this is a pending entry actually. ignore it or just proceed if u feel like it.

niways, i jus dun like the feeling that i have for myself. i mean all this promotion thing doesnt help me in any bit. in fact i felt so much pressurised u noe. pressurised as in, im scared i couldnt go on MC if i reported sick. im just stupidly stupid naive. and i have this feelings that no one gonna listen to me if i have an instructions to give or message to deliver.

true enuff i gain much attention, but not in a very good way tho. they see me differently now n i hated that so much. u noe, no more the joke joker yul again. they see me and they gave me the smirking face like as tho u need to give them one tight smack so just that they can look at u normally like how they used to.

and today actually i reported sick. onie god noed wat happen to me. i fell. n i hurt my back. and it ache so much that i have to put pillow rite under my waist to support. when siting, i cant slouch like how i used to and i have to sit straight just like how i sat during the debating competition that i went when i was in sec 5. i noe i shudnt be complaining but i just cant la.

and doc said my bone is freaking fragile as im low in calcium. i was like wth. wats wit the milk that ive been drinking all this while? he spotted and i see it wit my own eyes theres hairline crack on the waist bone. freak i tell u.

he reminded not to carry any heavy stuffs. so its well spotted i couldnt carry ilhan my pg kiddo anymore when he reaches the skool tmr. ohh my. so much things to avoid yet so many things to look upon to.

ppl must be like " wat la u. ure the most crappiest snr teacher wg ever have la. so fragile and ure immune is freakingly weak la dey. " and they will write a petition to have thier snr teacher change! i die i tell u!

aniways, after visiting dr lim, i went to maybank. settled a few stuffs and rented a few videos for bro. looked for devils wear prada for lesbo fee but couldnt find it. say it was on rental. and i put it on the waiting list. i m amazingly tired now as i have to sit straight and i cant slouch a bit. i mite have to go for another check up and it is on one of these days. i told the doc that i mite give it a miss and he said suit myself. blardy hell doc. he smiled anyways and i assumed hes joking. shit.

i looked damn tall. no wonder its difficult for me to find guys whos taller then me. i look tall la for a gerl's normal ht. shorter can? but i dun wanna look stout la. i need heels niways. he said he loves looking at me wearing baju kurung wit heels.

guess who?

well no prezzie tho for rite answers. so im like searching high and low for some decent heels which is obviously have my size la. mind u i have big feet wokay~!

k i have announcement to make loyalties. pls settle down. sit straight and dun slouch.

rite.

on tuesday, i was called to come into the office. and mdm spoke to me. and on thursday morning she broke the news. and on thursday evening debriefing, lesbo fee broke another news. so wats the news im talking about?

exactly after 2 years and 4 mths with iMAN, after many experiences in handling big major events, after many things that i have to go through, after all the thick and thin..

iMAN promoted me to Senior Teacher for Woodgrove. and not onlie dat, i was promoted to K2 Harvard and PG Kingston. Kudos to me!

y my entry so formal leh.. make it easy can?

and so ya loyalties, ive been promoted. now im responsible for all the things that lesbo fee used to. ohh, and she was promoted to the Head Teacher for Woodgrove. Euphoria for her!

and literally i shud be happy rite with the promotions and the hand over of stuffs, but deep down inside my heart, im feeling lonely.

1) the fact that family is leaving tonite for a holiday cum ibu bday celebration.

2) a change of teaching partner. a major changes to be exact. back to independent me. used to be pampared by the ustazah and a very useful partner.

3) jay making me jealous by going out wit a gerl for a movie "ninja turtle" despite the fact that he claimed when i overheard his conversation on a fone when we went out the other time, saying that ninja turtle is effing lame and boring. when i offered to watch movie, he said he was cashless, i offered to treat him but he rejected. and now a week after, he said hes at the cinema watching that "effing lame and boring" movie. he said k.

wth.

shims said i shudnt have this kinda feelings as he isnt my bf. he have the liberty to go out wit everyone. and after much logical thinking, i tink, i shud let him go.

shud stop thinking bout him.

shud stop bothering him.

shud stop msg him like he will be be n forever be mine.

shud stop everything that is linkage to Abdul Jalil.

but bestie osman asked, will be able to stop. or worse IGNORE? he just knew me too well la. i called him n consult him. i cried and he actually coax me. so sweet of him.

i shud concentrate on someone else.

i shud like give chance to others.

i shud like try to accept yadh's existence. (im trying my very best in this...)

i shud priotise my work! and children! and the new responsibilities! and to the family! (thats the most important thing!)

yeah i shud. so no more pwince. no more heart. we shall just see la k.








help me can?

It's All About Him!

i love this week. well despite the fact that im down with sore eyes, but wt i like so much about is that, i met jay thrice this week! hell im gonna miss him sooo bad when he started his temp job at vivo.

kk i so cant wait to blog bout him. its all about him k.

hehe the training cum curriculum meeting that i had at tamp was the first of everything. not the first time i met him or wat la but the first time of this epidemic meet up. but tt was just awhile meet up onie coz seeing me half dead, dragging my feet meeting him, so he decided i shud just head home straight. i was kinda dissappointed la kan coz gt to mit up a while onie. but we manage to share lame jokes and chit chat and went for early light dinner.

so we shall skipped wat happen the nx day as u noe i was down wit sore eyes!

n so on thurs i din go for my tarian prac as it still sores. the redness was reduce but the watery watery just wont stopped. i ended up at sengkang after the tuition. well kak su demand to have the tuition not worrying bout my conditions. n i overnite at sengkang. watched muvie and slept late. tt actually worsen the eye condition u see as i have to squint my eyes and because of that i was called, cina bukit sesat.

thanks la eh.

n so on fri, after lunch, jay msg-ed n complained cum sympathy-seeker saying that hes alone at vivo. his intentions was to looked ard at his werk place but he din noe its gonna be tt bored. he was hinting la and i sardinely ask, if he needed me to accompany. gatal la plak kan. slamat la mata da baik coz my nenek did sth to it before i went to bed the previous nite. it was shimmery shimmery wen i woke up la kan.

and so we spent the time together at vivo. classic i tell u. i like how the thing goes la kan. i shall not go in detail on tt. coz im scared later u ppl mite have the sore eyes.. wakaka!

and so sat hmm.. i went jb wit family. still on mc la kan. so bought few stuffs at jb. and slept late. we had movie marathon. and on sun, today to be exact, i woke up kinda early coz gt tuition. i was sent and fetched and i felt like a princess totally. later in the evening, met up wit him again at boon lay. this time to pass the card that partner aidah ordered from him. im freaking jealous coz its freaking gorgeous k.

he decided to meet me today after his kendarat coz he said he mite be bz as hes starting to werk temp at vivo. we chatted. we had great laugh. we discussed on wedding bands. kental la kan kite nie. n i told him tt i like my bridal dais to have swings decorated wit umbrellas and all. n he actually sekaki by saying that this bridal service do provide this kinda set up.

im so gonna love him to bit.

but one thing i dun like bout him, KATA DIA, KATA DIA LA. DEGIL NAK MAMPOZ.

i tink tts wat guys are about rite?

and guess who i saw??! my bestie osman! hes in CD now fyi. hehe. kekek la. coz i was like kutuk all the mat CD tt passed us by at mrt, jay also joined in k, and there my own bestie is one of them. haha.

and aku rasa entry da bo chap. ni la akibat kalau update bila ngah kelam kabut.

k la so long peeps.

k time to update. less noise please. ppl. behave.

wat onie. haha.

niways, heloo to all loyalties. sowie for a very long time period of quietness and hibernation. well u cant rush a perfectionist. u noe i have to go thru lots of hassle and lots of decision making ya noe. so like exactly now then i can have a breather. so excuse me can?

hehe.

ppl said im demanding. wat la sey demanding? can dun judge me without knowing me well? lesbos..am i demanding? well lets make a point then, if wat i demand for is logical, then ya la thats besides the point rite? i mean, the topic here now that we're debating now is sooo irrelevant can?! i am not supposed to update about this stupid thing la seh. i shud like update wat happen to me recently..

pergh!! *smacks forehead*

niways, daily now, i made myself run with i dunnoe how many rounds. and i made the effort to go to the gym despite my hectic schedule. and just ytd i made myself do the payback. i was down wit sore eyes la! i woke up with so many shits on my eyes, n literally i cant open my eyes. so i tot another prank that my bro did to me. so i was like a blind mice walking towards the toilet to get ready for the rest of the day. i emptied my bowels and wash the face just so that i can open my eyes and see my beautiful morning face.

n so i grabbed my facial seaweed cleanser from body shop (unpaid self-promo! kiuk!kiuk!) and did the usuals and ya la i dun have to go into details la kan. but i can tell u, the sores in the eyes was unbearable la kan n i tot the foam got into my eyes. n so i dried myself up. while i was drying my hair i decided to look at the mirror.

BLOODY HELL!

n it was sure bloody red i tell u. my eyeballs are freaking red la sia! i shrieked! no i cant shout as that will awaken everybody else and i dun wan that to happen. n so i was like a mad cat now, ran out from the toilet and search for my cell and texted fee.

fee! i got sore eyes! my eyeballs are red!!

and u noe wat she replied? very simple.

waduh2.

waaaaa. i was like wat the hell am i supposed to do. kanchiong la kan as i rarely have this eyesore thingy. usually its the diarrhoea or migrain or fever or asthma onie. now it involves the eye tau. so i woke the sister up..

dik..mata aku sakit. aku ada sore eyes. macam maner nie...?

she bo layan la sia. i was urggh!

so i texted fee, mdm n nuran telling them i need to see the doc.

n guess wat i did the whole day after the visit to the clinic? i slept the whole day la seh. wat i planned for the whole day really goes down to the drain. i onie woke up just in time for the dancefloor. tt one oso i have to like hug the tissue box and kept on wiping the tears off my eyes.

damn irritating. i wud rather have diarrhoea then sore eyes. very sore-ful ya noe wat i mean? hehe.

woohooo!

like finally my blog will be update. hehe thanks to lesbo for the changes. i love it this way. very the myself.

niways, theres lots of things happening ard me. i shall not say it wat issit as it will be a lengthy one i tell u. just a lil brief of it.

goodness! i dun even noe where to start! lests starts wit lesbos fee's bday. hehe full update on it wit pics and everything, click to Aidah linkies. she full update about it. n i spent alot on her this yr. we shall make it big for the Aidah oso this yr. just make sure shes not out of town like last yr.

ohh now. exactly like rite now, herman is like confronting me. how come i went all silence and din call him anymore.

do i have to justify on dat?

well my instinct said, relax sua. haha.

ok ok. me n yadh doin super dooper fine. dunnoe when this thing will last. but apparently, we're doin perfectly a-ok. me and heart plak, oso doin absolutely fine. we're meeting very often more than u noe. its all about art, dancing and tailoring. yeah its goody goody ubber fun when u have the same head into sth. i like the things that goin on btwn us.

i'll be werking till wed. n im meeting heart at tamp. after training. and tmr im werking. the afternoon shift. for the open house la wat else. dunch u read papers?

niways, i wanna congratulate my sister, Adik FARAH! she make it to Innova JC and do MLEP. hehe congrats dek. we will mit soon. tts a promise. the present is like tangkap habuk k. haha.

actually i have lots of things to blog about but its just tat im all occupied now and its rather hectic i must say. shall update when im super dooper free la.

chowz loyalties!

okay since fee said that her Ryan Ross is hot. i tell u Brendon Urie is hotter can!



my knees can go super weak when i see him pout his lips! jay look so much like him. now let me ask myself, i like brendon bcoz its brendon or because jay looks like him?

wakakaka!

the mystery will remain unfold. i tell u. i can go craayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyzie wit Brendon Urie. i want Brendon Urie can?

mummy, bump into him again. plz?!

apologies for the long time missing in action. shall update now. shall shorten the all-mighty-lengthy entry.

lets starts wit a day wit boyfie. for reference, boyfie- fayyadh. take note on that. particularly someone pointed out and asked to answer her the miseries that she went thru, wanting noe if we're serious or anything. well, like wat a fren said, let the heart lead everything. as for now, its the heart thats doin the stuffs. this useless soul is a total ridiculous. hopeless i tell u. very indecisive.

had a fine great date wit him. we decided to meet once a week. and apparently the last time that we met was on the v-day. i tell u, v-day this yr is so so so different. i receive no bouquet. i receive no flower. i receive no bracelet. but i receive a ring. from him la who else.

next its about my love. note now my love is known as heart. due to some unforeseen circumstances, i have to change the labelling. and as to avoid confusion, please do take note aite. now jay formerly known as my love, changed to heart. yeah. heart. so we went on a muvie date. we watched a very lousy movie at suntec. after that we had our late lunch cum early dinner. it was a nice one to one close experience. but no doubt we're still super dooper shy wit each other. and jz ytd we met again. he tagged along to lin's wedding. we have yet to take pictures together. soon i promise. the feelings just kept on growing....n growing...n growing.

after the date with heart, met didi to go to dayak's bday gathering. not many turned up. pity her. but its all good. we had a great time after all.

so i guess that wraps up the whole thang. not too detailed as i dun tink its necessary for me to pen down everything.

its the updating that matters most.

just note that, im still in a confusion state aite.

ouh one last thing! my latest possesion is BRENDON URIE! go figure who the hell is he.