Assalammualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..

salam to all my mates. im back. but things aint getting any better though. im at woodlands library here. waiting for my adek angkat to come. well many things happen recently..follow the sequence aite..

1) my computer was hacked by some stupid hacker. it din only hack but also corrupt my online profile. most of my online frens already have the negative thoughts bout me. all these is because of tt hacker. now its CID-TCIB case. my cpu is wif my IO Veron. the TCIB officers need to do some checkin to find a proof n tangkap tt hacker. well its someone i knew anyway..so stupid of him to hack my comp n corrupt my online profile.

2) my boyfren, Bob Junior Dylan. he already pass away. da genap dua minggu die kembali ke rahmatullah. i miss him dearly. die menghembus kan nafas nya yg terakhir di australia. south wales. the things tt i got to always remember n pray for him is his yellow scruffy teddy,our engagement ring (now he gave it as b'day ring) his beanie n bj n his skate jeans. tts all. no pic of him. bile die menghembus kan nafasnyz yg terakhir,my pic is on his dada. n now the pic,yan told me is on his grave. i was so sad coz i din get to see him for the last time. i miss him so dearly..

3) remember zul. my teaching mate. yeah he left singapore already. he was being admitted to the oxford university. as soon as he graduated from SP. very proud of him. but wat really make me shocked is tt he called me at 4am,a few days before he left s'pore n tell me tt he want us to engage. when actually i have no feelings for him. absolutely no feelings towards him. i dunnoe y he have feelings for me. da nampak sah i have to reject. my mpm was so terperanjat. my dad too. my dad wanted to have to slow talk wif him but he have to leave for KL. my dad lambat setapak. then my mum said.."kite jus tunggu n lihat. kima tahun akan datang macam maner..kalau die tul tul sayang kau,die takkan berubah hati. jus wait n see dalam jangka masa lima tahun."
5 yrs lama tau...insya allah..
haiz..zul zul...Mohd Zulkarnain..

4) met ilmy jus now. tok tok n pass him some cds tt he want to borrow. haiz. went to jurong swimmin wif the jbs peeps ytd. it was a belated nora's birthday celebration. tml m goin again. but this time wif my siblings! hehehe

aite aite i got to go liao. update more when i have the time. salam alaik..

uh-huh!

salam alaik. hmm its been quite some time i update my blog. well been bz wif myupcoming mid yr next week. been study everyday. i'll log in to msn if only im having my break. tak sempat nak update my blog. im not in a mood to do anything lately. dylan went back home ytd n confirm hes not coming back forever. last sat he went back home but came back the next day as the datuk from malacca wanted to see him. then ytd nite,he fly back home again. n not comin back ever again. tts wat daddy told me as they cant travel alot. geez...~

i jus have to tawakkal n redha if its time for him to leave me n the world. i have to heed wafi's n infact everyones advice. im listening to hoobastank the reason. well i love the lyrics. it meant a lot to me. i jus realy hope to put all these aside n concentrate for my upcoming mid year. hmm ohh yeah i cant wait for the june hols as my skool is organising a skool camp wif the new yorkies. woots! n we're hiking the bukit timah hill. hmm wat else huh..

ohh yeah let me update all this. u peeps remember azmy.my ex (uh-huh), at last he got together wif nana. yeah the forever buddy. at last. happy for them actually coz tts wat nana wants actually. she jus keep on denying but now she cud not hold onto it anymore tts when she told azmy everything n tts where the thing started. wanna noe wat she did jus read her bloggie aite. n yeah one more thing,my buddy-bestfren,osman,already attached to hanah. the gerl hu came to my 17 bday party. all the best to u aite. insya allah.

and me..? wat to update bout me..? i dunnoe..

wassalam

listening to: the reason (hoobastank)

Mohd Mikhail Bob Junior Dylan..

salam alaik..

today was the most horrible thing tt happened in my life. dylan mite be leaving me forever n ever. received a msg from yazid,dylan's cousin. he said dylan is at Gleanegles Hospital. without wasting my time i travel all the way fron redhill to orchard. took cab from there.

upon i reached there,theres a small crowd outside dylan's room. my feet began to tremble. i ask the permission to see he for the last time. but i wasnt allowed. as only the one hu is close n blood relation is allowed in tt room. before u cud enter the room,u were needed to wear the green plastic jacket n gloves n face mask. even yazid n iryan n nad, his kuzzin were'nt allowed to be in tt room. i cud see him only from the small glass door. i cud see his white body. his skate shoes n skateboard by the bed. cud see him gasping for more air. he looked so pale. hes bald. my tears rolled down my cheek. so sad to see my bf in tt conditon. tt was the worst sight of him. yazid tried to consoled me. iryan gave me a hug. sat beside nenek. she too cant stopped herself from crying. dad went out from the room n saw me. he told me eversince dylan got out from the ICU,he kept callin out my name. i almost collasped but iryan n yazid hold me tite in their arm. dad said he have to bring dylan back home by tonite. by their private jet plane. the doc told me personally he have no hope anymore. waiting for his dying moment. i cried even more..

i cant help it. i cried alot. dad pitied me so much seeing me like tt. i dun have the last chance to see him. hold him in my arms. kiss him goodbye. all i can afford to do is to recite surah yassin for him. every single sec min n day. ohh tuhan dugaan mu amat berat.

iryan sent me home. he drove me wif his car. the car tt dylan used to fetched me from skool. im gonna miss him. all the things tt we did together. dad jus called me. to say the last goodbye. all i cud hear was the panting voice of dylan when dad gave the receiver to him. i cried even more. told him to be strong. n remember tuhan. remind him to berzikir inside the plane. n say tt he will always be in my heart. no matter wat.

i noe im not strong enuff to handle all these..i need him. told ibu bout this. ibu too was shocked upon hearing his condition. the sad thing is tt i dun have any pic of me n him taken. i guess im still phobia bout taking pic wif my love one. scared of loosing them so soon. but i guess,its still the same. the pic tt i have in my comp was gone as my comp was being re-boot due to the sasser virus. i need the recent pic of dylan from nana. i sent to her once. only she got the recent one. i miss him so much n im gonna miss him very much..

dylan..miss u hunzie. get well soon please. ajal maut di tangan tuhan..i want u back in my arms.

insya allah..

wassalam..

Tampiness Library..

salam alaik peeps. wooots! im at the tamp library now. accompanied wif fir n bell. i really want to check my email so bad so tt i can receive all my mail from the JBS committee mail. hmm hows my day. im kind of worried as gong din go to skool today.i guess he merajuk wif me. hmm maybe bout the fone call thingy. i sort of din layan him n he kecik hati i tink. haiz..ini anak sorang.

hmm yazid called me when im having my maths. talk for a while. we chatted over the fone as though im using line when actually im using prepaid.hmm kinda low already. dylan promise tt he wanna top up for me. insya allah by next week.

ohh yeah i have this eerie nitemare. not really a nitemare ar. its jus an eerie dream. hmm this person use to appear when im still together wif azmy. then for the last few days i kept on having the same dream. the same man who used to appeared last time appeared again in my dream. once i told azmy bout this n he said tt mite be the arwah bapak man. but now i n azmy have got nothing to do anymore. y he kept on appearing in my dream. each time bapak man tried to said sumtink to me,i ran away as fast as i cud from him. hmm pikiran ku dibuat nya. i wanted to call azmy n tell him bout this but cudnt find the time. hmm i tink im gonna call him when i noe already the reason y he kept on appearing in my dream. weird huh..aper agaknya disebalik mimpi nie eh..

anyhoos..i feel so fresh today. dunnoe y. when actually i slept very late. i watched video tt i recorded during the hari raya haji concert n SYF comp last yr. all those have turn into memories seh. miss them all..

ohh watched it coz my dad wanna sell my video camp. *sob**sob*

wassalam.

listening to: maroon 5 (this love)

ohh wats wif me..?

salam alaik peeps. im so so sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time. been bz wif skool. my second mid year n the most unpredictable thing tt happen which is my computer was infected by the stupid frustrating sasser virus. all my skools newsletter article n things was done halfway. the worse thing is tt my article wil be due by this week. im dead. the committee leader gonna screams her head off at me. at this point of time i really need it n this happen. it really suckz aite.

skool..
skool was fun. everyones great. me n gong is getting really intimate. comel also. bell as usual,we're very close from the start. well altho i have my new frens,i still remember my old peeps. eversince my comp was down,i spen most of my nites toking on the fone wif gong. u see since i start using prepaid,n theres this free line incoming n outgoing call,so we spent most if our time chattin on the fone. felt better after i share stuffs wif him. he share wif me bout his n i share mine wif him. hes really mr nice guy n i find him very comfortable chatting n sharing stuffs wif him. well dun get me wring,fazil is like a bro to me. we're more than jus a fren but not till into relationship. to all my peeps,fazil gong,nora bell,faiz comel,noreen rin n tengku fir..thanks for everything. thank u so much.

i pass my mid yr one wif flying colours. if only i cud do this good for my o level. i wont be stuck in this pvt skool. yeah i scored a2 for science. first attempt for phy n i pass. got a2 for english too. well mr singh is jus another person of mr fong. got b4 for my art. pvt student art is kinda bored but easy. easy to pass but diff to score. hmm wat else ohh yeah the most unexpected subject-to-pass subject;maths. i scored c5. hmm yeah c5. must do better leh..

must try my very best for upcoming mid yr 2. hmm..

dylan.......
and yeah as for dylan. well im kinda piss of wif him. he easily gave up n i hate tt. the most saddest thing is tt he told me not to put high hopes on him. i really pissed when he said tt. i made him promise not to say tt anymore.

for this past few days i coudnt contact him. tts y ive been spenting my niteless nite toking on the fone wif gong. i really miss him. wat i scared is tt, (my negative tots) one day i receive fone call from his house or sth n tell me tt hes gone forever. i dun wan tt to happen. i mean not yet...i dun wan to lose him...i really need him.. as for now..

miss u abang.

anyhoos,i wont be updating my blog REGULARLY till my comp kena reboot. im now at woodlands library. ohh my the moment i look up i saw nad's ex,fir. geez..mat! ohh anyway,im loggin off for now..take care peeps. see ya soon insya allah.

salam alaik.

listening to: tipah tetipu (ve n ruffedge)

blogstipation

salam alaik.
sorrie for not updating my blog for quite some time. been very bz wif skool. sorrie frens. i did update my blog. been bz wif skool n stuffs. my mid yr baru je habis. now bz prepare for the o. its jus ard the corner..

sorry aite

to muhd fazil..

salam alaik.
sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time. been busy wif skool n teaching.
for fazil my buddy,dun give up easily. ku seidh bila dgr kau cakap macam tu. jus tink positive aite n move on wif life. u still have me,bell,lan,tengku n rin. u can count on us aite..

i really hope u stay strong n sabar menempuhi semua dugaan yg kau lalui. trust me,ku sedih dan sehinggakan ku menitis kan airmata ku mengenangkan nasib mu itu. life is short. hope u handle things maturely.

anyway introdue u peeps to my fren..theres..

Gong=Fazil Tomok
Bell=Nora HipHop
Dang= Me (short form for gendang)
Tengku=Firdaus Listiluhu
Lan=Faiz Comel (short form for gamelan)
Rin=Noreen (short form for tambourine)

hmm..ni la kerenah budak JAMIYAH BUSINESS SCHOOL..

listening to: sarena ku cinta (newboyz)