@wafi's crib

salamz all..
m at waif's crib now. using her comp to send my cerpen.
hmm at last im done wif it. lega sikit la..
bell left fro melaka already. miss ya gerl.
aizad had an operation. dunnoe wat kind of operation.
bila ditanya operate aper,die jawab buah ketiga keluar dan harus dioperate.
notty eh aizad..

ohh have i mention tt yan left for harvard already?
miss him liao. but still can to contact him anyway.
kinda lonely when hes no more by side. no more motor riding.
no jaguar car riding. haiz..ohh i lost my dylan scruffy yellow teddy...!
im drop dead meat if nad find out i lost it.
geezz...

i miss yan.
i miss my comp..
haiyah..i cannot tahan to go to the toilet but then..isy!
ohh yeah,saying isy! i watched Devdas jus now. hehehe
hmm gonna prepare some notes for my tutee.
haiyah...

comot signing out!

wassalam..

salamz all...
 
hey hey hey.
m at the library now wit bell.
hungry. shag. headache.
plan to meet fir but all change last minute.
print a few of the lyrics.
baby boy. kau pergi jua. happy ending.
osman msg-ed me. saying he download for me kau pergi jua already.
yessaaa!!!
 
art was fun jus now.
skool mengarut. have to prepare for the teachers day concert.
each class have to put up one item.
BLEARGH!
read dee's blog. hahaha shes having lots of fun in her new environment.
wot her new frens.
dun forget me ya..
 
damn hungry la...
food. i need food...
 
wassalam..

salamz all.
prac was just fine jus now.almost everyone turned up for the prac except for comel.
did the shopping list wif bell.
gosh its over budget.dammit.
i must really start saving man.
now at the library. din get to meet yan as hes working the whole day.
studied bout light travel at the prac.jus great.
 
im hungry.
so hungry. made fren wit another yan. hes gorgeous.
drop dead gorgeous. gosh mdrooling now..hahahha
ohh..my sis is getting frombad to worse.
towards us.towards ibu especially.
she really need on tite slap from me.
seriously...so damn rude.......................................
 
i need cash.
im hungry..
ya allah..........
 
wassalam..

salamz to all..

sorry for the long long long time of not updating my profile. i was damn damn busy wif skool stuffs. n summore this damn computer of mine is still wif my IO Veron. its irritating when i called n asked her when i can get back my cpu n all she said is.."not so soon dear.." OHH!
hmm skool fine. in two weeks time im gonna have my CA2. tts y ive been bz. went to mayflower a few days ago to help the dancers wif their preparations for thier comp at Deyi sec. well during practice was okie okie but when on stage they were marvallous.(macam ni eh spell?) but they still can compete wif the best la..like teck whye n siglap. wonder how the raffles girls can dance so much well when actually last time they were so kayu. (hmm..practice makes perfect..)
went to this thing wif dee,comel n gong. hmm dee got interested wif comel. i really wonder if comel is really comel n HOT?! hmm wat else..
ive got my new email add already. got help from fir too. rite now im at the tamp library. wif fir. waiting for bell. shes having her malay oral. im very confident wif her as this is not her first time taking o level malay.wat i noe she did well for last year o level. she got an A2. i have faith in u bell..im goin home to sengakang after this. perut lapar la. meeting iryan later at nite. on the way to skool jus now met an accident. lucky i wasnt hurt. yan scratched his elbow.
take care dearie. u will be fine soon. insya allah. see u later tonite aite b..

ohh im hungry..shag..my ass hurt..

wassalam...

Assalammualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..

salam to all my mates. im back. but things aint getting any better though. im at woodlands library here. waiting for my adek angkat to come. well many things happen recently..follow the sequence aite..

1) my computer was hacked by some stupid hacker. it din only hack but also corrupt my online profile. most of my online frens already have the negative thoughts bout me. all these is because of tt hacker. now its CID-TCIB case. my cpu is wif my IO Veron. the TCIB officers need to do some checkin to find a proof n tangkap tt hacker. well its someone i knew anyway..so stupid of him to hack my comp n corrupt my online profile.

2) my boyfren, Bob Junior Dylan. he already pass away. da genap dua minggu die kembali ke rahmatullah. i miss him dearly. die menghembus kan nafas nya yg terakhir di australia. south wales. the things tt i got to always remember n pray for him is his yellow scruffy teddy,our engagement ring (now he gave it as b'day ring) his beanie n bj n his skate jeans. tts all. no pic of him. bile die menghembus kan nafasnyz yg terakhir,my pic is on his dada. n now the pic,yan told me is on his grave. i was so sad coz i din get to see him for the last time. i miss him so dearly..

3) remember zul. my teaching mate. yeah he left singapore already. he was being admitted to the oxford university. as soon as he graduated from SP. very proud of him. but wat really make me shocked is tt he called me at 4am,a few days before he left s'pore n tell me tt he want us to engage. when actually i have no feelings for him. absolutely no feelings towards him. i dunnoe y he have feelings for me. da nampak sah i have to reject. my mpm was so terperanjat. my dad too. my dad wanted to have to slow talk wif him but he have to leave for KL. my dad lambat setapak. then my mum said.."kite jus tunggu n lihat. kima tahun akan datang macam maner..kalau die tul tul sayang kau,die takkan berubah hati. jus wait n see dalam jangka masa lima tahun."
5 yrs lama tau...insya allah..
haiz..zul zul...Mohd Zulkarnain..

4) met ilmy jus now. tok tok n pass him some cds tt he want to borrow. haiz. went to jurong swimmin wif the jbs peeps ytd. it was a belated nora's birthday celebration. tml m goin again. but this time wif my siblings! hehehe

aite aite i got to go liao. update more when i have the time. salam alaik..

uh-huh!

salam alaik. hmm its been quite some time i update my blog. well been bz wif myupcoming mid yr next week. been study everyday. i'll log in to msn if only im having my break. tak sempat nak update my blog. im not in a mood to do anything lately. dylan went back home ytd n confirm hes not coming back forever. last sat he went back home but came back the next day as the datuk from malacca wanted to see him. then ytd nite,he fly back home again. n not comin back ever again. tts wat daddy told me as they cant travel alot. geez...~

i jus have to tawakkal n redha if its time for him to leave me n the world. i have to heed wafi's n infact everyones advice. im listening to hoobastank the reason. well i love the lyrics. it meant a lot to me. i jus realy hope to put all these aside n concentrate for my upcoming mid year. hmm ohh yeah i cant wait for the june hols as my skool is organising a skool camp wif the new yorkies. woots! n we're hiking the bukit timah hill. hmm wat else huh..

ohh yeah let me update all this. u peeps remember azmy.my ex (uh-huh), at last he got together wif nana. yeah the forever buddy. at last. happy for them actually coz tts wat nana wants actually. she jus keep on denying but now she cud not hold onto it anymore tts when she told azmy everything n tts where the thing started. wanna noe wat she did jus read her bloggie aite. n yeah one more thing,my buddy-bestfren,osman,already attached to hanah. the gerl hu came to my 17 bday party. all the best to u aite. insya allah.

and me..? wat to update bout me..? i dunnoe..

wassalam

listening to: the reason (hoobastank)

Mohd Mikhail Bob Junior Dylan..

salam alaik..

today was the most horrible thing tt happened in my life. dylan mite be leaving me forever n ever. received a msg from yazid,dylan's cousin. he said dylan is at Gleanegles Hospital. without wasting my time i travel all the way fron redhill to orchard. took cab from there.

upon i reached there,theres a small crowd outside dylan's room. my feet began to tremble. i ask the permission to see he for the last time. but i wasnt allowed. as only the one hu is close n blood relation is allowed in tt room. before u cud enter the room,u were needed to wear the green plastic jacket n gloves n face mask. even yazid n iryan n nad, his kuzzin were'nt allowed to be in tt room. i cud see him only from the small glass door. i cud see his white body. his skate shoes n skateboard by the bed. cud see him gasping for more air. he looked so pale. hes bald. my tears rolled down my cheek. so sad to see my bf in tt conditon. tt was the worst sight of him. yazid tried to consoled me. iryan gave me a hug. sat beside nenek. she too cant stopped herself from crying. dad went out from the room n saw me. he told me eversince dylan got out from the ICU,he kept callin out my name. i almost collasped but iryan n yazid hold me tite in their arm. dad said he have to bring dylan back home by tonite. by their private jet plane. the doc told me personally he have no hope anymore. waiting for his dying moment. i cried even more..

i cant help it. i cried alot. dad pitied me so much seeing me like tt. i dun have the last chance to see him. hold him in my arms. kiss him goodbye. all i can afford to do is to recite surah yassin for him. every single sec min n day. ohh tuhan dugaan mu amat berat.

iryan sent me home. he drove me wif his car. the car tt dylan used to fetched me from skool. im gonna miss him. all the things tt we did together. dad jus called me. to say the last goodbye. all i cud hear was the panting voice of dylan when dad gave the receiver to him. i cried even more. told him to be strong. n remember tuhan. remind him to berzikir inside the plane. n say tt he will always be in my heart. no matter wat.

i noe im not strong enuff to handle all these..i need him. told ibu bout this. ibu too was shocked upon hearing his condition. the sad thing is tt i dun have any pic of me n him taken. i guess im still phobia bout taking pic wif my love one. scared of loosing them so soon. but i guess,its still the same. the pic tt i have in my comp was gone as my comp was being re-boot due to the sasser virus. i need the recent pic of dylan from nana. i sent to her once. only she got the recent one. i miss him so much n im gonna miss him very much..

dylan..miss u hunzie. get well soon please. ajal maut di tangan tuhan..i want u back in my arms.

insya allah..

wassalam..