i can be mentally disabled if i were to keep on thinking about the someone who is intruding of my pvt life. this is very disturbing. and if this goes on with him wanting to go thru my archive, i mite need to lodge a report.

aku rimas la. kalau bleh nak aje aku letak 24 hrs notice.
takdenya aku nak berenti cara baik kalau kisah hidup aku luar dalam pun dia nak jaga.
nak sangat jaga nama company konon.

kalau nak diikutkan, i never blog much abt it.
chet!
masih meluap2 ni kemarahan aku.
membara-bara la sangat!
and lagi menyirap when admin told me, we won last yr's idol due to "kesian".
one word.



MUSIBATON!

ok. now i have to invite readers. back to square one, i have to ask for log-ins now.
very the leceh but wat to do.
we have nosey parkers and ears have wall.

look, if i dun have the liberty to blog anything and till the extend that i have to be careful wit wat i blog abt, its damn irritating. its disturbing but then, my blog my say. if u dun like it, just move away. u dun have to show to the rest of the world and BITCH about wat i wrote. cant take it confront me face to face la.

report kat bapak buat ape!
skg aku peh suka nak cakap ape, sbb kau tak di-invite langsung untuk baca!!
geramnya aku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NP = NoseyParker.

enuff said.

Friendship is like a flower,

Glowing in its glory,

Each and every seed,

Telling its own story.

As each flower blooms,

And then continues to grow,

More of its strength and knowledge,

Continues to show.

And like a garden,

It blooms much more fair,

When carefully tended,

By those who care.

Once in a while,

You come acress a friend,

Who is as beautiful as a flower,

With a good heart to lend.

So I picked this flower,

And pulled it apart,

And soon all its pieces,

Grew into my heart.

But when I realized,

Is that this flower that grew,

Was not leaves and petals,

But pieces of you.

Your love and kindness,

Your strength and power,

Have helped me grow,

Into my own little flower.

And now with our friendship,

I'll never let go,

And we can help others,

To flower and grow.

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on a serious note, im at the verge of breaking down. i dunnoe how much longer i can stand and overcome everything that is coming through me. i just hope that i can endure all the obstacles and get it done and over with.

Oh Tuhan, please give me the strength and the ability to move and carry on. Ameen ameen ya rabbal a'lamin.

It doesn’t take a reason to love someone, but it does to like someone. You don’t love someone because you want to, you love someone because you are destined too. It’s because you fall in Love with them, that you then try to find a reason, but you always come up with the answer, No reason!

It has been a happy 8 months with you Tek...

I love you sayang...

this picture here is soooo cantik or wat? i am in love wit this picture. credit goes to lesbo Aidah as this moment was captured using her Canon EOS something something and Tekdee too for editting it. that was the 1st beautiful sunset that the both of us managed to catch at Sentosa Island @ Tanjung Beach.

my sayang here kan, has this very unique way of expressing his rinduness towards me. there are a few msgs that never fail to make me smile and sometimes chuckled to myself. and when he texts me while im werking, rite after im done wit the last session's dismissal, his msgs would always make me smile. this guy here surely noes how to do it. noeing that hes an english speaking man most of the time, reading his msgs in malay always make me feel awkward.

this one here is my most favourite malay msg from him..

"Nur kekasihku, ingin sangat abang hendak bersua muka dgn Nur, walaupun sesaat pun dalam perjalanan pulang. Tetapi, ada bisikan mungkin datangnya dari yang Ilahi mengatakan jangan. Biarlah abang merindui Nur, dan Nur rindui abg, dgn lebih lagi. Tahuilah, tiada siapa lagi pun yang mengisi hati abg yg tidak sempurna selain Nur, dan tahuilah, abg sgt sayangkan Nur.."

hehe cute kan my sayang ni. not to u maybe, but it is to me. sayang, u noe la im not tt expressive like u kan, and i never feel the rimas with wat u do for me. i like it and will always like it. in fact, dun stop doing it. keep on surprising me. this is the recent msg tt he gave to me. and this is so my tekdee.

"My love and desire for you is beating its pulse strong and alive rite now."

*heart melts*

my head is so heavy. everynite, before i go to bed, i actually had to swallow either, paracetamol, anarex or even worse, that yellow or purple migrain pill.

i dunnoe wats wrong wit me. i cant hear well too since ive been swallowing these tablets. im worried if things are getting worse. enuff wit the thyroid. and now, whenever i wanna turn my head, i had to move the whole body. i cant even tilt my head. and it hurts soooo bad.

u watch the movie "shutter" before?
saw the scene when the ghost sat on the actor's shoulder..?
tts the exact feeling im experiencing.

hmm now hungry ghost rite..?
skali....

ish. tk tk. aku tak buat pape pe.
tapi sakit sangat dooooooooooooooooooooong!