salam all.
back from all time favourite hibernation.
tehhee.
well cant blame me totally aite.
i have other commitments.
mind u.

niways,ytd went out wit the lesbos.
after so long of planning,ytd was the happenin day.
the slackers came along too. yeah.
their sidekicks.
mine have to be at home.
not allowed to leave the home.
so. okie lor. it doesnt make a big different tho.
but i do miss him aite.
oopsie~! tts a bit too loud!!
teehhee..

tmr me n mar are suppose to report to tamp.
hell we we gonna go on a rampage to their wardrobe.
so we were assigned by mdm to report back to the center by noon.
aidah gonna come also tmr. to help out wit the props.
tmr is the due. i have lots more. i pester my bro to come.
yeah coz hes gd in art also. so can help bit by bit maa.

ouh n err to add more spicy-ness to the entry.
i hv a new fren.
name yadali. very unique huh.
hes nice. n erm. wats tt werd.
rare? erm ya. rare it is.

k enuff said. gtg.
salamz..

start off wit salamz..

assalammualaikum.

k first. bad news.
hmm. im losing my voice.
in fact. i lost it oready.
n i sounded really bapokz.
when i shout,it went all the way to the high notes.
yeah. the sporanos.
well. wat goes ard comes ard i guess.
coz i shouted at boyfie.
asking for break-up.
well ya noe. he dun wan to.
he let out all the reasons y he jz cant accept the fact
that we shud be goin on seperate ways.

well. shag to discuss bout tt.
i have better news to share in fact.
hehehe. im flattered.
i still do have butterflies in my tummy~!
hehe *flutters**flutters*!!

on sun nite. b4 i had a huge quarrel wit boyfie on mon,
guess who called me?????

after sooooooo long...
he went on hibernating.
hu kept on MIA.

MUHD FAHMI!! he called me!!!!!!!
yeah. tt one. the one tt i called ma abg putra syg!!!!
yessa. he called.
haiz. the conversation went perfectly normal.
its weird tho tt i dun feel angry at him wen he reason everything
why he actually MIA.
he is so...

ermm...

so schweet la. i miss him.

niways,wt he said tt nite was a memorable one.
shud be reminisce.

k la gtg.
tmr LO.
by tcr noni.

taking care..

my story telling presentation went perfectly smooth.
and amazingly perfect ya.
altho i onie practice it once wit al-azhar1.

jz now iftar at sakura downtown east.
it was da bomb ya noe the food.
we spread the whole of the table wit countless plates.
from seafood to sushi. from lor mai kai to black pepper chicken.
heaven aite.
then theres variedty of ice-cream flavours to choose from.
u can have tiramisu to cheesecake.
from pudding to jellies.
super dooper yummy kedondong sehz.

hehe!

bloated. n took cab from there.
i tot im gonna bump into him or wat..
but it was another him.
bump into ma once abg putra sayang fahmi.
damn~!
he is sooo cute aite.
hes with this lady n a few of his frens i guess.
haiz.
i saw him. n i tink he saw me. coz
he avoid having eye contact wit us.
fee n mar saw him too. n they said like he is as though
trying to avoid having eye contact wit him.
urgh!
he wore the grey smart long sleeve shirt.
it was the shirt where we had dinner at lau pa sat.
in one of those nites.

i miss him.

okay so tmr im gonna have story telling presentations.
eureka~!

salamz to all.

kinda shag ya noe.
coz went to geylang wit the imanians.
yeah. n went to geylang wit heels.
we walked like 'pelesit'.
n tt causes one of the straps to come out.
have to snipped it off.
it looks ugly for now.
ate chicken rice n mineral water.
so. i din actually followed the groups to ambush the bazaar.
my sole is swelling n bubbling.
so fee n far n me share a cab to go home.
fee bought her char kway fish. she do have big tanks aite.

okie. enuff of geylang. nth interesting tho.
tmr story telling presentation. gonna rmb to bring
my props along.
then. wed. yeah the iftar thing.
its gonna be at sakura downtown east.
aite.
of all the places,its at paris. ooopsie.
its at pasir ris.
damn. where all ma sweet memories was held..

i wonder how..i wonder why..

haha lemon tree song sia.
kays. eyes getting heavier.
gtg chickas~!

ps: dik.farah, akak gi pasir ris la this wed..! haiz. teringat kenangan2 dolu-dolu~
skali terserempak eh...oooouih~!!

pissed off~!

salamz all...

rmb my last entry i mention tt i have to go coz 'im' called.
damn tt guy!
in the holy mth he did such thing.
curse him from head to toe i tell u.

he've been asking me out several times.
n he have to accept several rejections from me.
but then on sat i decided to give in. agreed to go out wit him.
when i agreed,he played on me.
not the normal kinda play by play kinda thing.

he took my cash, ez link. n my mobile.
i was snatch theft aite.
urgh!

the story goes like dis..

break fast wit boyfie at jurong entertainment centre.
left at 8. n boyfie sent me off to mit this imran guy.
after sending me boyfie went to werk.
i met imran at buona vista.
he said he havent eat. so we went to raffles place.
dropped at tanjong pagar,we walked all the way to boat quay.
we chit chat all the way.
found burger king. we ate there.
then need the washroom. this is where the stories reached the climax..

my shoe ribbon was loose. i was holding my handbag.
so not wanting to put it on the floor coz i have surah yaazin n qursi
in my handbag,i gave him my handbag to him n he hooked it at his pouch.
when ready to move on,i saw the ladies n excuse myself.
forgetting bout my handbag. i onie realise it was wit him when im oready inside.
i went outside to look for him bt he went to the gents oready.
nt wanting to think negatively,i carried on n ans the natures call.
after tt,he tot of sitting outside the raffles place mrt. n chit chat again.
i agreed. he held my hand. i felt weird.

after a few while of chit chattin,he claim tt he need to make a fonecall.
n needed my fone coz he cant make anymore outgoin call.
first few min of conversation he did it infront of me.
but soon after tt,he said he need to pee again.
he was walking all ard. criss-crossing his leg.
he went into the bushes n told me nt to turn ard as he need to relief himself.
so i obeyed.
tts went he went missing n never return.
i went to look for him for 15 minutes then i realise tt ive been fooled.
decide to go hm w/o my hp n tts when i realise tt i dun have my ez link.
i open up my purse,n found out my cash n ez link gone. left 5 dollars onie.
last resort,i bought for myself the standard ticket. i panicked alot.
coz ive been followed by a very old bangla.
damn scary. its 11.45 mind u.
he followed me till my hm bust stop. screw him!
im lucky i saw my neighbour n went hm wit him.

i tink wen he went to the gents,tts wen he took my cash n ez link.
n there goes my hp when he wen into the bushes saying wanting to relief himself.
i made a report. wit my mom n dad.
gt scolding from boyfie.
from head to toe.
haiz.
truly bad luck.

salamz.

m still shag.
gt my bonus jz now. alhamdulillah.
went out wit the family.
to geylang. bought for myself n them shoes.
bought a few tudung.
broke our fast at har yassin restaurant.
alah all those by the road murtabak stalls.
geylang. where the re-forging occurs.
where the mats n minas united as one. teheehee.

its packo when it reaches clock 8.
met one of my old time madrasah fren.
then bump into this guy by the name of sheik i tink.
tt jbs guy.
then once again bump into an ex of mine. hes cute now.
growing up stage beb. maturity level is reaching to the max.
then in the bazaar itself,bump into another madrasah fren of mine.
then the iman tamp admin.
then my cuzzin gima.
then i tot i saw dino. teeheehee. alah dino..
dino farhan i tink his name. faiz best fren la.
i tot so onie. but din saw faiz.

felt so shag. kinda fed-up coz din get wat i wanted.
Junied CD. haiz.
searching for it the whole of bazaar.
muz get it on the nx mission. insya allah.
i adore this beaded tote bag. its 25 bux.
i asked boyfie to buy for me.
he said insya allah. we shall see aite.

after tt we decided to go home.
reached hm at 9.30
soooooooo shag.
tried on my heels flip flop.
heels aite. note tt down.
noyol gonna wear heels for raya sia. teeheehee.
its white. gorgeous.
nvm. i can exchange2 wit adek.
hers is nice. heels flip flop oso.
so ya.

eh. got to go la.
'im' called oready.

damn shag. n shag.

salamz all.
i wonders alot this few days.
been gazing n day dreaming countlessly.
been very silent.
n oways wanna keep tings to myself.
to whom can i let out this evil n unsatisfied feelings?
dun feel like sharing but feel like vomitting it all out.

i nvr had this feeling b4. never.
not even once in my life.
whenever i have doubts or anything,
i will always have the tendency to share.
bt nt this time round.
i shudnt be feeling this ya noe. damn no.
i dun like this crappy n yucky feeling.

n to u.
i dunnoe if u gonna read it or not.
but i dun tink u gonna.
so. it wont make any difference tho.
i hate u la. but i love u so bad.
pls n pls i beg u.
altho u dun allow me to beg u.
be sensitive to me. understand me.
appreciate me. love me.
pls do love me while u can.
i dun wan till it reaches when u dun have the chances.
pls dun make me feel bad.
i hate to have tt feeling. its dirty.
to me. coz u noe me.
everyone noes me.
im very soft-hearted.

oh n 1 more thing.
pls.
dun take advantage of me.
i m soft. but theres the hard part in me.
dun try poking here n there.
never.

hmm.
supposingly we break dast at JB today.
but the traffic was hell jz now. imagine.
we got stuck at wdld causeway for more than 2 hrs.
n worse thing is tt,we havent even reach the traffic to the checkpoint.
so my dad decided to make a de-tour.
wasted our 2 hrs jz liddat.
so left wit no choice,we went to bukit panjang al-ameen.

the food okie okie la. dun really favour them.
coz earlier of the day already to eat sth else,but when the time come
its not wat ive wanted.
so be it lor.
im suffering from a very terrible bodyache.
and i jz found out tt osman oso not feeling well.
all bcoz of the rainy weather.
both of us 'kena' the rain. reached home but din wash up straight away,
n this is the result.

so the moral of the story children..
" rain water is harmful.."

WTH?!

at last!
imanage to post in the new entry. this few days i did not
update my blogs coz i seems to have problem posting it.
nyhoos,problem solve.

its oready the third of ramadhan. alhamdulillah.
ive been waiting for this month to come actually.
been excited bout everything,
cos i frankly wanna say tt i miss this month so much.
this is the month where all the good things are happening.

insya allah.

but watever tt goes up must sure to come down rite.
good things doesnt oways happen to me then.
its really tough for me to go thru it n all. i need patience most.
at this age,when i think once again,i dun deserve to face all these.
but i have to accept it wit open arms. ya.
its bout me n boyfie.
onie fee knew bout this. coz toking to her n letting it all out
feels really good. i wanna call call my old peeps but im scared if im bothering
them or wat. so i'd stick wit fee. n farah nadiah too.

i need faith!