoemaker, and he is the photographer. Recently, we have The Bridal Project. Whereby we got a make up artist, 3 cameramen, a model and an assistant. We took pictures at Botanical Garden and we can safely say, there are more to come. The Bridal Project is on the way. In any case, you have an assignment for us, or you need our service, you can always drop by our official website. http://www.twopeeps.sg - Twopeeps Creative Partnership. Make an appointment with us for further clarification and discussion.

Life's good I must say. And I just love my life very much. Thank you Sayang Tekdee, for being there for me when at times I need you.

*akan ku terus sabar menanti, hingga tiba masanya, ku berinai di jari.*

my blog is dead.

my blog is dead.

my blog is dead.

my blog is so gonna be dead.

my blog is so so so so gonna be dead.

my blog is dead.

my blog is dead.

my blog is dead.

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Its getting dusty in here isnt it? Yes. I was busy. Eversince term 3 started, it was total madness for me. Jobs are piling up and events after events are coming on my way. Waiting patiently now is the annual event, kinda major, its the Sports Day cum Family day. At Yishun Stadium. I had to ask Tek to come along, as I need hm to be my personal foto-gra-fer. Guess who did the program line-up for that day? Muah!! Actually, its my partner-in-crime, the big Madam, who did it. And I am more of in need on the actual day as I will be working super closely with that ohh-sooo-HOT director of mine. This is the first time I'm working very closely with him and so I am abit nervous.

Ohh, before I go any further, let me apologise. Sorry for the long hiatus. Like I said, I am freaking busy. And this entry is also to inform all my loyalties that not to expect much update from this blog as it will be like once in a blue moon kinda situation. Nonetheless, I will never shut down iznillah.blogspot.com as I treasure alot what I've been pouring inside online notebook of mine.

Back to that serious business, after that big major event, its the National Day celebration. Not so major but somehow it's gonna be a great one tho. With the singing, the dancing, and that super dooper gerek pot-luck from the teachers and children! We are totally looking forward to it. And after that National Day celebration, then its the another major huge big annual event, Staff Fiesta cum Teachers Day celebration. The host for this event, is (un)fortunately, my centre, WOODGROVE! ROTFLMAO!

Anyhoo, no use bragging, in the end, I have to face it. Its the matter of time now, moving ohh-soo-fast and everything is rushing and everyone is falling sick. Thats the best part. Ohh to spice things up, I m very stress coz, for kindersports, I am the Program Line Up I/C, National Day, i am the Assistant I/C and the for the Staff Fiesta, I am the Program Line Up I/C too. AGAIN.

so, not so bad la kan. MY FOOT!

ok im dead tired. i was out for the last 12 hours. im on leave today and yet I have to wake up super dooper early.

• road tax
• car insurance
• car inspection
• abang's bike's final process and transferring of names
• abang's permanent bike's license
• car change tyre

I explored the whole of Spore today.

• bishan
• ang mo kio
• pasir ris
• woodlands
• bukit panjang
• marina keppel bay
• kelantan lane

Tomorrow, I don't care. I want to wake up late. And I seriously mean it. LATE.

Dearest Fee,

This is just a simple note from me to you. Earlier on, I recorded your teacher's day wish am I rite? Deep down, it touched my heart and I then realise, sooner or later, you're leaving us at Iman. I can accept the fact that you had tender your resignation and leaving soon, but I just couldn't accept the fact that we will not be working under the same roof anymore. It really saddens me alot as I will have no company anymore when u leave. I have no one to talk to, as in, heart to heart talk. I have no one that really understand me and the work culture. I have no one to laugh and have lunch with during the curriculum trainings and whatnots. I sumpah gonna miss you, Fee.

I know that we will still be friends. Very good friends. Best of friends in fact. I managed to get through when Aidah left many years ago, I don't think I can go through this quite easily. Knowing that, I am now, will be doing the things that you've encountered and went through before. I just need someone to be close to me and guide me and hold my hands (literally only..) along the way. And that someone is simply just you.

Anyway, I have to end this. I am sobbing.
ILY,Fee.
TTYS.

(PS ILY- I love you. TTYS- Talk to you soon.)

It is a very tiring day for me. My head is soooo heavy. And my body hurt so bad. Only the first day of training and I am complaining like there's no tomorrow. Fret not. I have 2 more days to go and I have to endure. Singapore is small, but travelling from one place to another can be quite a killer eh? I went for an interview after my training at Tamp just now. Nah, for a tuition agency only. My heart and soul will always be with Iman (*_*)"



And Alhamdulillah, I got it. I'll be teaching Malay. The days will be confirmed once again when the class is starting soon. I am sooo looking forward for this. Day time, teaching at Iman, nite time, teaching at a tuition center. Coolness. Tuition with Nazirul will still be on. Anyway, as I am typing this entry, I am half dead. I'm lying down on my stomach with 2 huge pillows under my chin to support my head. My fan is blowing the air fiercely at me. And it seems that I will knock out anytime soon. Saturday, back to the center, I have to get the TB and LS be ready at least 95%. No more dilly dally.



Damn. I should sms all my teachers about the mass aerobic performance tmr. And another Damn! What should I wear for tmr's staff contact time? The theme is Rock and Roll.



HELEP!