its sunday today.
ive been coughing like siao ca bo since afternoon.
why u asked?

coz my neighbour painted their house.
and i tink they never heard of the odourless paints.
for once i wanna smell of fresh air on sunday morning but i din get the chance.
i had to close all windows and door. but still.
not much of a difference. i had to smell the spearmint aroma tt i bought at the farm a few wks ago.
so much for a bright sunny sunday.

i spent my satruday wit my tekdee. @ France.
my class i meant.
yeah. i had to ask him to come and help me out.
life is difficult when u have to work alone and being a soloist afterall, there are the ups and the downs.
before i started with my work, i was very mad wit someone.
n im gonna get it done and over with them tmr. i'll make sure this time, watever shits they get themselves into, they are answerable for it.
i got sick and tired for being responsible for all their mistakes.
its time they should take things seriously and for the umpteenth bleeding times i said,
"BE RESPONSIBLE" for ur own action the least.

i dun wanna make my entry this time very unpleasent. but i have to.

niways, lets put tt aside.
having tek by my side ytd really made my day.
he brought me lunch. yey! so thoughtful of him u noe.
he always noe tt ive yet to eat my lunch. well i had a few munchies but not a proper meal yet.
after the lunch, we get things started.
my class is located at level 3.
we started off by doing my Bahasawan Bijak station. the whole thing just dropped.
n including ytd, tt was the 4th time i changed it.
hope this will last till SLC at least.

we had a great time together.
we laughed.
we smiled.
we looked into each other's eye.
we talked.
we joked.
we sang.
we dance.
we grooved to the music.

and by 7, we're done. he helped me with the doors too.
i decided to pull out the ustazah's name and replace my name with the new letterings.
done by azura. the font was gorgeous. furthermore, the arrangement of the font done by him.
im not onlie thanking u for helping me out wit my class. but for tt help too.
thanks to u, tek. no words can describe how much i appreciate the help tt offered me.

*warning. the following content may contain my bahasa ibunda*

tek sayang,

terima kasih atas segala pertolongan yang abg berikan. tersentuh hati nur bila abg sanggup lakukan apa sahaja untuk membuat nur kembali tersenyum. mungkin pada abg, apa yang abg lakukan hanyalah sebesar mana sahaja, namun pada nur, abg telah melakukan sesuatu pengorbanan yang amat berharga.

abg kata ini mungkin salah satu dugaan yang harus kita tempuh bersama. terima kasih sekali lagi nur ucapkan pada abg kerana sudi mengongsi beban dan masalah yang nur lalui skg. nur sama sekali tidak mahu abg rasakan apa yang nur rasakan. namun, luahan hati abg buat nur fikir sejenak..

abg kata, "whats the use of us being together? to share happiness only?"

nur tersentak. nur tersentuh teramat sangat. dan nur berasa teramat sangat bertuah mempunyai insan yang menyayangi nur seikhlas hatinya. dan nur menyayangi abg hingga ke hujung nyawa nur. nur berasa sangat bertuah kerana mempunyai abg yang faham isi hati nur. tidak ada ungkapan yang terbaik buat abg untuk nur lafazkan. yang penting,

nur sayang abg. nur cinta abg. sehingga ke akhir hayat.

yang menyayangi, mengasihi, mencintai
sedalam-dalamnya,
Nurulhuda aka Nur (Pus)

so ppl,

care to tell me,
whats the difference between "cinta" and "sayang"?

from ur own point of view and own understanding.
from ur own ways of seeing this two affections here.

tag me. lesbos are included.

*wo ai ni tek

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracksand now

I'm trying to get backBefore the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me

Ah, la peaceful melodys

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with meah, la one big family (2nd time: ah, la happy family)It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more

Oh no more no more no more

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure

Theres no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more

This cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

Istana Cinta

Dengan cinta ku bina istana
Kau sentuh runtuh jadi pusara
Cahaya hidup ku jadi gerhana
Bisa jiwa menanggung derita
Ku semai benih kasih sejati
Ku pupuk dengan baja nan asli
Ngapa kau siram racun yang pedih
Ku tuai kini hanya rasa yang sedih
Ku impikan istana janji mu
Ku hias cantik dalam angan-angan
Sebab bencana datang mengganggu
Kini hancur musnah istana impian

thanks to Suryatewi for this lovely song. she sang it after de-briefing and terpikat trus.

and i just realise, im so classic. so the oldskool.

ohh well, classic is sexy.

*winkz* te queiro tek!

tonite skul@Nanyang ended early.
i waited for ibu eagerly to fetch me.
while waiting, a call came in and this was how the conversation goes..

me: helo

there: helo, ukhti huda?

me: erm..yes spreaking. who is this?

there: ala ana la.

me: (confuse, suara lelaki kok nama ana?!) ana? ana mana?

there: maksud ana, nama ana hafiz. anti ingat tak sahabat ana nama hafiz?

me: (masih fikiran) hafiz mane eh? kenal ke?

there: kalau tak kenal, masakan ana bleh ader no hp anti.

me: (perfect sungguh melayu dia. siap campur ngan arab ana anti sume. aku pun start jugak la.) Afwan akhi. Tapi ana tak ingat la sape anta ni. kenal dari mana eh?

there: ala kesian tk ingat. ana ni sahabat anti masa kat madrasah dulu la. ingat tak?

me: (ni da conferm pening.) madrasah mane eh?

there: alah en-naeem la. kita kan bila madrasah firdaus. ust mat noh. ingat?

me: la haula wala..hafiz! apa khabar? sihat? isy. ber anta anti la plak. panggil nama tk bleh?

there: alah. teringat dulu zaman skola kena bobal macam nie. anti sihat?

me: (nak ana ke nak saya eh..alahai!) ohh sihat alhamdulillah. urself? (fuhh.. escape ar konon)

and so the conversation goes on n on till ayah n ibu arrived. hes planning for a gathering. and wants everyone to gather on one of the days. kuasa sungguh anak ni. and so i said to call me again once conferm.

and this whole day, i kept on missing tek.
is this wat u call Love?

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no words can described the feelings that i felt when i was with them.

thanks gerlfrens. specially for Nurhuda and Suzie Eryani.

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i love you and onie you.

" If ure asking if I need you, the answer is forever. If ure asking if I'll ever leave you, the answer is never. If ure asking what I value, the answer is you. If ure asking if I love you, the answer is I do.."

today, basically, CG is very boring.
bleeding boring i tell you. and for the last session, we did hell of an activity.
it was in a total mess and thank god, these kiddies decided to help me out with
the cleaning.

after which now im supposed to do some printing but i chose to blog instead.
i wanna share something..erm..i dunnoe how i shud put i. but to me, its cute.
a conversation, between me and my boys. France 3.

boy 1: u, u sit with me. we colour-colour together.
boy 2: u want to share with me? i colour not nice.
boy 1: u must try. k2 oready.
boy 2: alah ok la. eh teacher sit beside us. awak tengok?

and i sat beside them. adjacent from me was boy 3. opposite me was boy 4.
and there was a sudden quietness.
suddenly..

boy 3: my bro never keep his thing properly. and he is the grumpy one.

everyone looked at him. boy 1 was staring at him in awe.
i smiled. takde angin takde ribut, terus pasal "my bro".
and then i said,

me: ok continue.

and they continue to colour.

boy 4: y u never sit with the girls. y sit with the boys?
me: i cant sit with the boys issit?
boy 4: u gerl wat. must sit with the gerls.
me: ohh really? are u sure?
boy 1: no la. teacher women oready. no more girl. girl like MASYITAH like tt.
*and points at the girl tt the name was mentioned.*

i smiled.

boy 3: mr crabby loveth money. he alwayth count hith money. and spongebob loveth to do irritate thquidward. thquidward ith dumb.
*"s" karat

and he chuckled.
and everyone laughed too.
i looked at him. and smiled.


boy 2: must colour the behind or not?
boy 1: no need la. dun have anything wat.
boy 4: must colour la. teacher dun like white white.
boy 2: then colour wat colour?
boy 1: purple la. teacher nurul like purple colour.

i was stunned. he knew my fav colour?! touching nyer.

me: D*****..u noe my fav colour?
boy 1: cit. yalah. u tell me wat last time. u say u like purple.
me: n u rmbered?
boy 1: ask of cos rmb la. must rmb.

and tt really made my day. FYI, hes the first boy tt i had who can colour so neat. super dooper neat. later at nite, i met Tek. he also made my day. the idea of meeting is enuf to make my day.

*wo ai ni.

like finally!

we met last saturday, for "Klasik Mambo" stage show.

u have absolutely no idea wat i went thru an hour before i met them.

butterflies in my stomach.

cold sweat. fake smiles. sweaty palms. sweating profusely.

its like as tho im meeting the in-laws when actually its the gang that im meeting..

it seems ages for me to get ready.

the scarves was being hard on me. they are not being the usual.

crooked here and there.

first time too short.

second time too long!

third time, not centralised.

the fourth time, finally, its perfecto.

have i mentioned that my tek looked perfectly good-looking?

i love his hair.

i love how he looked like tt nite.

and i missed him like a lot a lot a lot.

i miss his smile.

and i love him.

we decided to take the taxi.

Y?

coz we tot we're late.

and i dun want to perspire unnecessarily.

and i want to maintain how i look.

so by the time i meet them i wont look bo-chap and sloppy.

seriously, u dunnoe how nervous i was.

when we reached there, they were not there yet.

i practice smiling so i looked friendly.

cant blame me for playing futsal before tt, and i was exhausted.

extremely exhausted.

but thinking tt i need to de-stress myself, i decided to proceed wit the plan.

10 mins later, they arrived.

i was sweating like siao ca bo liao.

tek kept on comforting me saying tt everythings gonna be alrite.

he kept on saying, "dun worry nur. u look fine. relax nur.."

*relax sgt la ni kan*

i saw kak aisyah. she looked gorgeous.

shes got sweet smile. and she handed me an orange sunflower.

tt was so sweet of her. i was speechless when i got the flower.

i salam-ed her. and i was freaking happie when i received the flower.

as i walked to the entrance, i sang a very irritating cheeky tune to tek,

"i have a flower, i have a flower, i have a flower, hey hey!"

all the way i tell u.

and overall, im happie.

i enjoyed tt nite.

we had dinner together.

i met that beautiful tasha for the first time too.

i met that comical dja.

and i met tt soft-spoken tek's bestie, afiq.

seriously he sounded like my besfren, Osman.

and when i looked at him, he reminds me of Osman.

looking forward for the next meeting.

kinda sleepy when typing this.

and i cant wait for tek's call. waiting patiently for his call.

i miss him.

"Nur sayang abg, sehingga ke akhir hayat Nur."

im on the fone now wit tek. in the mean time, enjoy the pics first. toodles.

it was a tiring week for me. and i dunnoe how to explain it literally.
physically, tek knew i tink that i looked extremely exhausted.
but tt doesnt mean i dun acknowledge about tek's existence.

u noe my sayang, Tekdee?
im sure u guys noe him.
he is soooo super dooper ultra sweet on wed.
he fetched me from skul@Nanyang.
the moment i stepped out from the lift, somehow or rather that very
similar scent welcomed me.
i smiled. i knew he was around there intending to surprise me or sth.
but then he wasnt around as i walk out of the building.
then i proceed to the usual spot where hes always wait for me.

as always.

there he was rite under the huge umbrella,
waiting for me wit a box.
i was not sure wat was it and i ignored the box.
looked at him and smiled.
smiled aje. dun wanna take my eyes off him.
i felt like i din meet him for quite a long time when its actually onie 3 hrs.
pfft.

the sweet kencing manis thing tt he did was he bought for me a
starbucks scone covered wit chocolate on top.
and it was still hot when he gave it to me.
i love him lor.
altho its very minor, but still, tt is so totful of him.
he is soooooo concern about me not eating properly.

i tink, now, i will not have the chance to skip meal.
hes always reminding me eat my lunch. and dinner.
and dun forget my breakfast.

tts y i sayang him.
sayang u Tek.

now i shall email my assignment on special needs.

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